I've been called many things, but "sanest" is not one of them. That stopped me in my tracks.
As for Bones - take a break from it.
I'm getting a flash of Brokeback Mountain here. "I wish I could quit you!" The thing is, when I created an entry in August for reasons to keep living? Bones was on there. When I called a suicide hotline in September, the Brennan-centric episode I'd heard was coming up was one of the reasons I told myself there was a reason for picking up the phone. In November, the fanfic I started was one of the first things in I-don't-even-know-how-long to make me feel excited. Even now, writing another fanfic--it keeps me going. I care about these characters, despite their fictional status & how trivial & absurd it is.
I will keep what you said in mind though, and I appreciate the care behind its intention. Once I'm this firmly into a fandom, I generally stay for the long haul, but I always reserve the right to change my mind. If they were to go totally ridic & like, murder Brennan or something (heh), THEN I'd be done.
I think the issues being brought to the surface by the show right now are okay, to be serious though. The depression itself is already there & actually being managed better than in the past (i.e. no cutting, I'm actually eating, etc). It's good to finally be dealing with these things by talking & acknowleding them, even if it hurts.
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Date: 2011-01-23 01:20 am (UTC)As for Bones - take a break from it.
I'm getting a flash of Brokeback Mountain here. "I wish I could quit you!" The thing is, when I created an entry in August for reasons to keep living? Bones was on there. When I called a suicide hotline in September, the Brennan-centric episode I'd heard was coming up was one of the reasons I told myself there was a reason for picking up the phone. In November, the fanfic I started was one of the first things in I-don't-even-know-how-long to make me feel excited. Even now, writing another fanfic--it keeps me going. I care about these characters, despite their fictional status & how trivial & absurd it is.
I will keep what you said in mind though, and I appreciate the care behind its intention. Once I'm this firmly into a fandom, I generally stay for the long haul, but I always reserve the right to change my mind. If they were to go totally ridic & like, murder Brennan or something (heh), THEN I'd be done.
I think the issues being brought to the surface by the show right now are okay, to be serious though. The depression itself is already there & actually being managed better than in the past (i.e. no cutting, I'm actually eating, etc). It's good to finally be dealing with these things by talking & acknowleding them, even if it hurts.