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I never thought I would compromise
It's been way too long since I got listy up in here. Let's fix that:
1. The Bjork renaissance is still going strong. I cannot stop listening to this song (or this one). Ahhhhhh. CAN'T STOP.
2. I randomly rewatched the first four episodes of Gilmore Girls yesterday. Oh, how I still love you, Lorelai. Promise you'll never leave me.
3. Who else thinks Josie on Southland has a bit of a thing for Lydia? Tell me it's not just me. 'Cause, honestly. That last ep? With Russ? "I don't like you." HA. Jealoussss.
P.S. For those of you who still don't watch Southland? Let me provide two examples of why you should, just for this woman alone: Boo and yah, muthafuckas. Regina King, y'all. Doin' the damn thing.
And if that's not enough? Check the trailer. For real, just watch it already. You know you want to.
4. Can someone please tell 123greetings.com to stop emailing me reminders about my mom's mindfucky birthday card "waiting for me" at their site? How many reminders do they think I need? I don't want the card! It's really starting to piss me off.
5. Speaking of things pissing me off, I'm hormonal. Today's one of those Sneaky Hate Spiral-sorta days. Technically, with the whole bleeding-from-the-cha-cha-situation, it's bound to last a few more days before things calm down. Heh. (and even then, I tend to relate all too well to the parts of that post that have to do with noise/lights/etc. Oy vey. My fridge does that high-pitched crap sometimes too & it makes me POSTAL) So, just a heads-up.
6. I took out trash today! And cleaned the fridge a little! Definitely worth exclamation points, I think. It's progress, right? It seems I keep progressing & then falling & then progressing & then falling, but oh well. Better than nothing. Better than being dead. No progress at all in that case.
7. I think this is how you officially know you're being irrational when it comes to weight issues: I'm four feet ten inches tall, right? Okay, so--technically--four feet ten & a half. Just about. But, whatever. My weight? 123.4 lbs. If I do a search for a BMI index calculator (which, in the interest of full disclosure, I already did--that's why I brought this up), it says mine is 25.8, based on that. If your BMI is between 18.5–24.9, you are considered as having a "normal weight." If it is 25–29.9, you're "overweight."
I am overweight by 0.8. This bothers me.
Now, RATIONALLY, I know I shouldn't care. BUT, OH, HOW I DO. I am so close. SO CLOSE. WRONG & SO CLOSE TO BEING RIGHT.
I WANT TO BE RIGHT.
Argh. 119 lbs. Four digits off. My brain won't let it go. Numbers, numbers. Must. get. below. 119. Like a finish line at a race.
I know I won't be satisfied even then, but I KNOW I have to at least get below that.
But I'm simultaneously trying to, y'know, make myself eat. It's difficult timing.
I just felt I had to admit to it is all. I'm RIGHT THERE. On this like precipice of a crazytimes goal, and I want to go all-out to get there as fast as possible. If that makes sense. But I'm not going to; I'm still doing my best to eat two meals a day (even if today that only meant a burrito & a protein bar. I'm trying, and it's very hard since I'm depressed & have next to no appetite anyway). I'm just recognizing the impulse is there. Kind of like how I can admit that the urge to cut is still there, but I haven't done that since the new year began. You know? I'm fighting & hanging in there, even if I haven't been keeping up with all my resolutions. At least I took a shower yesterday, right? And took out trash today. Little steps. Keep trying. It's all you can do.
8. Welcome to new friends! I seem to have made quite a few lately, since I've been getting more actively involved in fandom. I suppose it makes sense. I've been on LJ since 2002 though, and I actually take this whole thing pretty seriously. I'm not just here for Bones, or TV, or fanfic. Having this emotional outlet & medium of communication has been incredibly important to me over the last nine years, and my friends on here are equally important to me. TV's important to me too. I tend to personally relate to my favorite characters, and their stories often make me feel less alone.
In the interest of introducing myself to some of you who are brand-spankin' new to this journal,
-My Decade in Review post.
-My 2010 Year in Review post.
-The official rachg82 2010 YouTube soundtrack.
-And, finally, pictures! Plus what I sound like. That way, everyone can stalk me with minimal amounts of effort. Ready? Aaaaand…GO.[/sarcasm]
9. I still have chocolate left (from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sumpta), and yes, I actually have been eating it. I choose to believe this means Belgium pwns & is somehow magical.
10. I'm going to pull akeenai & make #10 my Vid of the Day, because I don't actually have a 10th point that's separate from the VotD, but you guys know how I am about even numbers & lists. Just go with it.
Today's vid is by midwifeonboard & is all about the lovely & eternally flail-worthy Adama & Roslin. I've been neglecting them lately, which is simply not acceptable. MY HEART, PEOPLE. MY HEART. THEY SQUISH IT UNCONTROLLABLY.
1. The Bjork renaissance is still going strong. I cannot stop listening to this song (or this one). Ahhhhhh. CAN'T STOP.
2. I randomly rewatched the first four episodes of Gilmore Girls yesterday. Oh, how I still love you, Lorelai. Promise you'll never leave me.
3. Who else thinks Josie on Southland has a bit of a thing for Lydia? Tell me it's not just me. 'Cause, honestly. That last ep? With Russ? "I don't like you." HA. Jealoussss.
P.S. For those of you who still don't watch Southland? Let me provide two examples of why you should, just for this woman alone: Boo and yah, muthafuckas. Regina King, y'all. Doin' the damn thing.
And if that's not enough? Check the trailer. For real, just watch it already. You know you want to.
4. Can someone please tell 123greetings.com to stop emailing me reminders about my mom's mindfucky birthday card "waiting for me" at their site? How many reminders do they think I need? I don't want the card! It's really starting to piss me off.
5. Speaking of things pissing me off, I'm hormonal. Today's one of those Sneaky Hate Spiral-sorta days. Technically, with the whole bleeding-from-the-cha-cha-situation, it's bound to last a few more days before things calm down. Heh. (and even then, I tend to relate all too well to the parts of that post that have to do with noise/lights/etc. Oy vey. My fridge does that high-pitched crap sometimes too & it makes me POSTAL) So, just a heads-up.
6. I took out trash today! And cleaned the fridge a little! Definitely worth exclamation points, I think. It's progress, right? It seems I keep progressing & then falling & then progressing & then falling, but oh well. Better than nothing. Better than being dead. No progress at all in that case.
7. I think this is how you officially know you're being irrational when it comes to weight issues: I'm four feet ten inches tall, right? Okay, so--technically--four feet ten & a half. Just about. But, whatever. My weight? 123.4 lbs. If I do a search for a BMI index calculator (which, in the interest of full disclosure, I already did--that's why I brought this up), it says mine is 25.8, based on that. If your BMI is between 18.5–24.9, you are considered as having a "normal weight." If it is 25–29.9, you're "overweight."
I am overweight by 0.8. This bothers me.
Now, RATIONALLY, I know I shouldn't care. BUT, OH, HOW I DO. I am so close. SO CLOSE. WRONG & SO CLOSE TO BEING RIGHT.
I WANT TO BE RIGHT.
Argh. 119 lbs. Four digits off. My brain won't let it go. Numbers, numbers. Must. get. below. 119. Like a finish line at a race.
I know I won't be satisfied even then, but I KNOW I have to at least get below that.
But I'm simultaneously trying to, y'know, make myself eat. It's difficult timing.
I just felt I had to admit to it is all. I'm RIGHT THERE. On this like precipice of a crazytimes goal, and I want to go all-out to get there as fast as possible. If that makes sense. But I'm not going to; I'm still doing my best to eat two meals a day (even if today that only meant a burrito & a protein bar. I'm trying, and it's very hard since I'm depressed & have next to no appetite anyway). I'm just recognizing the impulse is there. Kind of like how I can admit that the urge to cut is still there, but I haven't done that since the new year began. You know? I'm fighting & hanging in there, even if I haven't been keeping up with all my resolutions. At least I took a shower yesterday, right? And took out trash today. Little steps. Keep trying. It's all you can do.
8. Welcome to new friends! I seem to have made quite a few lately, since I've been getting more actively involved in fandom. I suppose it makes sense. I've been on LJ since 2002 though, and I actually take this whole thing pretty seriously. I'm not just here for Bones, or TV, or fanfic. Having this emotional outlet & medium of communication has been incredibly important to me over the last nine years, and my friends on here are equally important to me. TV's important to me too. I tend to personally relate to my favorite characters, and their stories often make me feel less alone.
In the interest of introducing myself to some of you who are brand-spankin' new to this journal,
-My Decade in Review post.
-My 2010 Year in Review post.
-The official rachg82 2010 YouTube soundtrack.
-And, finally, pictures! Plus what I sound like. That way, everyone can stalk me with minimal amounts of effort. Ready? Aaaaand…GO.[/sarcasm]
9. I still have chocolate left (from
sumpta), and yes, I actually have been eating it. I choose to believe this means Belgium pwns & is somehow magical.10. I'm going to pull a
keenai & make #10 my Vid of the Day, because I don't actually have a 10th point that's separate from the VotD, but you guys know how I am about even numbers & lists. Just go with it.Today's vid is by midwifeonboard & is all about the lovely & eternally flail-worthy Adama & Roslin. I've been neglecting them lately, which is simply not acceptable. MY HEART, PEOPLE. MY HEART. THEY SQUISH IT UNCONTROLLABLY.
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It probably wouldn't be the best thing for me right now, but I will remember it for the future!