rachg82: (Adama/Roslin arm in arm)
I know it was totally a fiscal no-no, but I just spent almost twenty dollars (tip included) on a GF pizza & Cherry Coke from Bellagio's. I'm not even supposed to have Coke, because of the corn syrup. But, seriously, can't I just chalk it up to an early Christmas present for myself? 'Cause this shit is really good. Like, it makes me want to do my Happy Food Dance & everything. The only other time I've broken that out in the past year was probably over the Mike & Ike candies my nephew gave me the other night. Heh. And then I invented a ~Sugar Train~ & started chugging my way around the living room, all, "Sugar-sugar-sugar-sugar, choo choo!" Because I'm secretly five years old.

Oh, hey, speaking of -- guess who has new pictures of her cute-ass niece & nephew? That'd be me )

As for how it went, hanging with them throughout the weekend, it was nice. I didn't feel pushed into watching them or anything--the first day was my idea, and the second day was Jayden's--and my sister washed my comforter for me (which is difficult to fit into the washers here at my apartments) & paid for dinner on Saturday (in turn, I made the kids lunch & smoothies the next day), so overall there was a reciprocal balance.

And while I'm sure there's some unwritten rule out there about schadenfreude-laced anecdotes & people who've just had a heart attack, I can't help but pass this one along (courtesy of my nephew): apparently my mom came to watch Isabella do gymnastics a while back, and right in the middle of it pulled a giant wooden spoon *out of her purse* and began using it to scratch her back--like I'm saying she'd specifically put it there for ~back-scratching purposes on the go~--then proceeded to pull her shirt up, right there in public, & ask Jayden if he could itch it for her too. Bear in mind, while telling me this story he had to keep catching his breath between giggles, and was all WTF-wide-eyed, like, "I THINK PEOPLE WERE WATCHING. IT WAS REALLY WEIRD! SHE HAD IT IN HER PURSE!" Haha. Story of my childhood, kid. Meanwhile my sister was laughing so hard over this that she was crying, and I wasn't far behind. It's just so HER.

Moving on, I've decided to split my responses to that meme I started into multiple entries, since I'm going ahead with the "three vids per fandom" dealio as well, and I don't want to overload people. We'll do two shows per entry--three episodes & three vids for each--and good times will be had by all. Woo woo.

First up, Bones & Battlestar Galactica )
rachg82: (anya i finally get love)
I woke up at 5 am today, thanks to daylight savings time. Of course I thought it was six, and then got very confused for a moment when the clock on my receiver was all, "Nope. FIVE." Ugh. So. very. tired. My body wasn't designed to be awake during the day, I swear.

On a less complainy note, I discovered a new fab meal last night: ground pork burgers with sweet mango chutney. YES. Perfect companion for a fruit smoothie, fyi.

I also picked up my pants & somehow managed to buy a pair of boots. They're a size too big, but, y'know, color me not shocked by that. Done it before & am sure to do it again. With thick socks & possibly an insole, they should be okay (they're ankle boots, so they won't slip off. The real issue would be blisters, which I'm super prone to getting). I didn't have enough money left over to buy any new tops, but I can make do with the few I already have for now. People who see me every week might be like, "Damn, does she only have five outfits?" I mean not counting t-shirts on ~casual Fridays~, that is. But whatever. If they care that much, they can take me shopping & put it on their tab.

In the meantime, would anyone care to help me decide which necklace to wear on Monday? I've already decided on the shirt -- it's the same one I wore to the interview, so it's lucky now. Heh. cut for pictures )

My experience at the mall was less stressful this time, though I did feel a little shaky. But I made conversation with this girl who got on the bus with me, all the way 'til we got there, and then did the same with two other girls while waiting for my bus ride home. Helped the time pass by quicker & made me want to grab a scorecard so I could tally up some points for myself. Heh. "Social skills: you get a gold star today!"

Much like the previous night, the place was still bananas (there's like a thousand sales going on, plus I think everyone's already decided to act like it's Christmas), and I got stopped literally three times by dudes at kiosks trying to sell me crap. "Excuse me, can I ask you a question?…Do you believe in MAGIC?" 'Cause nail buffing is the work of sorcerers, y'know. Meanwhile the second guy thought his sales pitch would be helped by asking me why I didn't have a boyfriend when I was "so beautiful." Like, first off, how do you know I don't have a boyfriend? Did someone put a sign on my back? Or am I supposed to have a male escort when I go out in public? I kinda wanted to answer with, "Because I like vagina." I mean, yes, I identify as bi, but it would've been worth it for the reaction. He was trying way too hard.

Changing subjects abruptly, 'cause that's how I do, I'm debating whether to start another fic. Not another long one, just something short, Booth-centric, & set in the past with his dad (because clearly I like to transparently exorcise my childhood issues via fictional characters). I have to agree with myself first that I'll let go of the outcome though. Not get perfectionistic about it or wring my hands over a lack of comments, etc. So, we'll see. It'll depend on whether I feel I can do that right now & also of course whether the inspiration stays long enough to crank something out. I do know that they say the only way to get better at writing is to keep writing; I just need to remember that I started doing fiction (and sharing it with others) because I enjoyed it, not because I expected myself to be amahhhzing at it.

Anyway, that's all for now. I'm gonna go watch some Leverage & procrastinate on doing my laundry for a few more hours.

30 song challenge: Days 20 and 21 )
rachg82: (tami scrunchy face)
1. I am so grumpy it's almost laughable. Like, the kind of grumpy where you want to start kicking inanimate objects just for existing. Oh, period hormones, what fun. Also: it's warm & stuffy in here, and people/kids keep walking past my open back door, talking & yelling & laughing & letting their stupid cigarette smoke waft into my living room, and I'm like, "YOUR FRIVOLITY IS UNACCEPTABLE. GO AWAY."

Okay, so it's not quite that bad, but I am irritable. I'm just so tired of the heat, ugh. I wish I had air conditioning.

2. On a more positive note, I'm like a bona fide chef now. Check it. )

3. I finished season 3 of FNL yesterday (there were only 13 eps that year) & already have season 4 waiting on hold for me at the library now. Woo & hoo. They're also holding The Shining for me, which I felt inspired to rewatch after mentioning it to one of [livejournal.com profile] ladysophiekitty's flistmates the other day. I haven't seen it in a few years, so that should be fun. It was filmed here in Oregon, too, so it gets extra points there. Heh. (As if it needs extra points. Hello, classic.)

Re: FNL, obviously I'm enjoying it. Eric & Tami are just amazing, and I might be a little in love with both of them, particularly Eric. He is crazy amounts of perfect & adorable. And so is she, for sure, but for once I'm actually crushing harder on the male lead than the female. ~WTF~, I know. Hee. Seriously though, they are the best, and I ship it about as hard as a scurvy-ridden Sea Captain.

Other thoughts: cut for spoilers )

4. I have orientation tomorrow morning, but I think all it involves is filling out some paperwork, so I assume it won't take long. I'm glad my actual first day isn't until Friday. I still have all that laundry I want to do, but honestly, my main objective between now & then is as much sitting around on my ass as possible. Gotta get it while the gettin's good.

5. Rizzoli & Isles tonight, y'all. Yayyy. And speaking of TNT, I've somehow found myself getting into Leverage, which amuses me because it's such a ridiculous show. But it's entertaining. What can ya do. It's especially fun for me because of it being filmed in my city, so the whole time I can play the "hey, what street is that" game with myself. Heh.

And that's it for now. For my Vid of the Day, here's one by bumcrackmosh182 about Eric, Tami, Julie, & Matt:

rachg82: (adelle/dominic bringing sexy back)

Couldn't resist. Heh. Bonus points if you know which character that's from.

Anyway, so obviously I had my interview. Hence the skirt. Which you can't really see there, but whatever. Not the point. I'm not sure if I'll get the job--A. my stupid bus got me there five minutes late (it was supposed to arrive five minutes early, stopping right in front of the building. And I very nearly took the bus before that one just in case, but it would've gotten me there THIRTY minutes early, and for some reason that made me feel all anxious. Plus I didn't want to walk, because I was wearing blisterrific, fancy-schmancy shoes. SIGH), and B. there's always a chance they'll call my last two employers & find out how screwy my attendance was last year & decide against hiring me (when asked why I left my previous position, I seriously got creative with my wording. Heh. "The contract ended." Technically true, though! In a very, very literal way)--but I'm just reminding myself that at least I tried. Even if I'd done everything perfectly (which isn't possible anyway because "perfectly" is subjective), I still wouldn't be able to control the result. The worst that can happen from this is that I don't get a job, leaving me…unemployed…exactly like I already am. So, yeah. Obviously, I'm not pleased with arriving five minutes late, nor am I happy that my missing so much work last year tarnished an otherwise great history there, but it's not like I can go back & undo it. I just keep repeating "it's okay to make mistakes; you're never going to NOT make any" to myself like a mantra. Heh. For real though. I get so frustrated with myself sometimes.

I should find out within the next few days what's up. Fingers crossed that happens sooner rather than later, y'all. I hate uncertainty.

Moving on, here's some more rambling before I go:

-None of you answered my meme the other day. *disappointed mom face* Don't make me turn this car around!

-I took a nice, long jaunty woodland walk today after my interview, which helped me burn off some nervous energy. Now I'm fighting the urge to nap though. I don't want to mess up my sleep schedule again. It's hard being nocturnal![/first world problems]

-Clearly, weather.com is trying to tell me I'm a pussy. I came home from my walk, all "OMG, SUN, NOT NECESSARY," and checked their site to see what the temp was, and they had this article on the front page all, "Haha, Portland. Way to be fail with your non-summer summer." Er, yeah. I don't even care, though. Eighty degrees is hot if I say it's hot, yo.

-The first three sections of my fic are officially done. And I'm saying they're done so I can't go back & edit them anymore. Heh. CUT IT OUT, SELF. Not sure how many more sections there'll be, but yay for progress.

-I need Fall TV to be happening now, please. That, or I need money for more DVDs. I can only watch so much Cash Cab, people. If only they'd come to my city, then I could WIN money for DVDs. Heh. Genius.

And I think that's it. For my Vid of the Day, I feel like sharing a clip from one of my favorite comedians. She makes me laugh so hard, my stomach hurts, no lie.

rachg82: (serenity booth)
It feels like I haven't done a normal entry in forever, but in reality it's only been since Tuesday. Still. Now I have a bunch of stuff piled up to talk about.

Cue randomness:

-Current is doing a three-part series titled "50 Documentaries To See Before You Die," and I've been enjoying it. I love documentaries, and while I've already seen quite a few on their list, there's some I've never even heard of. I think, if possible, I'd like to make it a goal to watch the rest on the list.

-On a similar note, I watched a couple docs on hulu.com today (Motherland and Children of god), which were both really moving, Motherland in particular. It's about a group of mothers who've lost a child (and one sister who lost a brother), none of whom know each other, making a trip to South Africa together to volunteer amongst those affected by AIDS, poverty, etc. They spend a lot of time with children--some whose parents have already died or are going to--and I spent a lot of time tearing up, ngl. This little girl started crying when one of the mothers pointed at a page of facial expressions & asked which one she felt like, and I was like, "OKAY. TISSUES. GONNA NEED 'EM." I just wanted to hug these kids so badly.

The second doc followed kids living & begging on the streets outside the crematorium in Kathmandu (Nepal). It's mainly centered around a 12 year old boy who plans to be dead by 13, his older brother who's not really around, his very young sister (whom he's basically raising), and his alcoholic/damn near useless mother. I thought it'd be a pretty unique story, because of the element of kids living outside (and relying on -- they eat & make money by scavenging food & coins left in the river for the dead) a crematorium, but between the kids rapping & the universal nature of addiction, it ended up being extremely relatable. I only wish I could find out how the kids were doing later & especially whether the 12 year old ended up all right. That's one of the best things about the series I mentioned above -- the host periodically does interviews with former doc subjects throughout the ep, updating you on where they are now, etc.

-So You Think You Can Dance had its finale this week. After much hand-wringing, I voted for Sasha, though I also think Melanie earned it. More thoughts on the finale, this season overall, and a few leftover fave dances )

-My hayfever allergies have been CRAZY the last few days. I mean, miserable, utterly. So much so that I was like, "Whaaaat is going on? Did the pollen count just explode or something?" And to a degree, yes, it did; weather.com lists the weed pollen count in my zip code as high, which makes sense since it's late summer, and that's when ragweed does its thing. Then I thought about the chamomile supplement my doctor gave me, realized it's also from the ragweed family, and immediately became annoyed because HELLO, why would you give that to me when I'm allergic to it. Damn't. Like, I think I'm usually okay if I take a few sips of chamomile tea or whatever, but taking it in capsule form is something else entirely. ANNOYING.

-I didn't want to be one of Those People, gullibly following whatever they're told without second thought, so I've been trying to learn more about the test they did for my food sensitivities. Especially because the change is stressing me OUT, I'll admit. cut for rambling )

-I cancelled my counseling appointment today, because I felt awful (physically); I straight-up could not stop sneezing/blowing my nose, and it would've been embarassing on the bus. I'm also feeling a little stressed about so much spending, between the $30 for the doctor's appointment & the $40 for the blender & changing my food budget etc, so that played a role too. My rent is going up next month, & I have a follow-up appt with that doctor, and yeah. I just don't want to blow my cash all at once, however good it might be to do. I'll feel less stressed about it if I wait a bit longer & stagger the spending out.

-Remember how I was supposed to get together with that friend a week ago? Yeah, apparently she forgot or IDEK (I'm talking after she forgot & said so, the second time. She was all, "How about next week?",then never got back to me). People are so flaky.

Anyway, I think that's more than enough for one entry. For my Vid of the Day, have some Jeff/Britta action by xbucketx.

rachg82: (adelle topher silly)
I went to an ACA meeting yesterday (which I'll probably talk about in my next entry) & also took advantage of the weather to go for a walk & take some pictures in Forest Park. Since that's one of the things I was asked to share for that lj photo meme a while back, I'll go ahead & do that now. )

Anyway, that's all for now. I'm gonna go be lazy on my couch for a few hours.

For my Vid of the Day, enjoy some random druggy shenanigans:

rachg82: (mulder/scully umbrella)
Ahem. Excuse me while I waste your time with an entirely pointless entry. It's just…here's the thing. It's June, right? Almost July, in fact. In other words: summertime 'round these parts. Right? Right.

And yet?

…yeah. Like I said: JUNE-UARY.

Seriously, y'all. Porch lights & lamps. At 1:30 in the afternoon. It's a good thing I have an appreciation for cozy, cloudy days.
rachg82: (I live for donuts)
It's possible I ate three donuts tonight in place of dinner. WHAT. It's not my fault they're so good!

Seriously, I am in like a stupor of satisfaction right now. I can't even.

Unfortunately, I didn't end up making it to Forest Park, but that's not really such a big deal. It's not like I can't go there on Monday before the meeting if I want.

I did however make it to Voodoo Doughnut (obviously). And now, as requested, here are the pictures )

Good times, no? I bet you all really want a donut now. Haha. Sorry.

It was a nice day to get out, too, even if I only went one place. We're having our normal, funky June-uary weather, so the high today was only 71, but it was a warm & sunny 71. Blue skies & lots of people milling around & all that jazz. Mt. Hood & Mt. St. Helens were both just like--BOOM, in yo' FACE!clear. So pretty.

I was having one of those days though where everything on my body was bugging me--my hair, my purse strap, my shirt, on & on (e.g. "My glasses feel like they're too high on my nose; now they're too low; I wish I had on sunglasses; my cheek itches!")--and so I know that it probably wouldn't have been the best time for a long walk. Heh. But I will soon. At least I didn't nap the day away.

Speaking of sleep, I'm gonna go get some now. I'm being too indecisive to pick a VotD, but technically I already did one today anyway, so THERE.

*ETA: But wait! I found two vids about the part of town I was in today. Of course now I can't decide between them. Y'know what? I'm posting both. )
rachg82: (Brennan special snowflake)
My allergies are going bonkers this morning (itchy, itchy, itchy, itchy, ITCHY nose. Itchy face, itchy hands, itchy everything), I only slept two hours, and I feel utterly barfy. The allergies make sense, since I kept going behind my entertainment center yesterday, trying to figure out my TV, and it's hella dusty back there. The insomnia & nausea can be linked to emotions & their annoyingness. Plus I took a nap yesterday, pretty late in the afternoon, so waking up early this morning isn't exactly ~bizarre~. Still.

Anyway, my TV still doesn't work (part of me keeps hoping it'll magically turn back on), and I have my follow-up appointment tonight at the naturopathic clinic--I'll be able to find out the results of all but the hormone test, which I'll do after my next period--and that'll get me out of the apartment for a while, but there are a lot of pesky hours between now & then. Pesky, nose-scratching hours. (I need to go buy an antihistamine, seriously.)

…and I had to take a break just then, because I did in fact barf. WHAT FUN.

Whatever, back to the entry. (Sorry for all the complaining, btw)

Point is: I'm cranky & bored, too icky feeling to want to get up & clean, and too tired to focus on my fic yet. Hence, more spam for you lovely ladies.

Oh, and btw? Before I get into the final batch of pictures here, I have news: BBC America is now airing Battlestar Galactica. They just showed the miniseries the other day, so if you start watching now you can jump onboard the Awesomesauce Train with me & sit at the cool table.[/peer pressure]

What's that? You want a glimpse as to what you're in for? No problem:

I LOVE THIS SHOW SO DAMNED MUCH, Y'ALL. That vid legit gave me chills.

Okay, enough of that & on with the pictures. These ones are mostly from the '80s, though there's a few from the '90s as well. There's pretty shots of Oregon being pretty, my chubby baby face, and horrendous clothing to get your day started off right with some good ole fashioned schadenfreude. You know you enjoy that.

Come be retro with me & distract me from my boredom with comments )

And that's all, folks. Hope it was fun (and encourages you to post pics of your own. I wish people would do that more, especially old ones). It helped keep me busy long enough for my nausea to subside & my anti-itch cream to do its thang, so that's a yay.

P.S. If they're done with their renovation, I'll try to hit up Voodoo Doughnut tonight for that photo meme question of yours, [livejournal.com profile] keenai. Cross your fingers for me--I really want an Old Dirty Bastard. Oreos, peanut butter, chocolate frosting, NGH.

For my VotD, let me pass on some music-y joy. THIS MADE MY FREAKIN' DAY. Honestly. So great.

rachg82: (scully going to oregon)
…this whole "no TV" thing is already getting old. At least I have mac & cheese with chicken nuggets for dinner (yes, dinner after midnight. What?). That makes up for the suck at least a little.

Anyway. As promised in my last entry, I'm gonna be spamming you guys with the pictures I found. I'll start with the oldest & then move forward. And when I say "old," I mean OLD. Horse-drawn buggies up in this ish. Aw, yeah. (I love this kind of stuff. The clothes, the old-timey buildings, all of it.)

spammy spam spam )

And that's it for this batch! The next entry will consist of photos from the 1970s-1990s, mainly. Prepare for hypercolor shirts & BBs.

Since this entry is so Pacific Northwest-focused (for the most part), my VotD will be one of a series of YouTube vids I found recently about my city. This one shows one man's interesting take of the area after having been here since the '60s, so it's sort of fitting.

rachg82: (plot twist/everything is meta)
1. How did I manage to get so nocturnal again? It's eight thirty in the morning and I still haven't gone to bed. Clearly, I was meant to be born a bat. Or a vampire. But I couldn't be a vampire, because then [livejournal.com profile] keenai wouldn't like me anymore. Heh.

2. Did you guys know that The History Channel airs reality shows now? Seriously. That's just…no.

3. Welcome to [livejournal.com profile] crabbytreehouse, a.k.a. Deiva, i.e. the RL friend I mentioned the other day. She likes Bones (even survived watching the season 5 finale with me last year) and writes in capslock all the time, so I think she'll fit right in here. Hee.

4. I finished my comic. Who wants to see? )

5. For my Vid of the Day, here's a cartoon to go with the whole artistic theme above. This one's by lazyboy. It's completely absurd, which to me is the funniest part. I don't know about y'all, but I prefer buying my snacks from maniacally laughing mutant-sized fruit whenever possible.

rachg82: (I live for donuts)
So, I have my appointment at the Mercy & Wisdom clinic tonight--primarily to check out the boobalas. I'm sure they're fine, but wish me luck (especially since I'm feeling a bit anxious. Not just over the exam, but also the whole ~being around lots of people~ thing & filling out paperwork with possibly shaky hands & what-not). P.S. Speaking of, I don't have any clean shirts that are comfy & appropriately casual right now, so I'm totes gonna rewear my Care Bear shirt today. WHAT. I don't even care. Ha. It's got the Good Luck Bear on it. See?

…I'm such a child sometimes. Heh. (OH, AND: apparently he can dance. Haha. WTF.)

Anyway, I was also thinking of making a pitstop at Voodoo Doughnut so I could get a picture for [livejournal.com profile] keenai's photo meme question, but alas, the downtown location is still under renovation per their website. There's another one in NE, but I don't want to go all the way out there. PHOOEY. I really want a donut.

In other news, my nextdoor neighbor's dog is barking & whining for hours on end again. If you're not going to be home all day AND you live in a tiny apartment, why must you have a dog? Seriously. I get that they might have lived somewhere better when they got him--and in that case it's not like they want to just give him up--but I choose to assume that's not the case. That way my righteous indignation gets to be pure & thus more satisfying. Heh.

In other, other news, my fridge is doing that high-pitched ringing thing again. Combine that with the pipes in my bathroom being 80,000 years old & screaming every time I turn them on, I'm really kind of tired of this place. I also really hate moving though. Aaaand I don't have the money to relocate. Woe is me.

All right, I'm done complaining now. I'll leave you all with a Vid. Just one song this time. It's muy pretty:

ETA: Oooh, good news! Target has season 1 of Friday Night Lights for $9.99 right now (it's on sale). I am so going there on my way home. HOLLA.
rachg82: (abed is my homeboy)
It'd be great if my period would at least attempt to start at the same time every month. Now I know why I've been feeling extra emotional for the last day or two, though. I went to the bathroom and was like, "Ohhhh. Okay." It's pretty much a rule at this point that whatever amount of depression/anxiety/unhappiness-in-general I'm feeling normally will be turned up exponentially once period hormones kick in. It's like I have to just build a bunker & wait it out. Like a tornado.

Anyway. I'm mentally burnt out right now, so I'm just gonna give myself a break from talking about srs bsns in this entry & waste some more time on that photo meme.

Here's what [livejournal.com profile] sumpta asked for: "I'd like to see your books, where you keep them or how you keep them. (One bookcase, or spread through the appartment, whatever bookish thing you can think of.)"

I also have requests from [livejournal.com profile] gina227 & [livejournal.com profile] nomnivore, but I'll do theirs in a separate entry later.

I'm gonna be a major over-achiever with this, too, because while looking at my bookshelf I found a few photo albums I'd completely forgot even existed, and so I figured I'd share a few memorable pics from those with you all now as well.

(Oh, and holy criznap, I just found even more forgotten stuff. Photobucket was getting on my last nerve, so I decided to try flickr instead, right? And of course it ended up being an even bigger pain in my ass--sooo back to Photobucket I go--but there were pics from 3-5 years ago on there that I hadn't seen in FOREVER. Thus, visiting the site paid off. Totally sharing some of those too. Get comfy.)

Pictures, pictures--get your pictures here )

And that's it! I'll try to get to the other photo meme questions soon.

For my Vid of the Day, I'm gonna go with a song. I first heard it yesterday, and I found it comforting:

rachg82: (annie dancing bones)
1. More photo meme funtimes, ahoy! Here's [livejournal.com profile] torigates' request: "I'd like to see your kitchen and inside your fridge", and here's the oh-so-fascinating result )

2. My dreams continue to be wack-ass weird. I mean, on one hand I'm still getting the predictable family dreams, so that part's sort of status: normal, but on top of that they've just been so damned ODD lately. I found myself in some cheesy horror movie last night, and the baddie was a green-skinned (like the Wicked Witch) chick who would pop up out of nowhere and, like, stab you with her nails and shit if you didn't do whatever she wanted. Plus she had some magical power to make men obsessed with her. That by itself wouldn't be so weird (for a dream), but then guess how I convinced her to chill out & leave this one kid in my mom's family room alone? Why, I brought in Freddy Krueger of course. And she was all, "I'm not like that, am I?" And I was like, "Well, you're kind of a jerk. I mean, no offense." Hee hee. Then she felt all bad & let the kid go.[/clearly I'm a hero in my head]

Oh, and I totally hardcore made out with her afterward. HAHA. I think she had normal skin by then though.

What the fuuuuuck.

3. I've been working on my fic more, and I'm having a much easier time with it now. It's good to have something positive to focus on.

4. You know how you have to choose a mood for each entry? I keep running into the issue lately where I don't know what mood I am. There's honestly so many different things I feel about various parts of my life right now, and sometimes it leaves me feeling sort of…~nothing~ all over. Like, a big question mark. I just don't know. I do know I feel a bit lost regarding what to hope for & do with everything right now. There's still a lot of hopelessness & disillusionment in me, which I just sort of try to ignore. There's pain & anxiety over family stuff. There's a sense of failure, and the rut I feel stuck in when it comes to jobs & schooling & RL friendships & weight loss & self-improvement and…yeah, pretty much everything. But there's also, hey, at least my living room & kitchen are clean. Like, that's good. And fic writing also makes me feel good when it's going well, and I have a new candle lit in here that smells nice, and the weather's finally becoming spring-like, so those things are all positive. I've gained weight, which bothers me enormously, but I'm still rational enough to know five pounds is not the end of the damned world, and it could quickly be lost by walking. I don't know, whatever. Some of you know my depression has been pretty stealthy lately, getting much worse at nighttime/when I'm not distracted, but I'm still here, aren't I? And I'm trying to figure out how to find a balance between cheering myself up & not pushing problematic feelings down so that they'll just inevitably come rushing up later, like, "Surprise! Thought we were gone? THINK AGAIN. NOW WE'RE EVEN WORSE." You know? Oy, stupid FEELINGS.

Okay, ramble over. I will add though that I would really like to try & go to an ACA meeting this weekend. I'd also like to take a walk in Forest Park. I don't know if I'll follow through though (largely because my new jeans still aren't hemmed, and my other stuff is crappy looking. It's hard enough getting myself to walk anywhere nearby right now, let alone go downtown where people look nicer. Common sense would tell me "just go freaking get your jeans hemmed then! And do some laundry, stupid!" but it's like RIDIC levels of hard when you're depressed to get off your ass & do anything physical, especially for me if it involves possibly seeing other people). So, I won't say I'm doing it for sure, but I'm at least thinking about it. If I can just get myself to bring those jeans to the cleaners, that'll probably make other things easier & provide more motivation.[/ramble over for real this time. Don't mind me as I write think outloud about stuff no one else in their right mind probably cares about.]

5. My DVR failed to record Parks & Rec + Community AGAIN this week. WTF, mate? I changed the settings though to allow for reruns as well now; maybe it was marking new eps as repeats & then ignoring them or something. *shakes fist*

It did however record Bones, thankfully. )

For my Vid of the Day, here's a fun Community tribute that I found today by bopradar. Makes me want to go rewatch all of season 1 all over again.

rachg82: (Baltar/Six hands)
1. Attn: [livejournal.com profile] amilyn,

I hope you had a good day!

2. It's also my stepbrother's birthday, i.e. the one I haven't seen since I was eleven (Joe's son). I wonder how he ended up.

3. So far, [livejournal.com profile] fourth_rose is the only one who replied to the photo meme; I suppose that's what I get for regularly taking pictures of everything anyway, heh. There's probably not much left to be curious about!

Here's what she wanted to see: "do you have a preferred place for writing?"

Aaaand here's my answer )

4. I dreamt last night about two monkeys (well, chimps, really) departing a commercial airplane together--holding hands--and meeting up with three astronauts at the gate. What the frak?

5. Remember how I said I missed chicks with guitars? Problem solved. I am in love with this woman, I swear. (I think this one might be my favorite, currently, but that's almost an impossible thing to decide).

Still listening to this song by Holly Miranda a lot as well.

It's like a one-two punch of awesome.

That's it for now. I don't really have anything else I want to talk about, though I feel like this entry was boring. Oh, well. Here's an entertaining Vid of the Day to make up for it (P.S. It's pronounced "OreGEN", Carrie. Not "Oregone." Tsk tsk. Still love you though)

rachg82: (tigh/ellen this calls for a drink)
Yep, you read that right--1,000 posts. THEM'S A WHOLE LOTTA WORDS, CHICAS.

(Psst: note the Rocky theme song as my current music selection. Heh. *runs heroically up flight of stairs*)

Obviously, I couldn't let this ~momentous event~ pass by without some kind of tribute. I mean, seriously, if you stretched my entries out one per year, you'd have a millennium of Rachified Rambling. WHAT THE.

Thankfully, I have my Year in Review posts & lots o' tags for lots o' subjects, so taking y'all on a journey down Memory Lane is as simple as pie. (Though, can I just say, pie? Is not simple. WTF, cooking cliches. It should be updated to "simple as ordering a pizza." THAT'S simple. Plus, pizza can also technically be called a pie. HA, relevant.)

Anyway. I thought about how to organize this, and I decided that I wanted it to be something celebratory & fun; the sort of thing I could look back at later for cheering up when needed (similar to my Year in Review posts, but focusing solely on positive things). So, I gathered together a mess of smile-inducing pictures & quotes & other random nonsense from the last 8.5 years and smooshed it all together into one cray cray sentimental entry. It's exactly the type of time-suck project I needed last night, and I hope the rest of you will enjoy it too.

P.S. This misty water-colored event is dedicated to all of you on my flist, most especially: [livejournal.com profile] dosidella, [livejournal.com profile] keenai, [livejournal.com profile] sonneta, [livejournal.com profile] nomnivore, [livejournal.com profile] jasminelily, [livejournal.com profile] auroura76, [livejournal.com profile] maryng, and all the rest of the original Meta/TWoP crowd. Y'all have been with me from the *start*, and I KNOW you're a huge part of why I'm still here. And I do mean that literally. I am so grateful for all of you.

Aiiight, but enough of all that, and let's get down to it.

Like the corners of my mind: 1,000 side effects of verbosity. Damn, this bitch can write )

I don't even want to know how long this will look, considering all the pictures. Heh. *covers eyes & hits "post"*

For my Vid of the Day, let's keep with the theme:

rachg82: (troy and abed bffs 4 eva)
Ahem, if I may have all of your attention:

[livejournal.com profile] nomnivore is one of my oldest & dearest online friends--I've known her since before this LJ even existed--and today is her birthday. She deserves a real gift basket, but alas, this virtual version will have to do.

Psst, hey, bb--remember when your name here and at meta was eternaltimtams, & I thought you were a guy named Tim because I'd never actually heard of Tim Tams? Ahh, memories.

In other news:

-This is my 999th post on livejournal. I'm thinking I'll have to do something sentimental & memory lane-ish for the 1,000th. OVER EIGHT AND A HALF YEARS, PEOPLE. If this journal were a human, it'd be learning long division & playing foursquare by now.

-My writer's block is easing up (the subject heading is a sneak peek, check it). I've changed around a few words & I no longer hate the beginning, though I'm still not totally satisfied with it either. But I don't feel like banging my head into a wall while looking at it now, so I feel like that's progress. I'd really like to finish this before the finale. I have no idea what the length will be like as I'm still just working on the first 1,000 pages & have a lot of ideas (some of which may be tossed/saved for a future story), but whatever. I'm just trying to go with it.

Since I'm into wasting time/distracting myself from RL concerns at the moment, I thought I'd share some randomness. cut to save space on your flists )

-[livejournal.com profile] torigates did this as a meme, and I thought it looked fun: ask me to take a picture of something, and I'll post it here. This is your chance to be nosy about my belongings or force my hermit ass to walk somewhere, whatever. Have at it.

-I dreamt last night about the following things: Abed serving me tea (I need to stop watching so much Community), a talking dog, & riding the Night Fury dragon from "How To Train Your Dragon" over an ocean. Oh, and I eventually turned into the giant boss dragon at the end & was all breathing fire at the cartoon Vikings. The best part, meanwhile? I was like (in my head), "Aw, I feel bad lighting this guy on fire! Buuuuut that's kinda my role here. What's a dragon gonna do?"

Finishing this off with a Vid of the Day, I realized tonight that I somehow missed So You Think You Can Dance performing to one of St. Vincent's songs last summer (I could've started my obsession then!), so let's share a clip of that, eh?

Also? While I'm on the subject, I'd love it if someone were to make a fanvid to that song (i.e. the one in the vid below--Paris is Burning) for either Angel (seasons 4/5 & the finale, in particular) or BSG.

Also, also? I'd love to see a Bones fanvid set to Marry Me or Marrow. Doooo itttt.

rachg82: (abed humbles me)
I've already polished off the first two discs of season 1. Considering I slept 14 hours last night, & all of my TV watching was done before going to bed? That says a lot. It has been such a pleasure catching up on all the episodes I missed last year. THIS SHOW IS SO GOOD, Y'ALL. Seriously, I'm not exaggerating at all here. It makes me crack up so hard that I have to wipe actual tears from my eyes, & I frequently have to press rewind because I was laughing too loud to hear the next thing they said. It's just hysterical and so, so clever. Especially if you enjoy the use of meta, pop cultural references, & smart, quirky humor like I do.

Also: cut for flailing )

Moving on, I thought I'd share some pics with you guys. I noticed another flistmate post stuff from her scrapbook, and it made me remember the one I created as a teenager. It includes some of my happiest memories, and it's kind of a time capsule unto itself. Those of you who've known me since the meta boards (i.e. since this journal first started in '02) will remember some of these pics, since I posted them on the old yahoo meta photo album, but for the rest of you these will be mostly new.

Also, consider this a reminder, [livejournal.com profile] huh920, that I'm still stalking you. Heh. I want everyone to post pics, damn't.

Scrapbook pics: Let's party like it's 1999 )

Before I go, I also came across a poem [livejournal.com profile] dosidella wrote & sent to me for my 21st birthday (a.k.a. in 2003), which was with my scrapbook but not pasted into it yet. For the sake of posterity, I thought I'd include it here as well. Best BFF ever, yo. excuse me while I get verklempt )

For my Vid of the Day, let's show some love to Troy. This one's by shoopdancer2504.

rachg82: (Brennan walking in the rain)

Ahaha. MY PEOPLE. (Except I would never hate Sarah McLachlan. I saw her in concert five times as a teenager! I'd totally crack up over beating a celebrity pinata though, just in general. Especially if it was a super random one. Like Tony Danza. Hee. "I'll show YOU who's the boss!")

Anyway, so I was able to pick up my W2 today, although it took for-ev-er. Traffic was ridonkeykongulous due to Friday rush hour shenanigans, an accident, & Californian imports who still don't know how to drive in the rain. I very nearly didn't get there by closing time, it was so bad. Of course it didn't help that I tried being spontaneous for once (never a good idea) & hopped on a different bus than originally planned, seeing as it was leaving sooner than the other one, which you'd *think* would be a good idea considering that the driver was all, "Yeah, it'll make no difference." Well, guess what, driver? It did! Your route is as long as Moses' walk through the desert. Effing-A. At least I got some amusement out of it though, because at one point I pissily thought to myself, "THIS IS THE MOST ROUNDABOUT SHIT EVER," (re: the route) and then I realized we were literally driving through a roundabout as I thought it. Heh. That kinda cheered me up. PUN.

Making it even better, picture standing in front of a waterfall the entire time. You know the everpresent hanging mist? Right. Add that to drizzly rain & you've got Portland in the springtime. Frizzy, frizzy hair. Wet pants. Soggy socks. Cold hands. I normally enjoy it--yesterday I was all, "Ohh, moss! Sloppy pavement sounds with every step! Fun, fun"--but today was a bit much. ENOUGH WITH THE PUDDLES ALREADY, STREET.

To make all of it up to myself, including the shittastic week I've had (in case it's not obvious, I'm trying hard to pull myself out of it), I decided to say "frak it" to my normal "Whaaaat? I can't buy myself things! That's crazy talk!"-mentality (particularly present when I'm unemployed), and purchased the following:

Oh, yes. Season 1. I have all weekend to get my taxes done (I plan to do them tomorrow though), so I plan on spending all tonight hunkered down with these eps. Oh, and yes, note the Diet Coke, Kit Kat, & delicious dinner o' champions, a.k.a. a burrito with chips & salsa from Taco Del Mar. I can't remember the last time I ate a candy bar, not counting the chocolates [livejournal.com profile] sumpta sent me, and Friday + DVDs = snacks in my mind, so I told myself it was okay. Plus I hadn't eaten yet today anyway, other than a banana & granola bar, but I'm *trying* to nudge myself toward two meals a day, so yeah. I can excuse one freaking Kit Kat, especially after walking around so much (to the train station, from the stop to the temp agency, from there to Fry's for the DVDs, then to another bus stop, then back home from the train station. It was actually quite a bit).

Adios. Off to become BFFs with Abed. Don't be jealous.
rachg82: (tigh/ellen this calls for a drink)
LJ, are you quite done with your failathon yet? Don't make me turn this car around.

Anyway, that's not why I'm here. I come bearing festive greetings:

Congrats on the whole being born thing!

In other news: this week sucks. Other than people's birthdays, of course. Those are of the good. Everything else is less good. I'm having a hard time, honestly. Not sure what to say about it--or not sure I can get myself to say anything about it, whichever--but there you go.

I wanted to drop in to share bday wishes though, so--voila. ♥ you guys.

Going with the party theme above, I'll let Gary the Cylon send us off for our Vid of the Day:

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