rachg82: (tami scrunchy face)
Effing Christ, my upstairs neighbors are being super loud lately. It's like they're playing catch with furniture or something. And missing. BOOM. BOOM. BOOM. Every other minute. I don't even get it.

(of course it doesn't help that the walls are literally thin enough for me to hear one of them vomiting at the moment -- seriously)

ANYWAY, who's in the mood for some meme-osity? I won't be posting my Year in Review or 2011 Soundtrack until it's closer to the end of December, but [livejournal.com profile] bibliodragon recently shared a "first posts of the month" meme, and I thought that looked just random enough to be fun. Out of context subject headings ahoy )

Also, I got tagged by [livejournal.com profile] sonneta today for another meme:

The rules:
1. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
3. You have to choose 11 people to tag.
4. No tag backs.

Here are the questions she gave me )

Moving on, I finally attended an ACA meeting again yesterday & even went to lunch with some of them after. I kinda wish I hadn't done the latter though, just because of the money involved + this one lady who kept saying things that bugged the CRAP out of me. Not ACA-related, but more so society-related (hence my subject heading today -- it's from Lewis Black's bit about hearing something so stupid & senseless that you get an aneurysm from it, because you just. can't. let it. go. "If it weren't for my horse, I wouldn't have spent that year in college!" Haha). But it tainted the day regardless. Even so, there were a few thought-provoking things I got out of the meeting itself, so that's good. I've had a lot of conflicted feelings about the program & some of the regulars there in general circling my mind ever since though, and I'll probably just have to hash that out with my counselor. The "Thought Train" strikes again, oy.

On a way off-topic note, I read this week that Leverage cut to protect the spoiler-free )

Finally, I'm almost done with my show meme. Only one more entry to go after this. Gilmore Girls and My So-Called Life )
rachg82: (Adama/Roslin Oath kiss)
I don't think I've mentioned this here yet, but [livejournal.com profile] dosidella recently linked me to this site, which allows you to play old-school games like Dr. Mario & Donkey Kong online legally for free (no downloading required). I figured more than a few of you would be interested. So!

In other news:

-Rizzoli & Isles continues to be the gayest thing to ever happen to me. I'm saying. Gayer than my on-again, off-again WTFship with Amy. Gayer than RuPaul's Drag Race on Logo. Gayer than Ms. Jay teaching you how to smize. Gayer than all six seasons of The L Word, including that time Dana took a hit of acid and danced around on stage with Tegan & Sara. Okay, maybe not THAT gay, but pretty effing gay nonetheless )

-I don't have anything to say about Psych, Community, or Parks & Rec this week except to give all-around gold stars.

-Revenge is the crackiest shit that ever cracked.

-I'm still watching Castle, and I enjoyed it this week, though it made me wrack my brain trying to remember the name of the XF fic I read way back when which started out basically the same way. Oh, interwebz.

-Bones )

-I was thinking it'd be fun to do a poll here asking people to choose which three eps they'd use to introduce a newb to the fandom(s) of their choice, but then it was like -- um, I don't know what shows you'd pick or how much room you'd need for your answers. And then of course I could pick the shows, which is what I'm about to do, but creating a real, actual poll for that kind of dealio sounds like a lot of work. And see my mood icon? Right.

So, instead, here's a list of shows (I'm limiting myself to ten). You can share your answers in the comments (and feel free to add new fandoms of your own):

-Bones
-X Files
-Battlestar Galactica
-Buffy
-Angel
-Gilmore Girls
-My So-Called Life
-Community
-Parks & Rec
-Psych

I'll share my choices in my next entry, obviously.

In RL news:

-I made home-made GF mac & cheese tonight, and it was pretty dang good. If you'd handed it to me without telling me it was GF, I wouldn't have been able to tell the difference.

-Similarly, the GF rigatoni I had with B earlier this week tasted great as well. This is a big hoo-ray thing for me, because up until now I hadn't been able to find any good rice-based noodles, and it was very tragic.

-Aside from the cooking, I've been super lacking in motivation this week. One of those ~I don't want to do anything, say anything, move my body, or think~ situations. Where it's all you can do to get your dishes done, drag yourself to the store, etc. Like, writing this entry is an accomplishment. I missed my appointment with my psych today (though I'm still seeing my counselor tomorrow), spent a lot of time in bed for no reason, took forever to do anything or go anywhere, and yeah. I just feel stressed, I guess. And it's adding to the depression, so that sucks. I think I'm nervous about talking to my sister as well, especially after I reread the email she sent me (from when our uncle died) while I was working on my Year in Review post this week. It's like -- how much could she have changed in five or six months? And what caused her to change? How do I know she doesn't still feel that way underneath it all? How do I know it's not LIKELY she'll say that kind of stuff to me again soon? I'm going to talk to my counselor about it tomorrow, but in the meantime it's weighing on me.

And I think that's it. For my Vid of the Day, here's a lighthearted one by TaraGel:

rachg82: (roslin bitchface)
Ugh, worst part about being on my period? Even worse, perhaps, than the uptick in depression, irritability, and anxiety? The increase in my freaking "Good morning! Not! Muahaha" migraines, that's what. I HATE HORMONES.

Anyway, I'm tired of lying down with an icepack, so I'm in one of those "Y'know what, pain? I can't even hear you. La la la"-moods, trying to distract & detach. Ergo, spam for you lot. Enjoy.

First, another meme (P.S. I plan to answer your questions from yesterday's meme soon, promise):

Lyric Meme

Give me a character or a ship and I will give you a lyric (or a few) that reminds me of them.

And now for rambling:

1. Let me get this straight, this guy gets the death penalty amidst all the controversy (eyewitness testimony? Really, people? Do I need to point out the studies indicating how effing unreliable that shit is?), while these cruel bastards get 4-15 yrs? It's certainly not news to me, but it just sucks to be reminded how frakked the justice system in this country really is, not to mention the safety net for mentally ill/homeless people. My schizophrenic uncle's just lucky to have been in halfway homes & on proper medication for so much of his life, including the medication he takes now to deal with all the side effects from the shock therapy he received back in the day.

I like the comment too from the person who was all, "His dad ~let~ him be homeless and now wants to sue the police?" Yes, because A. his son's life ceased to matter after becoming homeless, apparently, and B. it's super easy to control a mentally ill adult, force them to live where you want, force them to stay on the right medication--or even have good access to it--and get them the help they need after most of the old hospitals got shut down & shelters/ERs across the nation became understaffed & overloaded (I still remember talking to ER nurses & listening to them vent about the system while my mom slept there on a gurney for days, waiting for a single bed to open up in the psych ward). I'd like to invite that guy to actually be related to a seriously unstable individual for a decade or two & then get back to me on that. God. Someday I will learn to stop reading Yahoo comments, but apparently that's still a work in progress.

2. I have several ignorant cooking questions to ask. Fortunately, I have you all to answer them (lookin' at you, especially, Jas) )

3. I haven't talked about Parenthood yet, so I should probably rectify that: cut for spoilers )

4. I watched "When We Were Kings" this week. It had a lot of clips I'd already seen (my dad had a vid of the entire Rumble in the Jungle match when I was younger, which included various bits of news footage from those years. I watched it with him once), but there was stuff I'd never seen too, and it was very entertaining overall. I'd listen to Ali talk all day. We're gonna get it on because we don't get along! Haha. Love him.

5. Facebook continues to be the devil. What's worse than obligatory friendships with people who really aren't your friends anymore? Seeing them talk to each other like BFFs & not include you. It's my fault though. For one, this is why I hide them (then occasionally look on their wall anyway, like some kind of masochist. It's like the Yahoo comments thing), and for two, it's not really obligatory to keep them as "friends" at all. It's just hard to defriend. You know people make such a big deal out of it, will probably tell the others, "Oh, you know, Rachael actually defriended me this week" (cue: "What's with her?" bla bla bla gossip), despite the fact that for all intents & purposes they haven't BEEN my friends for a good year now. It's just so annoying.

6. The guy I talked to at unemployment yesterday said his records showed that I called on the 13th, so the form's deadline shouldn't be an issue. Of course he also kept being like, "They'll honor the date of the postmark, don't worry" and was obviously not paying attention to my question. But I broke it down for him AGAIN, and was like, "The form is going to be postmarked LATE. L-a-t-e, late. But it also said I could call, which I did. And you show that, correct? Which means I'm okay?" And he said yes. So…I guess it's okay. I didn't really trust him though. We'll see. Either way, it still leaves the problem open-ended because I don't know if they'll reopen my claim, but I at least don't want it to be denied because of a postmark date of all things.

BTW, I wasn't really that rude to him, heh. But I'm feeling venty today, so just go with it.

7. I have a phone appointment with the SNAP people this Friday to determine my eligibility for food assistance & state health care. Fingers crossed, folks.

8. My first appointment with Luke Dorf is Monday. The intake lady told me that the crisis team already gave me a preliminary diagnosis of major depression, which didn't surprise me (I've been diagnosed with it before + Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Social Anxiety Disorder). It sounds like I'll be getting a full assessment next week though. The one I got with the psychiatrist wasn't one of those "let's diagnose you" deals, more so a medication check up with a short series of questions. The person I'll be seeing is only listed as a QMHP, though, I think, so I don't know what level of experience to expect or how relevant it'll be to my situation. But I hope it works out.

9. As for a RL update on how I'm doing, the last few days have been somewhat hard, emotionally. Not just for the financial stuff, but thoughts & dreams of family, friends, loneliness, etc. But it is helpful to know I'll be talking to someone soon. I did take a walk yesterday as well, for the first time in a while, which was nice. Sometimes it makes me sad now to be in nature, because I used to spend so much time outdoors with my nephew (we'd go for what we called "expeditions" and what-not, make it into a whole big thing, wandering in the forest, looking for bugs & animals, stuff like that), but it's still soothing to me, and brings my spirits up when I pass by toddlers driving their parents crazy with non-stop questions & the like. Heh. "Why is the dog sniffing that?" "Because that's what dogs like to do." "Why do they like to do that? Moo-oom? Why? Why do they like to sniff? Why--" "Because they just do." "Where'd the sky go? Where's the river?" "We can't see it because of the trees. It'll be back." "When?" Seriously, non-stop, this little girl was. I had to fight myself not to laugh.

10. For my Vid of the Day, here's some more purty music:

rachg82: (rizzoli/isles girls with guns)
OMG, you guys, I don't even know what to do with Rizzoli & Isles anymore. When did it become such a joyous, fantabulous thing? And why must it be on hiatus now until NOVEMBER 28TH? UNJUST, I SAY. I demand hot nekkid first-time sex shenanigans R/I fic recs immediately. And I'm really gonna need the library to hup to when it comes to getting me season 1. Like, for real-real, not for play-play. STOP HOGGING ALL THE GAY, UNIVERSE.

…Um, anywayyy. Heh. Don't mind my flail. It's just gonna get worse from here, I'm afraid, since I'm about to ramble about tonight's summer finale. cut for spoilers, a few run-on sentences, my thoughts, fave quotes, and probably a significant amount of capslock )

-I don't think I've rambled that much about an episode for a while. Ha. (I told you I was experiencing all the feelings)

-Speaking of feelings, I rewatched "Resurrection Ship Part 2" today. It's still amazing. On just so many levels. It basically encompasses everything I love about BSG. And, heads-up, BBC America will be airing it this Saturday, PLUS "Epiphanies." WATCH.

-My resurgance of video game love continues. I played (and beat) Donkey Kong Country today. My thumb is, once again, still numb. Haha. I'll probably carry on with the second & third DK games later.

-My apartments replaced my fridge & kitchen light today. Not exciting, I know, but boring RL info has its place here too, right?

-I had quinoa for breakfast today. Substituted coconut water & added brown sugar, honey, vanilla extract, & a bit of jam. It was--shocking, I know--almost too sweet. Heh. But quinoa generally has like zero flavor on its own, imo. Next time I want to try the quinoa porridge recipe I found online, which uses almond milk & cinnamon. What wouldn't be good with almond milk & cinnamon? I ask of you.

-I should find out at some point today whether my unemployment claim for last week will be reopened/accepted. Please send all your good mojo this way, because I really need it to work out. I'm trying not to think yet of what I'll do if it's denied, because I'm just hoping I don't have to go there. If it does come down to that? I'll have to deal with it then. But I don't want to freak out unnecessarily in the meantime.

ETA: I just checked the website & they said my payment wasn't processed because of a "problem" & that "instructions" would be mailed to me. I'm trying to not freak out right now, but only being partially successful with that. I'm going to call them in the morning, and I just pray I can work it out over the phone. I can't afford to wait around for a letter & fight with the government about this, and I mean "can't afford" literally. I won't have enough money for food, let alone bills, medicine, or rent. I'll have one week's pay on Friday and THAT'S IT. That job never even technically told me I was fired, either, which I think is extremely weird. I'm almost tempted to email or call & be like, "Um, AM I FIRED?" I should be, but shouldn't they have SAID so? Definitively?

-I decided against doing that lj anniversary meme I mentioned before. The questions are too boring. Not that I think anyone was waiting with bated breath for me to post it, but still. Heh.

-Parenthood has its premiere tonight (or "tomorrow", considering I haven't gone to bed yet. Details, details). I'm v. much looking forward to it.

Aaand that's all for now. For my Vid of the Day, here's something I came across recently which completely cracked me up (a looong time being my sister's nanny + being significantly older than my little brother…yeah. I get it):

rachg82: (rizzoli/isles llbffs)
1. Two hours cleaning = I iz tired nao. No mas, por favor. Still need to do laundry though, ugh.

2. New icon, check it. I bet you feel gayer already. (Feel free to swipe as long as you give me credit.)

3. Speaking of R&I, I rewatched this week's ep last night and couldn't resist jotting down some of my favorite lines & moments this time: cut for spoilers )

4. I told y'all this tag of picspams would never end. Three new categories, ahoy )

5. Current finished its "50 Documentaries To See Before You Die" series last week, and the complete list can now be viewed here. I watched "Trouble the Water" and "An Inconvenient Truth" yesterday, both of which are on the list. Most everyone's seen An Inconvenient Truth, so I'll skip talking about it in detail, but I will say that I enjoyed it. As for Trouble the Water, it was really, really good. Great timing for seeing it, too, what with the six year anniversary of Katrina this week.

For my VotD this time, let's go with a Bones pick. This one's by BONESgeek & contains spoilers through season 6:

rachg82: (Adama/Roslin reading is sexy)
1. Here are my answers for that ship meme )

2. I was on hold with the unemployment agency for three--count them, THREE--hours today. Let me break it down for y'all:

First hour: Waiting, waiting, waiting -- whoops, my cordless phone died. SON OF A.

Second hour: Calling back on old school coiled-cord-having phone (bonus: it magically turns modern hold music into funky victrola jamz (not really)), waiting, waiting, almost falling asleep while waiting, waiting -- whoops, wrong department, ma'am! Let me transfer you…(nooo)

Third hour: Wait, wait, aaaand wait some more -- FINALLY GET SOMEONE ON THE LINE WHO CAN HELP.

I swear to the gods. BUT. Good news is they filed a new claim & did the benefit year fix-y thing, so I'll still get the same amount per week as before. For now, at least. I was so anxious during that call, though, can I just say. I've taken to repeating The Serenity Prayer to myself over the last few days, whenever my anxiety/stress levels start hitting the roof, and I definitely had to remind myself of it a couple times then.

3. I finally walked over to that call center up the street yesterday. The person I needed to talk to wasn't available, but I spoke with another guy who gave me the info I needed to apply online (which I did, once I arrived home). I was wicked nervous while talking to him/handing over my resume (my hand was like a pissed-off faultline), but I'm not really surprised by that. It's gonna be hard for me to suddenly be around a lot of people again (in new situations), but as long as the job itself is something I can do (physically & mentally/psychologically -- i.e. it's not something completely out of my comfort zone that's constantly inducing panic), then I know the rest will ease up some in time. The beginning is always the hardest part for me. I remember when I started at Xerox (and again, anytime I underwent a big change there), I was such an anxious wreck that I'd end up throwing up/getting sick in the restroom more days than not. SO miserable. But I got through it.

The online application process involved a few tests, too, e.g. one for math, one for your personality, etc. I haaaate when employers do the personality ones. Everything feels like a trick question, all, "Sooo, do you like people?" Like, what? Which people? WHAT DO YOU MEAN? Sometimes…I guess? Is that okay? I HATE YOU. You're "people". NOW WHAT.

(…I seem to be into capslock today. Don't mind me. This is what happens after three hours on hold & thinking shiny happy shippy thoughts for that meme. Now I'm simultaneously drained & hyper.)

Anyway, I didn't hear back from them yet, and I don't know if that's not a big deal or bad news, or what. We'll see.

4. Since I knew I wasn't going to be on the streets in the near future, I let myself buy some art supplies earlier. Two pads of paper (one for charcoal/pastels & one for wet media), a small set of paintbrushes, and watercolor paints. I'm used to using oils, but that means disposing of paint thinner & all that hassle, so I decided to branch out this time. We'll see how it goes.

5. I was supposed to get together with my friend last night, but for boring reasons I won't bore you guys with, it got pushed back to next week. I told her there'd be a cancellation fee if she does it again. Heh. MY TIME IS MONEY.

Aaand that's it for today. For my VotD, I'll cap off the vidspamming above with a bit more shippy-action (by Very987). This one combines a great episode with great music. Kinda can't go wrong, there.



ETA: Why is Mother Russia LJ making me have to repeatedly refresh the page to get embedded videos to appear? I do not approve!
rachg82: (roslin zombies)
1. I ended up going to bed at 8:30 pm on the 4th of July. Even the booming fireworks didn't keep me up. How's that for a heavy sleeper.[/says the chick who's slept through multiple earthquakes before]

2. I shouldn't have complained about the cool weather. It is now blazingly hot. But at least my prescription sunglasses should be ready soon. Woo & hoo.

3. My migraine is finally better today, thank God. It was frakking horrible yesterday.

4. Did you guys know that Cherry Coke is like the best thing ever? I hadn't had it since I was a kid, then poured myself a glass just now & was like: !!! I may drink the entire 2-liter before the night is over, I'm just saying.

5. I've been a bit sad this week, so I had a mini Gilmore Girls marathon the other day to cheer myself up. It's been a long time since I watched some of the early eps. I'm remembering why I used to ship Luke & Lorelai so hard.

6. Regarding the sadness, I still keep putting off doing a longer flocked post to get into it. I think I need to though. Maybe later tonight? Probably. I don't know. It's gonna be kinda random & heavy, so it's like "gah, where I do even start…" I'll try to anyway though, soon.

7. I wish my back door didn't face other people's back doors. When it's warm out like this, I have to open things up if I don't want to melt, and then I end up with these neighbors standing around on porches looking over & being loud & UGH. So annoying.

8. I'm feeling complainy tonight, so one more whine: my stomach is bloated. I shouldn't have had salsa with my dinner. I'm totally like Homer with the forbidden donut. I NEVER LEARN.

9. After weeks of obsessively following the Casey Anthony trial, I got to see the verdict come in live on TV yesterday. I still personally think she's guilty (HELLO, THE COMPUTER SEARCHES), but I can understand/respect why the jury acquitted her for murder 1. Not everyone interprets "reasonable doubt" the same way, after all, and it's totally different deciding something like that from home on your couch than it is on a jury--especially when there's a potential death sentence involved. Let's just hope she doesn't have any more kids after this though. Oy.

10. Who's in the mood for a meme? You know you are )

For my Vid of the Day, here's a bit of hilarity to make up for the whineyness above. This one made me laugh so hard, my stomach hurt, seriously.

rachg82: (here for laura)
-I'm feeling especially sleepy & lazy right now. What I'd really like to do is plan an evening in front of the TV with pop & snacks, but nooo.

-There's an ACA meeting this afternoon, but there's also one on Monday evenings. I'd have to get ready in a hurry (and pay for a cab) to go to the one today without being late, so I'm kinda tempted to do the Monday one instead. Especially because public transit is more convenient on weekdays.

-I do however want to go somewhere today. I just don't want to rush. I'm thinking I'll make myself a sandwich for lunch, take a shower, and then bus it down to Portland. I can make a pitstop at Forest Park to finish [livejournal.com profile] gina227's photo meme question from way back & then take care of [livejournal.com profile] keenai's by hitting up Voodoo Doughnut. The one downtown is still closed for renovation, but dear God have I been craving their donuts something fierce lately, so I don't even care--I'll go to the NE one. And I can excuse the gluttony by having taken a walk. TADA.

-[livejournal.com profile] teachlikeroslin and [livejournal.com profile] scifi_mel have created their own Hot 25 lists as well, in case some of you missed them & would like to see. You can find them here & here.

-Big-ups to New York, y'all. I'm sure you've all heard the news by now, so I'll just say this: I really needed a big smile this week & they delivered.

-Many of you on my flist are bemoaning the late Fall premiere of Bones this year & wondering how you'll fill your time. Fortunately, you have me, the TV-obsessed oompa loompa who never tires of pimping new shows. May I suggest any of the following? )

-I worked on my fic a bit more last night. It still feels a lot like chipping away at a huge block of granite, but sometimes that's just how it goes. At least there's progress being made, albeit incredibly slowly. I guess on the bright side the longer summer hiatus means less of a hurry for things like this.

-I put a temporary halt to my BSG rewatch after my uncle's death (being at the end of s4, I think most of you will understand why), but I think I'm ready to jump back into it now, once my TV's working again that is. I only have a few eps left. Pretty sure the finale's gonna kill me, but I don't mean that in a bad way. It'll just be emotional because of the subject matter.

Anyway, I'm gonna get going now, before I can convince myself that napping would be a better way to spend the rest of the day.

For my VotD, here's an appropriately themed song:

rachg82: (frak this shit)
I have a special spammy treat for you guys tonight. My friend [livejournal.com profile] lytab5 has been doing her own Hot 25 list (based on afterellen.com's annual Hot 100), and seeing as there are few things I love more than staring at pretty pictures of pretty women, I decided to be a copycat & make one too. Since I also enjoy being difficult, however, I'm making it a Hot 26--for one, because it's my favorite number (what? Hee), and two, because I'm a cheating cheater. I may or may not have also squeezed in two or three women in the place of one for a couple of the numbers. WHAT. They're connected!

I could've done a bigger list, too, but even I hold myself to limits here SOMETIMES. Heh.

…that being said, my limits are kinda weak when faced with OMGGORGEOUSWOMEN, so I'm totes providing two pictures for each hottie. Aaand I'm posting all 26(-ish, haha) winnahs right now, all in one go. It'll be a ~smorgasbord of sexy~.

P.S. Some of these pics approach NSFW, as a heads-up. God bless photographers.

rachg82's Hot 26…ish )

Hope you guys enjoyed! If you want to make your own Hot 25 (or 26, hee) list, please do. It'd be fun to see everyone's picks.

For my Vid of the Day, let's do an Arrested Development one (by saxmankk) since I'm rewatching season 1 right now on teh interwebz (blessed Hulu) & thus spent most of last night giggling like a fool. Then I checked to see if there was any news about a possible movie & watched recent interviews on YouTube with the creator/cast confirming everyone's on board now & A SCRIPT IS CURRENTLY BEING WRITTEN. I don't want to get too excited before it's actually green-lit, BUT: STEVE HOLT!

rachg82: (tigh/ellen this calls for a drink)
Yep, you read that right--1,000 posts. THEM'S A WHOLE LOTTA WORDS, CHICAS.

(Psst: note the Rocky theme song as my current music selection. Heh. *runs heroically up flight of stairs*)

Obviously, I couldn't let this ~momentous event~ pass by without some kind of tribute. I mean, seriously, if you stretched my entries out one per year, you'd have a millennium of Rachified Rambling. WHAT THE.

Thankfully, I have my Year in Review posts & lots o' tags for lots o' subjects, so taking y'all on a journey down Memory Lane is as simple as pie. (Though, can I just say, pie? Is not simple. WTF, cooking cliches. It should be updated to "simple as ordering a pizza." THAT'S simple. Plus, pizza can also technically be called a pie. HA, relevant.)

Anyway. I thought about how to organize this, and I decided that I wanted it to be something celebratory & fun; the sort of thing I could look back at later for cheering up when needed (similar to my Year in Review posts, but focusing solely on positive things). So, I gathered together a mess of smile-inducing pictures & quotes & other random nonsense from the last 8.5 years and smooshed it all together into one cray cray sentimental entry. It's exactly the type of time-suck project I needed last night, and I hope the rest of you will enjoy it too.

P.S. This misty water-colored event is dedicated to all of you on my flist, most especially: [livejournal.com profile] dosidella, [livejournal.com profile] keenai, [livejournal.com profile] sonneta, [livejournal.com profile] nomnivore, [livejournal.com profile] jasminelily, [livejournal.com profile] auroura76, [livejournal.com profile] maryng, and all the rest of the original Meta/TWoP crowd. Y'all have been with me from the *start*, and I KNOW you're a huge part of why I'm still here. And I do mean that literally. I am so grateful for all of you.

Aiiight, but enough of all that, and let's get down to it.

Like the corners of my mind: 1,000 side effects of verbosity. Damn, this bitch can write )

I don't even want to know how long this will look, considering all the pictures. Heh. *covers eyes & hits "post"*

For my Vid of the Day, let's keep with the theme:

rachg82: (roslin operahouse)
1. I was talking about peanut butter cups with [livejournal.com profile] keenai yesterday, and I told her I'd post the recipe I use for peanut butter cup cookies in my next entry. Behold: deliciousness )

2. Since I enjoy tedious, time-consuming projects, I've been going back through old entries & tagging any that included IM convos. I've made it to March, 2003! Heh. This will take forever. It's fun though. I used to post them on my LJ much more often than I do now. They're funny to reread years later.

While sifting through stuff, I've come across a LOT of surveys & memes, too (my favorite survey response? "What's your orientation?"/"I'm straight. So far." Ha HA. Way to leave yourself an out--pun intended--there, in denial!previous self). I thought it'd be fun to redo one now & see how different (or similar) the responses I get are. Considering four of the eight people who commented to it then are still regular commenters now (more than eight years later--I think that's sort of amazing), it should be interesting.

I _____ Rach.
Rach is _____.
If I were alone in a room with Rach, I would _____.
Rach needs _____.
I want to _____ Rach.
______ is my first memory of Rach.
Every time I see/hear ______, I am reminded of Rach.
I'd give _______ to Rach, if I had the chance.

Fill it out, amigas!

3. I haven't done this in a while, so 3 songs I'm listening to today )

4. Who else saw the Parenthood finale last night? Let's talk about it )

5. For my Vid of the Day, here's some funny snark:

rachg82: (abed is my homeboy)
I'm bored, headachey, and trying to put off doing my taxes (I know, I know. I HAVE TO DO THEM. It'll take like not even an hour--it's not like I have any dependents or anything. I'll get to it later tonight); ergo, how about a meme?

I swiped this one from [livejournal.com profile] icedteainthebag, and it's muy fun:

Songs In My Pants

1. Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
2. List the first fifteen songs that come up and add "in my pants" to the end.
3. Bold the ones that actually made you LOL.

Here's what I got:

1. Everyone's a Little Bit Racist in My Pants
2. Us in My Pants
3. Mr. Brightside in My Pants
4. Heartbeats in My Pants (I don't know why that made me laugh, hee)
5. Hop a Plane in My Pants
6. Here I Come in My Pants (best ever or BEST EVER?)
7. Like a Star in My Pants
8. Nobody Knows Me At All in My Pants (this is kind of my theme song, aw)
9. Soil, Soil in My Pants (um, ew)
10. A Boy Named Sue in My Pants
11. Feeling Good in My Pants
12. Last Goodbye in My Pants (how sad! Ha)
13. No Letting Go in My Pants
14. Rehab (Glee Cast Version) in My Pants (I'm picturing a tiny cast of Glee, singing, in my pants. Lord help me. That is disturbing.)
15. Cathedrals in My Pants.

To add to the fun, let's make this a soundtrack, eh? This will be good for those who might not know all the songs above, plus it gives me an excuse to post a couple fanvids.

Soundtrack en mis pantalones )

For my Vid of the Day (the above vids don't count--I say so), here's a tribute montage to Shirley by VeritasProductions:

rachg82: (Adama/Roslin arm in arm)
Such an evil subject heading, ha. Between it & the VotD I plan on posting? Gah. TEARS. I can hardly even look at my icon, heh. ADAMA & ROSLIN ARE TAKING OVER MY BRAIN AGAIN. Big-time.

Anyhoo. I feel like wasting some time; who's with me?

Meme that everyone & their grandma is doing )

…I can't believe how long that took.

Before I go, a few more things:

-My BSG rewatch is up to "Epiphanies." Tyrol is awesome; Boomer breaks my heart; Baltar is hilarious, & his connection to Head Six is fascinating (I could ramble forever about her. I might in my next entry); Tigh is awesomesauce (MARTIAL LAW, Y'ALL. THE SLOW-MO EXIT); Bear McCreary needs to bear my children; Starbuck is a bad-ass, and Helo is the best BFF evah; Leemo is cute; Adama is a carebear, & I want to effing squish him; Laura-"That's *Madam President*, Gaius"-Roslin is a motherfrakking HBIC, and her relationship with Adama makes me like this: ealihgoiahopihaoggh.

P.S. PEGASUS. I've already talked in-depth about why I love this arc so much.<--flaily review o' pensive worship.

-I have three songs/vid ideas to share:

For Adama/Roslin: Day Too Soon, Sia.

For Booth/Brennan: Sway (The Perishers) or Three Wishes (The Pierces).

I have more on the way, but I'll save them for later.

Lastly, here's the evil Vid of the Day I mentioned above (by Sczep84). Must. hold. back. weepy fangirl tears. I can't help it! Her story is so deeply touching & human. I love all of it.

rachg82: (Brennan walking in the rain)
1. Song of the Day. It made me tear up. My mood is still closer to this (minus the last bit about pre-determined destiny, that is. I don't believe that. I relate to everything else though), particularly because I haven't left that staying-in-bed-for-most-of-the-day phase yet, but I have started feeling a shift. I'm incredibly stressed right now, to the point where all this unemployment stuff is making me feel nearly desperate (like, "Will I be able to keep living? What options do I have if I run out of money?"-desperate. I don't mean to scare people, but I need to be honest. A big issue is that certain jobs still feel off-limit to me, too, because of social anxiety. I feel trapped), but at least when those thoughts come up now they sound more bad than good. Still acceptable, but more bad than good. That's something, right? I may not exactly be gung-ho for life, but I don't like being forced into anything either, and for the first time in a long while I'm fighting the idea of death not just because I know I'm supposed to (and have told myself to in the past, i.e. the resolutions I've made with myself), but because I actually don't feel ready to die yet. So, yeah. That has to be worth something. I'm kind of in limbo.

That being said, things are very tenuous right now. Even if everything "works out" in a best-case scenario, it means getting a job. That stresses me out too. Deep breaths, in & out. It's all I can do. One step at a time. At least yesterday I both got the mail *and* opened it (yes, when you're like this--that's a task), and did the math to confirm that even with lesser benefits--if I do indeed qualify for the extended 20 weeks; they drop you to 80% of what you previously earned--I can still pay bills. It will be ridiculously tight, but that's fine. I have lived VERY cheaply before. I intentionally move into apartments with rent that's a good deal below what I can afford for this exact reason (plus it helps that, A. I don't have a car, B. I don't have a cell phone, C. I don't have anyone or anything depending on me, and D. I've never had any credit cards). You never know what situation you'll find yourself in. The only debt I have is from student loans & medical bills (and technically I'm a little behind on my electric bill, but not by much. Otherwise, there's simply rent + phone/internet/cable, & the miscellaneous stuff like medication & groceries & bus passes, etc). I also emailed my old friend/coworker to ask her for the address/name/phone number of the place where she works so I can go over & apply in person. I *really* don't want to work in a call center again--God, I hate it--but it would be close by, I have tons of experience in that area, and it would be better than sitting at home every day. Theoretically, it might make finding another job easier too, because then I could put on my resume that I'm currently employed, which looks better than "Hey, I've been unemployed for four months straight. Wanna hire me?" Know what I mean? I have to call the unemployment place before I do anything else though. I tried yesterday, but I called in the afternoon & the hold time was absurd. It's for the best anyway, because it allowed me to open the letter first, which they said you're supposed to do, though I don't see what difference it makes. But whatever. Today--8 am. I call. And panic. But call, regardless. Yay.[/monotone sarcasm]

2. My head has been hurting SO BAD the last week or so. I don't know how much of it is stress & how much is reducing the dose of the topamax (in fairness, I hate to admit it, but I've been even more terrible about eating, too. It's like my body suddenly feeling hungry made me even more determined to go without. I'm trying to deal with it. I did just finally have some Taco Bell, so, hey). I was going to make tonight my first night going off it completely, but the whole "staying in bed all day" deal screwed me up & consequently I missed getting the refill I needed for my antidepressent. Thus I missed it yesterday AND today. I don't want to throw my body for a crazy loop, so I'll wait on the topamax. And of course get my refill for the prozac tomorrow. Not really something I want to go without right now.

P.S. Sorry for all the body/brain talk, btw. For those of you who've never dealt with it, it's probably really boring, I know. It's what I'm dealing with right now, though. It helps me to break it down bit by bit sometimes.

3. On a positive note, the Cherry Blossom trees on my street are in bloom. Despite my allergies, that's my favorite part of spring. It'll depend on how I'm feeling, but I would like to take a walk soon (i.e. a ~Jaunty Woodland Walk~ along the nearby trails, like I used to--helpful link for pic-filled tree-hugging). I know I've been saying that forever, but the seasons changing does help up the motivation factor a little. We'll see.

4. I, like Cher in Clueless, love a good project--especially one that helps me feel more organized while also distracting me & wasting a bunch of time. As a result, I have a bunch of new tags now: Van Gogh-Go Gadget Cliched Artist (for pics of, you guessed it, my art), Voice Posts (I feel like they should have a tag. They're unique like that. P.S. Some of you don't know me well yet, so if there's questions you'd like to ask--ones I can answer in five minutes or less--feel free to drop them in the comments & I can do another voice post if you want. Woot woot. This counts for you lurkers too. I SEE YOU THERE. Heh. I won't bite!), Emotions Are Better on Paper (as an explanation for new flistmates: last summer, in an effort to better express certain feelings that otherwise were hard for me to access unfiltered, I began writing on paper--stream of consciousness/just-let it out-shit, in other words--and would sometimes later share it here. In many ways, I actually believe it's what helped lead me to finally writing fic. FYI, that tag also includes old poetry from ye olde teenaged days of yore, which I typed up. Be afraid), and, lastly, I Am a Special Snowflake (ASD-ish stuff. a.k.a. "I relate to Brennan: ASK ME HOW!").

Fun, fun.

Also: I'm even going to add to one of the above-mentioned tags…right now. *gasp* I KNOW. IT'S SO EXCITING. Heh. I uploaded some more of my old art. Feel free to come & take a looksie )

5. I'm so behind on my flist, and have enough piling up in my head as it is, so I'm just going to do a disorganized rundown of what I thought regarding Bones now, sans notes/rewatch. Bones ramblin' )

My Vid of the Day comes from TheLovelyBones1 and is a wonderfully edited take on B/B between episodes 6x09 & 6x13. Intense & delicious. This is where they're comin' from, folks. Remembering that makes the (still coming--it's just beginning & things are always repressed under the surface with them; don't forget that) happytimes that much more powerful. I'd go so far as to say they're *still* holding back a little. This vid shows a little of the KAPOW-quality I think we'll continue to see slowly rise (not all at once, but in bits) on their way towards them being a real couple. They're like pressure cookers, these two. I swear.

rachg82: (XF fangirl)
Ahem. I just need to take up one moment of your time:











Of course there are other brackets I care about too, but these are the ones I'm currently super passionate about/watching closely. Brennan's way ahead & let's KEEP IT THAT WAY, thank you very much (I told y'all I get heated about FMM, haha. FU, DEXTER!). Everyone needs to know how awesomesauce Gus & Troy are (if you don't know, you bettah ask somebody), Lorelai is my mothereffing homegirl for life, & what can I say about one Agent Dana Katherine Scully? Other than perhaps this?

Reasons to Vote for Scull-ay (as if you needed any)

Shamelessly recycling last year's macros 'cause that's how we Montell Jordan 'round these parts )

I REST MY CASE.

Do the right thing.[/Spike Lee]

Rock the Vote, my friends. Rock it hard. (that's what she said)
rachg82: (mulder/scully thinking)
It's been way too long since I got listy up in here. Let's fix that:

1. The Bjork renaissance is still going strong. I cannot stop listening to this song (or this one). Ahhhhhh. CAN'T STOP.

2. I randomly rewatched the first four episodes of Gilmore Girls yesterday. Oh, how I still love you, Lorelai. Promise you'll never leave me.

3. Who else thinks Josie on Southland has a bit of a thing for Lydia? Tell me it's not just me. 'Cause, honestly. That last ep? With Russ? "I don't like you." HA. Jealoussss.

P.S. For those of you who still don't watch Southland? Let me provide two examples of why you should, just for this woman alone: Boo and yah, muthafuckas. Regina King, y'all. Doin' the damn thing.

And if that's not enough? Check the trailer. For real, just watch it already. You know you want to.

4. Can someone please tell 123greetings.com to stop emailing me reminders about my mom's mindfucky birthday card "waiting for me" at their site? How many reminders do they think I need? I don't want the card! It's really starting to piss me off.

5. Speaking of things pissing me off, I'm hormonal. Today's one of those Sneaky Hate Spiral-sorta days. Technically, with the whole bleeding-from-the-cha-cha-situation, it's bound to last a few more days before things calm down. Heh. (and even then, I tend to relate all too well to the parts of that post that have to do with noise/lights/etc. Oy vey. My fridge does that high-pitched crap sometimes too & it makes me POSTAL) So, just a heads-up.

6. I took out trash today! And cleaned the fridge a little! Definitely worth exclamation points, I think. It's progress, right? It seems I keep progressing & then falling & then progressing & then falling, but oh well. Better than nothing. Better than being dead. No progress at all in that case.

7. I think this is how you officially know you're being irrational when it comes to weight issues: cut per potentially triggery subject matter )

8. Welcome to new friends! I seem to have made quite a few lately, since I've been getting more actively involved in fandom. I suppose it makes sense. I've been on LJ since 2002 though, and I actually take this whole thing pretty seriously. I'm not just here for Bones, or TV, or fanfic. Having this emotional outlet & medium of communication has been incredibly important to me over the last nine years, and my friends on here are equally important to me. TV's important to me too. I tend to personally relate to my favorite characters, and their stories often make me feel less alone.

In the interest of introducing myself to some of you who are brand-spankin' new to this journal, here are a few links of significance )

9. I still have chocolate left (from [livejournal.com profile] sumpta), and yes, I actually have been eating it. I choose to believe this means Belgium pwns & is somehow magical.

10. I'm going to pull a [livejournal.com profile] keenai & make #10 my Vid of the Day, because I don't actually have a 10th point that's separate from the VotD, but you guys know how I am about even numbers & lists. Just go with it.

Today's vid is by midwifeonboard & is all about the lovely & eternally flail-worthy Adama & Roslin. I've been neglecting them lately, which is simply not acceptable. MY HEART, PEOPLE. MY HEART. THEY SQUISH IT UNCONTROLLABLY.

rachg82: (dollhouse sierra shadow)
I feel irrationally lonely. I think I need to go watch this vid a few dozen times until it's absorbed into my head again. (I love that poem so very much)

cut for triggeryness )

Moving on, my fanfic mojo is beginning to return. It's probably because my emotions are all crazycakes so I need a release. That, and this week's episode gave me fodder. I've got a nice list of notes going (gotta have an outline!) & an almost-plot is beginning to unfold (as for the fic itself, we're at just under 1,000 words. Since we're talking about me here, that means it's barely started. Obviously). Lest anyone think my brain is a place of linear order, however--at least when it comes to matters of creativity? Let's set the record straight.

Welcome to my writerly cranium, folks:



In other words. . .



Exactly.

For my Vid of the Day (by blablablacksheep54), I'm gonna throw some love to a character that never gets enough. She's one of those types who absolutely deserves a punch in the face every now & then, can totally be a douche, gets hated on by the fans (often because they "love to hate" her), but who, guess what? I love. LOVE. She is my homie. If you don't like her, you can go to Hell. How 'bout that. Heh. I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT. You leave my homie alone. Zip it.

Ha, I get so protective of my favorite characters--probably because I usually identify with them, but shh. (seriously, the final season/finale of this show? Gave me so much rage I can't even say. No other show can even come close. As far as I'm concerned, the series ended with season 5, which was wonderfully cracky & fun. Season 6 can die in a lake of fire.)

Disclaimer: this vid has a trigger warning for SI & assault.

*eta: This vid makes an excellent follow-up as well. Why am I feeling the need for a season 1, 2, & 5 (i.e. the good ones) marathon now? Not to mention a Gilmore Girls rewatch? Thanks a lot, YouTube.

rachg82: (Default)
Oh, Modern Family. Oh, Cam. Oh, Mitch. Oh, ALL OF YOU. "Sweet Valley High!"

And might I say, God bless the fact that I didn't jump on board the Psych express until only recently, because it means I constantly get to watch reruns on USA like they're brand new episodes. Just sayin'. It had me laughing so hard last night I literally had to wipe tears from my eyes. The one where they prove Gus' parents are innocent? The tell-tale heart? The rocking chair? "Normaaaan!" I was DYING.

Except apparently one of them was new-ish; I'd just missed it somehow. "The Polarizing Express", i.e. the 2010 Christmas episode. How did I manage to miss that?! Either way, loved it. It had a chocolate snowman Gus! And giant lactose-free milk! I mean, really.

Interrupting this TV lovefest for, um, more TV: guess what comes back in exactly two weeks, guys? BONES. Sound the trumpets. Gather the troops. What troops, you say? Duh, the hard liquor soft drinks & snacks, obviously. We're gonna need somethin' to get us through the rest of this season, you know. In my case it'll be rocking & pacing.

. . .just kidding. Probably.

Actually, in all seriousness, I have the feeling things will be fine between our beloved duo before too long. Heh. But it's fun to be overdramatic, especially when so much of the fandom is that way for real.[/said with love]

Years ago, during the brief golden era when my sister and I got along & were friends, we used to have a joke about overdramatic people who always thought the world was ending (you know the type). Every time we'd spot one (or if either of us was acting that way about something), we'd put on our old man voices and go, "BUT WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO WHEN THE BANKS FAIL?!" I don't even remember where it came from, but it was hilarious. Fandom makes me think of that old man voice sometimes. Ha.

Anyway, enough about TV. As for why my mood says "discontent," I don't actually feel like going deeply into it right now (I might later, we'll see), but it involves the dreams I've been having, which--if last night is any indicator--are getting increasingly disturbing. Maybe I can buy a family-issues-specific dreamcatcher to hang over my bed.

At least it got me up before noon today, though! Hey, bright side.

What I *would* like to do right now is my 1994 soundtrack. Awww yeah.

Jump in your way-back machines, y'all. It's about to get flannel-y up in here. )

And that's it, folks! HELL OF A LOT OF SONGS, EH? (when did I become Canadian?)

No Vid of the Day today, because, seriously. I might break LiveJournal.
rachg82: (scully going to oregon)
1. This has been me for the last four hours, and I'm still not done (dusting/bathtub awaits). Lord help me. I'm not even going to touch my bedroom aside from doing laundry in the morning. Frak that. I will say though, having a (mostly) clean home is. . .dare I say it? Kind of nice. I threw out, like, I don't even know how many bags of crap.

2. And I even made time for iconage! Check it:



Hee. That was made for [livejournal.com profile] crystalcazzie (she's the one who wanted it/had the idea), but anyone may feel free to swipe/credit if they'd like.

3. My house guest ([livejournal.com profile] dradiscontact) arrives tomorrow, which should be fun. We don't know for sure yet if she'll stay until she finds her own job/apartment, or if she'll just crash for a bit to check the area out & return home to Cali (we'll play it by ear), but either way it's nice to have company. Gives me motivation to clean, go to the store, get out of my head, things like that. Even if she literally stays a week, you know? I think it'll do me good to spend some time with a friend & play the role of hostess.

And now, back to the cleaning. Oy. Have I ever mentioned how NON-domestic I am? I need a team of minions to tackle this odious task for me.

Before I go, I'll leave you all with a Vid of the Day. We're gonna take it back old-school here for a moment, just so I can welcome Coda to Portland properly with a song. (bring your umbrella, yo. I ain't playin'.)

rachg82: (fanfic roslin/adama)
I really, really need a .gif of Kermit flailing all over the place right now.

Let's talk about Bones and that promo )

In other news: who saw Psych this week? I really should check out Twin Peaks one of these days, huh? (P.S. SHAWN & JULIET, I WANT TO SQUISH YOU. You see, Bones? NO MOONLIGHTING CURSE.)

Anyway, that's it for tonight as I don't have any real-life stuff I wanted to get into. It was nice to have nothing but TV flail to distract myself with for once. Like a vacation from Emo Land, complete with complimentary capslock. For my Vid of the Day, I'm gonna go with this one by KatrinDepp that takes clips from several shows (X-Files, Bones, House, & Scrubs). It makes me smile every time I watch it, so I figure it's perfect to go with my Vacation from Emo Land theme here.

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