10 Day Challenge
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rachg82Before we get to the meme, I have some RL stuff to ramble about. The meme's question today is an extremely short one anyway.
-I can't remember if I've mentioned this here yet, but I'm having my second period in like two and a half weeks, despite being on progesterone now. So I called my gyno and her brilliant plan is to simply double the dose and have me take it only 10 days a month instead of fifteen. How she thinks I WON'T be having multiple periods during my off-weeks, I have no idea. I kept asking her, and she kept basically ignoring me, just repeating herself. I'm going to do what she asks, but I know it won't work, and I'm going to be calling her mid-February, like, "um, so yeah, as I said before, I'm having multiple periods again because I'm not on the progesterone." We're probably going to have to try a progesterone-only IUD next. I HATE MY BODY. Honestly, I kinda doubt doubling the dose will even stop the period I'm on. But hopefully I'm wrong & just being a pessimist.
-I saw my psychiatrist yesterday & was extremely nervous before-hand, because I knew I'd be bringing up my diagnoses, and I've had a doctor actually snap at me and storm out of the room before because I questioned them. (yes, I complained) So I was worried she'd be offended by me questioning her decision. She was fine about it though and explained that, informally, most psychiatrists she knows look at Anxiety Disorder NOS as a catch-all for someone who shows signs of all the anxiety disorders (lucky me). I was a little annoyed I had to point this out to her, but I explained that in the new DSM it actually says that Anxiety Disorder NOS is when you meet SOME of the criteria for other anxiety disorders but not enough to be diagnosed with any of them specifically. She was like, "Oh!" Yeah, annoying. But the point is, she agreed that I still had at least Generalized Anxiety Disorder plus probably still Social Anxiety Disorder too, and that I showed signs of the others (e.g. OCD, Panic Disorder) as well as PTSD (but not enough to be diagnosed for that). And fyi, I say "as well as PTSD" because it's not considered an anxiety disorder anymore. It has its own category now. *the more you know*
As for my medications, she said it's extremely improbable that the paxil is causing my multiple periods (it does cause excessive bleeding in some cases, but that usually means something like you get a cut and it bleeds a lot or you have a single period that's especially heavy, not multiple periods at different times throughout the month; however, she also said that serotonin can raise prolactin levels, which can cause what I'm going through, but I'm pretty sure the gyno tested me for that already. I'll ask her next time we talk though, just to be sure), and that I should explore every other option before we come back to that as a possible cause. She also thought I was right on track as far as making progress is concerned, considering I only just raised my dose to 60 mg. last week. We'll be seeing each other again in a month, and I should notice more changes by then, hopefully. I have noticed some improvements already, but I'm certainly still struggling significantly sometimes too (enough to self-harm and have suicidal thinking, or panicking for long periods of time). Key word there though is "sometimes"; it's not "all day, every day" anymore. Though, to be fair, having memes to work on every day here at LJ has helped, so it'll be interesting to see how I do when I'm back to being a bit more purpose-less & listless, especially if I don't hang out with Alexandra as much anymore due to the drinking ultimatum I gave her. We'll see, I guess. Maybe I can try to find a way to keep myself occupied here on LJ more, even though the timing is terrible, what with it being a near ghost town these days. I could always create a blog elsewhere, but I don't just want followers -- I want friends.
-I called my dad back last night, and it was awkward as always. We basically talked about my migraines and recent movies I'd seen and that's it. Then he rushed me off the phone before it'd even been ten minutes. He didn't even ask how I spent my birthday (though my stepmom did), probably because he knew it'd mean me mentioning Corinne, and just the use of her name is like Voldemort to him. I was extremely relieved once it was over as I'd been anxious about it all day in advance. I'm going to talk to my counselor about that today, and see what I can do to try to curb that anxiety in the future. I mean I worried about it days in advance. It's just excessive. I'm so afraid of conflict with him & him manipulating and/or hurting me like he has in the past. To be fair, this time he DID hurt me, by not sending a card as he once would've done, and by rushing me off the phone after barely asking about my life, but on other hand it was so awkward I was relieved to be hanging up the phone too. So it's complicated.
-Parenthood has its series finale tonight, and I'm excited for it, but already mourning its departure. Now I won't have any TV to care about (I have other shows I watch, but I don't get flaily over them) until House of Lies and Orange is the New Black return. Plus Fargo. But in the meantime, it sucks. And fwiw, I didn't mention AHS, because it'll be a million years before it comes back.
'Kay, enough blathering; on to the meme:
The 10 Day Challenge
Day 1 - Ten random facts about yourself
Day 2 - Nine things you do every day
Day 3 - Eight things that annoy you
Day 4 - Seven fears/phobias
Day 5 - Six songs that you’re addicted to
Day 6 - Five things you can’t live without
Day 7 - Four memories you won’t forget
Day 8 - Three words you can’t go a day without
Day 9 - Two things you wish you could do
Day 10 - One person you can trust
Day 8 - Three words you can’t go a day without
This is a boring question, but oh well.
1. "Like". I try not to, but I rely on it a lot.
2. "So." I have to fight myself not to start like (see?) all my sentences with this word.
3. "Anyway." It comes up a lot.
For once I have a Vid of the Day again, which I've been neglecting for quite some time. After I post my fanvid meme, it'll probably become even more absent for a while. But I've been doing it for YEARS; this was bound to happen eventually. Anyway (haha, SEE?), here it is. My ex-brother-in-law's family is all about raw milk too. You will not be catching me drinking it anytime soon.
-I can't remember if I've mentioned this here yet, but I'm having my second period in like two and a half weeks, despite being on progesterone now. So I called my gyno and her brilliant plan is to simply double the dose and have me take it only 10 days a month instead of fifteen. How she thinks I WON'T be having multiple periods during my off-weeks, I have no idea. I kept asking her, and she kept basically ignoring me, just repeating herself. I'm going to do what she asks, but I know it won't work, and I'm going to be calling her mid-February, like, "um, so yeah, as I said before, I'm having multiple periods again because I'm not on the progesterone." We're probably going to have to try a progesterone-only IUD next. I HATE MY BODY. Honestly, I kinda doubt doubling the dose will even stop the period I'm on. But hopefully I'm wrong & just being a pessimist.
-I saw my psychiatrist yesterday & was extremely nervous before-hand, because I knew I'd be bringing up my diagnoses, and I've had a doctor actually snap at me and storm out of the room before because I questioned them. (yes, I complained) So I was worried she'd be offended by me questioning her decision. She was fine about it though and explained that, informally, most psychiatrists she knows look at Anxiety Disorder NOS as a catch-all for someone who shows signs of all the anxiety disorders (lucky me). I was a little annoyed I had to point this out to her, but I explained that in the new DSM it actually says that Anxiety Disorder NOS is when you meet SOME of the criteria for other anxiety disorders but not enough to be diagnosed with any of them specifically. She was like, "Oh!" Yeah, annoying. But the point is, she agreed that I still had at least Generalized Anxiety Disorder plus probably still Social Anxiety Disorder too, and that I showed signs of the others (e.g. OCD, Panic Disorder) as well as PTSD (but not enough to be diagnosed for that). And fyi, I say "as well as PTSD" because it's not considered an anxiety disorder anymore. It has its own category now. *the more you know*
As for my medications, she said it's extremely improbable that the paxil is causing my multiple periods (it does cause excessive bleeding in some cases, but that usually means something like you get a cut and it bleeds a lot or you have a single period that's especially heavy, not multiple periods at different times throughout the month; however, she also said that serotonin can raise prolactin levels, which can cause what I'm going through, but I'm pretty sure the gyno tested me for that already. I'll ask her next time we talk though, just to be sure), and that I should explore every other option before we come back to that as a possible cause. She also thought I was right on track as far as making progress is concerned, considering I only just raised my dose to 60 mg. last week. We'll be seeing each other again in a month, and I should notice more changes by then, hopefully. I have noticed some improvements already, but I'm certainly still struggling significantly sometimes too (enough to self-harm and have suicidal thinking, or panicking for long periods of time). Key word there though is "sometimes"; it's not "all day, every day" anymore. Though, to be fair, having memes to work on every day here at LJ has helped, so it'll be interesting to see how I do when I'm back to being a bit more purpose-less & listless, especially if I don't hang out with Alexandra as much anymore due to the drinking ultimatum I gave her. We'll see, I guess. Maybe I can try to find a way to keep myself occupied here on LJ more, even though the timing is terrible, what with it being a near ghost town these days. I could always create a blog elsewhere, but I don't just want followers -- I want friends.
-I called my dad back last night, and it was awkward as always. We basically talked about my migraines and recent movies I'd seen and that's it. Then he rushed me off the phone before it'd even been ten minutes. He didn't even ask how I spent my birthday (though my stepmom did), probably because he knew it'd mean me mentioning Corinne, and just the use of her name is like Voldemort to him. I was extremely relieved once it was over as I'd been anxious about it all day in advance. I'm going to talk to my counselor about that today, and see what I can do to try to curb that anxiety in the future. I mean I worried about it days in advance. It's just excessive. I'm so afraid of conflict with him & him manipulating and/or hurting me like he has in the past. To be fair, this time he DID hurt me, by not sending a card as he once would've done, and by rushing me off the phone after barely asking about my life, but on other hand it was so awkward I was relieved to be hanging up the phone too. So it's complicated.
-Parenthood has its series finale tonight, and I'm excited for it, but already mourning its departure. Now I won't have any TV to care about (I have other shows I watch, but I don't get flaily over them) until House of Lies and Orange is the New Black return. Plus Fargo. But in the meantime, it sucks. And fwiw, I didn't mention AHS, because it'll be a million years before it comes back.
'Kay, enough blathering; on to the meme:
The 10 Day Challenge
Day 2 - Nine things you do every day
Day 3 - Eight things that annoy you
Day 4 - Seven fears/phobias
Day 5 - Six songs that you’re addicted to
Day 6 - Five things you can’t live without
Day 7 - Four memories you won’t forget
Day 8 - Three words you can’t go a day without
Day 9 - Two things you wish you could do
Day 10 - One person you can trust
Day 8 - Three words you can’t go a day without
This is a boring question, but oh well.
1. "Like". I try not to, but I rely on it a lot.
2. "So." I have to fight myself not to start like (see?) all my sentences with this word.
3. "Anyway." It comes up a lot.
For once I have a Vid of the Day again, which I've been neglecting for quite some time. After I post my fanvid meme, it'll probably become even more absent for a while. But I've been doing it for YEARS; this was bound to happen eventually. Anyway (haha, SEE?), here it is. My ex-brother-in-law's family is all about raw milk too. You will not be catching me drinking it anytime soon.
