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rachg82You know what I like? When you're midway through writing an entry for your journal and accidentally delete the whole thing. What fun![/sarcasm + Miranda quote, all in one]
Speaking of Miranda, here's another thing I like (non-sarcastically this time): when the comments to a post (particularly a serious one where I'm simultaneously made to feel understood & heard) somehow manage to turn into their own mini Fandom Fest of Conversion. Thanks to those who participated, I'm now up to the second episode of the second series (a.k.a. "season" in American Speak) of Miranda & have finallystubbornly agreed to give Castle a shot. Also: ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tempertemper will probably never be able to get up from her television/computer screen again.
My work here is done.
In other news, I'd like to wishgina227 a very Happy Birthday. Just for you, I'll try to watch Farscape soon. (I've been meaning to anyway, but shh. It still counts.)
While on the subject of fannish things--TWO DAYS, people. March Madness. Things are about to get buck wild up in here. (in reality, I'm not sure how heavily I'll campaign this time--simply due to my mood--but I'm still uber excited to observe the ridiculousness. I'm sure I'll get dragged in one way or another)
In the meantime, the Cliche and Crack Meme over at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
bitesize_bones has been entertaining me to no end. I haven't written anything for it yet, but I've been prompting like crazy, and I've gotten a LOT of great stories back in return. I so, so recommend hopping over there to check it out if you haven't already.
On a really random note, since I just got dinner: does anyone else here sometimes order extra food (for leftovers) and then try to give off an "I could have someone else here with me/on their way, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW, hence the unflappable poker face!"-vibe when paying (of course giving off said vibe involves no actual words/actions--only you thinking it, like they'll magically ~pick up the energy~) as if that "excuses" your excessive gluttony & solitary existence?
Just curious.
P.S. Papa Johns chicken strips are delicious.
Moving on. A book I've been waiting for at the library for months (Half Empty by David Rakoff) finally came in yesterday. Everything else--i.e. other unfinished books + the HP audiobooks (sorry,keenai)--is getting put on hold so I can read it.
Re: my actual life, I'm still extremely stressed. I'm doing my best to look at things bit by bit. Prioritize. Figure out what I can take care of first that will make other tasks easier. Maybe that will help some. Right now, I feel sort of frozen. Something has to give.
So, first task? Laundry. Then I'll feel comfortable enough to go shopping in daylight hours (right now I feel like a bum--walking around here at night is fine, but I'm not going into a mall), so I can buy a new pair of jeans and probably two tops. After that I'll walk over to the nearby cell center (where my old coworker/friend works) & see if I can apply in person. I'm not thinking any further than that yet.
There is another thing lately too that might be bumming me out, and I've been trying to address it over the last few days in my own way-- Or at least that's the way I think of it. Back around 2007-2008, I used to read & watch a lot more queer entertainment, but I haven't as much since. I think some of that had to do with the biphobia (examples: "they always cheat…they're all really straight/they're all really lesbian…they're the reason for STDs…I don't have anything against them, but I'd never date one…they gross me out…they want/get to pass in the straight world & use that to their advantage…they'll inevitably leave you for a man", etc) I kept finding myself exposed to in the lesbian community--it frustrated & hurt me, and I may have backed away a little as a result--and some of it may have just been that the site I went to most frequently (afterellen.com) got rid of my favorite vlogs. Regardless, sometimes I miss that environment. Especially spending so much of my time in a fandom like Bones, where even if girls say they think Brennan is ~so pretty~, you know it's usually coming from a very straight girl with a girlcrush sorta place (or at the very least, it's communicated very innocently/platonically/intentionally fauxmosexually). The slant is much more often "OMG DB/BOOTH & HIS SEXY CHESTICLES." Which is fine, because they are some mighty fine chesticles, it's true. But--sigh. THE CHEESE STANDS ALONE.
Of course I know that's not true. I KNOW there are other bi & lesbian chicks in the fandom. But we need to start being more vocal or something (so fans can have that common bond & feel like they fully belong--sometimes I feel like only part of me does). It'd be nice if there were a community. Don't ask me to run one though; I'm far too lazy. Ha.
Anyway, in an effort to combat these lonely feelings, I've been rewatching some of my favorite vlogs from back in the day, and I thought I'd share a few clips with you guys in case anyone else is feeling the same way.
Sometimes it's just nice to not feel alone, you know?
As an explanation for this one, Liz had a bit with each of her guests where she'd intentionally act like a creeper--hitting on them/being awkward/etc--and they in turn would pretend to be weirded out/annoyed/etc. It was actually pretty subtle in this one though, because she & Emily are old friends. They couldn't totally pull it off. Heh. Still, bear that in mind when you watch and Emily's all touching her hair like, "WTF WTF WTF." Haha.
Also, in regards to the "I don't know what that means/I need you to explain it to me" thing? That was in response to Emily being voted #69 on the afterellen.com Hot 100 list for that year. Liz took full advantage of the significance of that number.
Ohh, how I wish their full interview was up on YouTube. So hilarious.
God, I miss these vlogs like burning. The recaps, the sock puppets, the pillow fighting, ahhhh.
MARY LOUISE PARKER. I want, I want.
Parts 2, 3, 4, & 5 can also be found on YouTube.
That vlog used to comfort me quite a bit, particularly this episode due to the subject matter of the two letters sent in (self-destructive behavior such as addiction & cutting, etc) & how they handled it (thoroughly, matter-of-fact, yet compassionate). The first time I saw it (I've rewatched it a few times over the years), the song at the end made me cry.
And finally, as a bonus, I'll wrap this up with a song that always makes me feel good:
For my Vid of the Day, I'll cheat and post one more song. Thanks goes tonomnivore for introducing me to it earlier this week (it was one of her answers to the LJ Writer's Block question, "What 5 songs would you play at your friend's wedding?" I LOVE YOU, TIMMY. Hahaha). It's been on a repeating loop ever since.
Speaking of Miranda, here's another thing I like (non-sarcastically this time): when the comments to a post (particularly a serious one where I'm simultaneously made to feel understood & heard) somehow manage to turn into their own mini Fandom Fest of Conversion. Thanks to those who participated, I'm now up to the second episode of the second series (a.k.a. "season" in American Speak) of Miranda & have finally
tempertemper will probably never be able to get up from her television/computer screen again.My work here is done.
In other news, I'd like to wish
gina227 a very Happy Birthday. Just for you, I'll try to watch Farscape soon. (I've been meaning to anyway, but shh. It still counts.)While on the subject of fannish things--TWO DAYS, people. March Madness. Things are about to get buck wild up in here. (in reality, I'm not sure how heavily I'll campaign this time--simply due to my mood--but I'm still uber excited to observe the ridiculousness. I'm sure I'll get dragged in one way or another)
In the meantime, the Cliche and Crack Meme over at
bitesize_bones has been entertaining me to no end. I haven't written anything for it yet, but I've been prompting like crazy, and I've gotten a LOT of great stories back in return. I so, so recommend hopping over there to check it out if you haven't already.On a really random note, since I just got dinner: does anyone else here sometimes order extra food (for leftovers) and then try to give off an "I could have someone else here with me/on their way, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW, hence the unflappable poker face!"-vibe when paying (of course giving off said vibe involves no actual words/actions--only you thinking it, like they'll magically ~pick up the energy~) as if that "excuses" your excessive gluttony & solitary existence?
Just curious.
P.S. Papa Johns chicken strips are delicious.
Moving on. A book I've been waiting for at the library for months (Half Empty by David Rakoff) finally came in yesterday. Everything else--i.e. other unfinished books + the HP audiobooks (sorry,
keenai)--is getting put on hold so I can read it. Re: my actual life, I'm still extremely stressed. I'm doing my best to look at things bit by bit. Prioritize. Figure out what I can take care of first that will make other tasks easier. Maybe that will help some. Right now, I feel sort of frozen. Something has to give.
So, first task? Laundry. Then I'll feel comfortable enough to go shopping in daylight hours (right now I feel like a bum--walking around here at night is fine, but I'm not going into a mall), so I can buy a new pair of jeans and probably two tops. After that I'll walk over to the nearby cell center (where my old coworker/friend works) & see if I can apply in person. I'm not thinking any further than that yet.
There is another thing lately too that might be bumming me out, and I've been trying to address it over the last few days in my own way-- Or at least that's the way I think of it. Back around 2007-2008, I used to read & watch a lot more queer entertainment, but I haven't as much since. I think some of that had to do with the biphobia (examples: "they always cheat…they're all really straight/they're all really lesbian…they're the reason for STDs…I don't have anything against them, but I'd never date one…they gross me out…they want/get to pass in the straight world & use that to their advantage…they'll inevitably leave you for a man", etc) I kept finding myself exposed to in the lesbian community--it frustrated & hurt me, and I may have backed away a little as a result--and some of it may have just been that the site I went to most frequently (afterellen.com) got rid of my favorite vlogs. Regardless, sometimes I miss that environment. Especially spending so much of my time in a fandom like Bones, where even if girls say they think Brennan is ~so pretty~, you know it's usually coming from a very straight girl with a girlcrush sorta place (or at the very least, it's communicated very innocently/platonically/intentionally fauxmosexually). The slant is much more often "OMG DB/BOOTH & HIS SEXY CHESTICLES." Which is fine, because they are some mighty fine chesticles, it's true. But--sigh. THE CHEESE STANDS ALONE.
Of course I know that's not true. I KNOW there are other bi & lesbian chicks in the fandom. But we need to start being more vocal or something (so fans can have that common bond & feel like they fully belong--sometimes I feel like only part of me does). It'd be nice if there were a community. Don't ask me to run one though; I'm far too lazy. Ha.
Anyway, in an effort to combat these lonely feelings, I've been rewatching some of my favorite vlogs from back in the day, and I thought I'd share a few clips with you guys in case anyone else is feeling the same way.
Sometimes it's just nice to not feel alone, you know?
As an explanation for this one, Liz had a bit with each of her guests where she'd intentionally act like a creeper--hitting on them/being awkward/etc--and they in turn would pretend to be weirded out/annoyed/etc. It was actually pretty subtle in this one though, because she & Emily are old friends. They couldn't totally pull it off. Heh. Still, bear that in mind when you watch and Emily's all touching her hair like, "WTF WTF WTF." Haha.
Also, in regards to the "I don't know what that means/I need you to explain it to me" thing? That was in response to Emily being voted #69 on the afterellen.com Hot 100 list for that year. Liz took full advantage of the significance of that number.
Ohh, how I wish their full interview was up on YouTube. So hilarious.
God, I miss these vlogs like burning. The recaps, the sock puppets, the pillow fighting, ahhhh.
MARY LOUISE PARKER. I want, I want.
Parts 2, 3, 4, & 5 can also be found on YouTube.
That vlog used to comfort me quite a bit, particularly this episode due to the subject matter of the two letters sent in (self-destructive behavior such as addiction & cutting, etc) & how they handled it (thoroughly, matter-of-fact, yet compassionate). The first time I saw it (I've rewatched it a few times over the years), the song at the end made me cry.
And finally, as a bonus, I'll wrap this up with a song that always makes me feel good:
For my Vid of the Day, I'll cheat and post one more song. Thanks goes to
nomnivore for introducing me to it earlier this week (it was one of her answers to the LJ Writer's Block question, "What 5 songs would you play at your friend's wedding?" I LOVE YOU, TIMMY. Hahaha). It's been on a repeating loop ever since.