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OMG, you guys, I don't even know what to do with Rizzoli & Isles anymore. When did it become such a joyous, fantabulous thing? And why must it be on hiatus now until NOVEMBER 28TH? UNJUST, I SAY. I demand hot nekkid first-time sex shenanigans R/I fic recs immediately. And I'm really gonna need the library to hup to when it comes to getting me season 1. Like, for real-real, not for play-play. STOP HOGGING ALL THE GAY, UNIVERSE.

…Um, anywayyy. Heh. Don't mind my flail. It's just gonna get worse from here, I'm afraid, since I'm about to ramble about tonight's summer finale. ( cut for spoilers, a few run-on sentences, my thoughts, fave quotes, and probably a significant amount of capslock )

-I don't think I've rambled that much about an episode for a while. Ha. (I told you I was experiencing all the feelings)

-Speaking of feelings, I rewatched "Resurrection Ship Part 2" today. It's still amazing. On just so many levels. It basically encompasses everything I love about BSG. And, heads-up, BBC America will be airing it this Saturday, PLUS "Epiphanies." WATCH.

-My resurgance of video game love continues. I played (and beat) Donkey Kong Country today. My thumb is, once again, still numb. Haha. I'll probably carry on with the second & third DK games later.

-My apartments replaced my fridge & kitchen light today. Not exciting, I know, but boring RL info has its place here too, right?

-I had quinoa for breakfast today. Substituted coconut water & added brown sugar, honey, vanilla extract, & a bit of jam. It was--shocking, I know--almost too sweet. Heh. But quinoa generally has like zero flavor on its own, imo. Next time I want to try the quinoa porridge recipe I found online, which uses almond milk & cinnamon. What wouldn't be good with almond milk & cinnamon? I ask of you.

-I should find out at some point today whether my unemployment claim for last week will be reopened/accepted. Please send all your good mojo this way, because I really need it to work out. I'm trying not to think yet of what I'll do if it's denied, because I'm just hoping I don't have to go there. If it does come down to that? I'll have to deal with it then. But I don't want to freak out unnecessarily in the meantime.

ETA: I just checked the website & they said my payment wasn't processed because of a "problem" & that "instructions" would be mailed to me. I'm trying to not freak out right now, but only being partially successful with that. I'm going to call them in the morning, and I just pray I can work it out over the phone. I can't afford to wait around for a letter & fight with the government about this, and I mean "can't afford" literally. I won't have enough money for food, let alone bills, medicine, or rent. I'll have one week's pay on Friday and THAT'S IT. That job never even technically told me I was fired, either, which I think is extremely weird. I'm almost tempted to email or call & be like, "Um, AM I FIRED?" I should be, but shouldn't they have SAID so? Definitively?

-I decided against doing that lj anniversary meme I mentioned before. The questions are too boring. Not that I think anyone was waiting with bated breath for me to post it, but still. Heh.

-Parenthood has its premiere tonight (or "tomorrow", considering I haven't gone to bed yet. Details, details). I'm v. much looking forward to it.

Aaand that's all for now. For my Vid of the Day, here's something I came across recently which completely cracked me up (a looong time being my sister's nanny + being significantly older than my little brother…yeah. I get it):

1. Two hours cleaning = I iz tired nao. No mas, por favor. Still need to do laundry though, ugh.

2. New icon, check it. I bet you feel gayer already. (Feel free to swipe as long as you give me credit.)

3. Speaking of R&I, I rewatched this week's ep last night and couldn't resist jotting down some of my favorite lines & moments this time: ( cut for spoilers )

4. I told y'all this tag of picspams would never end. ( Three new categories, ahoy )

5. Current finished its "50 Documentaries To See Before You Die" series last week, and the complete list can now be viewed here. I watched "Trouble the Water" and "An Inconvenient Truth" yesterday, both of which are on the list. Most everyone's seen An Inconvenient Truth, so I'll skip talking about it in detail, but I will say that I enjoyed it. As for Trouble the Water, it was really, really good. Great timing for seeing it, too, what with the six year anniversary of Katrina this week.

For my VotD this time, let's go with a Bones pick. This one's by BONESgeek & contains spoilers through season 6:

I think it's time for a roll call of my flist to determine who is & isn't watching Rizzoli & Isles yet. Because, seriously? Double rainbow in my heart. LIKE A GAY BONES, PEOPLE. I'm saying. It's official. I have reached status level: flaily hands. ( cut for spoilers, re: tonight's ep )

Anyway, that's all for now, since I have to be up early in the morning (for that rescheduled-five-million-times-follow-up at the naturopath's), but I'll leave y'all with a Vid of the Day by nataloa1984. Enjoy!

You know this shiznit is going behind a spoiler cut:

( Booooooooooones )

I'll end this with a song. I'm gonna go watch that ep again. And again. And then again again again. Heh. Also, Community + Parks & Rec. I'll talk about those next time.

1. Song of the Day. It made me tear up. My mood is still closer to this (minus the last bit about pre-determined destiny, that is. I don't believe that. I relate to everything else though), particularly because I haven't left that staying-in-bed-for-most-of-the-day phase yet, but I have started feeling a shift. I'm incredibly stressed right now, to the point where all this unemployment stuff is making me feel nearly desperate (like, "Will I be able to keep living? What options do I have if I run out of money?"-desperate. I don't mean to scare people, but I need to be honest. A big issue is that certain jobs still feel off-limit to me, too, because of social anxiety. I feel trapped), but at least when those thoughts come up now they sound more bad than good. Still acceptable, but more bad than good. That's something, right? I may not exactly be gung-ho for life, but I don't like being forced into anything either, and for the first time in a long while I'm fighting the idea of death not just because I know I'm supposed to (and have told myself to in the past, i.e. the resolutions I've made with myself), but because I actually don't feel ready to die yet. So, yeah. That has to be worth something. I'm kind of in limbo.

That being said, things are very tenuous right now. Even if everything "works out" in a best-case scenario, it means getting a job. That stresses me out too. Deep breaths, in & out. It's all I can do. One step at a time. At least yesterday I both got the mail *and* opened it (yes, when you're like this--that's a task), and did the math to confirm that even with lesser benefits--if I do indeed qualify for the extended 20 weeks; they drop you to 80% of what you previously earned--I can still pay bills. It will be ridiculously tight, but that's fine. I have lived VERY cheaply before. I intentionally move into apartments with rent that's a good deal below what I can afford for this exact reason (plus it helps that, A. I don't have a car, B. I don't have a cell phone, C. I don't have anyone or anything depending on me, and D. I've never had any credit cards). You never know what situation you'll find yourself in. The only debt I have is from student loans & medical bills (and technically I'm a little behind on my electric bill, but not by much. Otherwise, there's simply rent + phone/internet/cable, & the miscellaneous stuff like medication & groceries & bus passes, etc). I also emailed my old friend/coworker to ask her for the address/name/phone number of the place where she works so I can go over & apply in person. I *really* don't want to work in a call center again--God, I hate it--but it would be close by, I have tons of experience in that area, and it would be better than sitting at home every day. Theoretically, it might make finding another job easier too, because then I could put on my resume that I'm currently employed, which looks better than "Hey, I've been unemployed for four months straight. Wanna hire me?" Know what I mean? I have to call the unemployment place before I do anything else though. I tried yesterday, but I called in the afternoon & the hold time was absurd. It's for the best anyway, because it allowed me to open the letter first, which they said you're supposed to do, though I don't see what difference it makes. But whatever. Today--8 am. I call. And panic. But call, regardless. Yay.[/monotone sarcasm]

2. My head has been hurting SO BAD the last week or so. I don't know how much of it is stress & how much is reducing the dose of the topamax (in fairness, I hate to admit it, but I've been even more terrible about eating, too. It's like my body suddenly feeling hungry made me even more determined to go without. I'm trying to deal with it. I did just finally have some Taco Bell, so, hey). I was going to make tonight my first night going off it completely, but the whole "staying in bed all day" deal screwed me up & consequently I missed getting the refill I needed for my antidepressent. Thus I missed it yesterday AND today. I don't want to throw my body for a crazy loop, so I'll wait on the topamax. And of course get my refill for the prozac tomorrow. Not really something I want to go without right now.

P.S. Sorry for all the body/brain talk, btw. For those of you who've never dealt with it, it's probably really boring, I know. It's what I'm dealing with right now, though. It helps me to break it down bit by bit sometimes.

3. On a positive note, the Cherry Blossom trees on my street are in bloom. Despite my allergies, that's my favorite part of spring. It'll depend on how I'm feeling, but I would like to take a walk soon (i.e. a ~Jaunty Woodland Walk~ along the nearby trails, like I used to--helpful link for pic-filled tree-hugging). I know I've been saying that forever, but the seasons changing does help up the motivation factor a little. We'll see.

4. I, like Cher in Clueless, love a good project--especially one that helps me feel more organized while also distracting me & wasting a bunch of time. As a result, I have a bunch of new tags now: Van Gogh-Go Gadget Cliched Artist (for pics of, you guessed it, my art), Voice Posts (I feel like they should have a tag. They're unique like that. P.S. Some of you don't know me well yet, so if there's questions you'd like to ask--ones I can answer in five minutes or less--feel free to drop them in the comments & I can do another voice post if you want. Woot woot. This counts for you lurkers too. I SEE YOU THERE. Heh. I won't bite!), Emotions Are Better on Paper (as an explanation for new flistmates: last summer, in an effort to better express certain feelings that otherwise were hard for me to access unfiltered, I began writing on paper--stream of consciousness/just-let it out-shit, in other words--and would sometimes later share it here. In many ways, I actually believe it's what helped lead me to finally writing fic. FYI, that tag also includes old poetry from ye olde teenaged days of yore, which I typed up. Be afraid), and, lastly, I Am a Special Snowflake (ASD-ish stuff. a.k.a. "I relate to Brennan: ASK ME HOW!").

Fun, fun.

Also: I'm even going to add to one of the above-mentioned tags…right now. *gasp* I KNOW. IT'S SO EXCITING. Heh. ( I uploaded some more of my old art. Feel free to come & take a looksie )

5. I'm so behind on my flist, and have enough piling up in my head as it is, so I'm just going to do a disorganized rundown of what I thought regarding Bones now, sans notes/rewatch. ( Bones ramblin' )

My Vid of the Day comes from TheLovelyBones1 and is a wonderfully edited take on B/B between episodes 6x09 & 6x13. Intense & delicious. This is where they're comin' from, folks. Remembering that makes the (still coming--it's just beginning & things are always repressed under the surface with them; don't forget that) happytimes that much more powerful. I'd go so far as to say they're *still* holding back a little. This vid shows a little of the KAPOW-quality I think we'll continue to see slowly rise (not all at once, but in bits) on their way towards them being a real couple. They're like pressure cookers, these two. I swear.

I'm so excited. Not only does Southland finally, FINALLY return this week on TNT (alieahoihoiheaigh), but Parenthood does as well. Jump onboard, folks. You won't be sorry. (For realio--we're talkin' a mini Bones/Zack, here. I want to cuddle him forever & ever. Not to mention Lauren Graham. What more do you need? Aaaand if that doesn't work for you, Southland has Regina King. With a shotgun. Bam.)

P.S. for those who want to catch up? ON DEMAND. Check it.

It's also possible I may be giving The Closer a chance, simply because Mary McDonnell's character & Kyra clearly need to make sweet, sweet sapphic love down by the fire. Bow chica chica *oonst oonst*. . .

What?

In other news: I've been considering my next fanfic and it may or may not involve alcohol & a cracky costume party (take my idea & I'll pull a Stabby McKnifey on ya[/impotent & endearingly non-threatening affect]). We shall see. I was chatting all evening with keenai on New Years Eve, and told her I'd been planning for Brennan to dress up like either Margaret Mead or some tribal type and she was like "SNOOKIE!" and I died laughing. NO PROMISES though.

I'd also like to do something where she & Cam become besties. I have many ideas. Too many, frankly. CUT IT OUT, BRAIN.

I think I'm going to take a long jaunty woodland walk tomorrow so they can all simmer.

In other, other fannish news: remember the 51 Things Picspam I did last year, comparing what X-Files, Bones, Buffy, Angel, Dollhouse, & Battlestar Galactica all had in common? And how I kept adding to the tag as time went on? Right, well, ( time to add to it again )

While I'm jumping headfirst into my newfound River love too, I had to share a few more reasons for those of you who haven't watched Firefly yet to give it a chance. ( Summer Glau + space = win. Simple equation. )

In non-fannish news: My sister emailed me to say thank you for the gift I sent my nephew & niece, but managed to still be all mindfucky about it (not a surprise). Doesn't know why I deleted her off facebook. Really, Corinne? Really? After everything? After the tantrum, the abusive insults, the betrayal of trust? Ugh. And of course no mention of having the kids call me/etc, despite the fact that my gift invited them to contact me directly. Nope, of course it's about her wanting to talk to me & that's it, and how it's a "shame" I won't do that. Sorry, that's not happening right now. Go away. Talking to you equals a predictable cycle of drama & fuckery & I'm just so, so over it. Not to mention how over your games I am and how you keep your kids away from me when I don't let you have your way. Go screw yourself.

Ahhh, that felt good.

Needless to say, I didn't bother responding. I'm just in no mood to engage her right now. She needs to get a grip if she's going to ever re-enter my life. I thought when I began talking to her again in August that we could try having a relationship even though she was still wrapped up in my family's drama & hadn't gotten herself help, but it didn't work. I think it's kind of like when you're a recovering addict, they tell you to step away from friends who are still drinking/using/etc. I can't move on if I'm still constantly being pulled down by people who are drowning & have no intention of reaching for a lifevest, especially when they want to push me under as well. Which is exactly what my sister does, and then she blames me for caring afterward. It's just not okay.

I've just got to allow myself a clean break. Move on. And have faith that someday, one way or another, I will see my nephew & niece again. I don't know what will happen in the meantime, but I'm going to try--for once in my freaking life--not to overthink it. I need to focus on me. I NEED TO. I've got to take care of me, which I haven't been doing that great a job of for quite some time now. Whatever happens, I need to have faith Jayden will know I always loved him. That's what matters to me the most, honestly.

Wrapping this up, let's go with an Angel Vid of the Day (by iBadFred) to round out the "strangely literal & abrupt women" love affair above. This vid is like an HBIC wet dream of ass-kickin' goodness & is seriously making me question my own judgment as to why I don't own season 5 of this show on DVD yet. What the Hell, self.

Blame my boredom for this one, folks. This is what happens when you combine an abundance of Diet Pepsi, YouTube, Bones fanfic, and a random brain of randomness.

I hereby present to you--my lovely flist--the Booth/Hannah/Brennan love triangle of season 6, as summarized by the ladies of Sex & the City:

P.S. This is brought to you by a bona fide B/B shipper who *does*, just for the record, believe they will be together in the end (much as I knew Big/Carrie would be). Nevertheless, POINT REMAINS. Bones is totally K-k-k-k-katie.

(P.P.S. "The Way We Were" = classic)

All right, we're getting back in the swing of things here. Two posts in one week. Progress, yes? Soon hopefully I'll start getting better at commenting regularly on your posts too (I've been reading all of them, but my commenting has been spotty and I hate that), as well as my recaps. I'm so behiiiiind, gah. Good thing summer's coming.

Speaking of tv & summer though, I have two exciting things to say about shows coming back:

-VANGUARD. Yessssss. I love this show so hard. Like, you don't understand. When I saw a commercial for its return on Current, I literally squealed outloud. My neighbors might've heard. Yes, I'm a nerd. DON'T JUDGE.

-So You Think You Can Dance. YEAH, BABY. And not only is it coming back, but it's some kind of wacky All Stars deal. Woooo! Bring on the season 2 peeps!

But anyway, enough of that. On with the entry. . .

1. So who watched Bones this week? aheolaighoeaighoigh, RIGHT? ( Cut for finale spoilers, some random-ass BSG comparisons, and wild theorizing about next season )

2. Changing topics, it turns out I'm getting old. Here's how I know: ( it's time for my 10-year high school reunion. )

That's it for now, as I rambled far longer about those things than I planned to. I thought I could make room to talk about other things too from the last couple weeks (Al-Anon, my last couple counseling visits, some funny work stories & the switcharoo of desks that happened there--Meerkat Manor got split up! Well, sort of--and the email I received from my stepdad yesterday morning that unfortunately ruined my entire day before I was able to pick myself up again and enjoy my evening), but that's okay. I can always write about that stuff later, and it was a bit of a nice break to talk about easy stuff again. The rest can wait for now.

For my Vid of the Day, I'm gonna recycle a vid I've posted before (by doracaprica), but with an excuse. My reason? Because I want someone to make a vid to this song for Booth & Brennan now. This is totes a song I associate with Roslin & Adama, but as I was listening to it the other day, I realized it could also work now for Booth & Bones as well. And I want someone to make a vid for them set to it SO BAD. If I knew how to make vids, I'd do it myself, but I don't. So for the love of God, someone make it, and please, when it gets to the "letters I've written" part? You'd better have Brennan writing her book in the season 4 finale & the "nights in white satin" stuff better be set to them in bed together. Because COME ON NOW.

P.S. I'd also really like someone to redo a vid for Roslin & Adama to this song with the complete version--not the truncated one--and with clips from all four seasons. Can someone get on that shit for me, please? But nonetheless, I love this vid even so. It's dark and aching & graceful & simple, just like the song & just like them.

Just a heads-up to those of you awaiting replies to comments and emails from me right now: my yahoo email account has its panties in a twist over something and keeps freezing & acting ridiculously slow on me everytime I try to use it lately, so I'm giving it the silent treatment this weekend in the hopes it'll get its act together to woo me back (totally rational, right?). At least I can still reply to the comments that I remember to go back to directly from lj though, except of course when lj decides to act up like it did the other day (WTF was up with that, anyway?), but still. Sorry for the late replies though, but I promise I'll try to catch up on them next week a little at a time.

Anyway though. Who's in the mood for some TV Ramblin'? I hope you guys are because I've got some XF Rewatch-y goodtimes for ya, including the introduction of my brand new X-Files Drinking Game (get ready to get SHITFACED, whoooo).

P.S. I also wrote up my notes for the 100th ep Bones recap I'll be doing, but I don't want to overwhelm you guys with too much rambly flail in one entry, hee. So I'll be doing that tomorrow or Tuesday, once I finish my taxes (which I sort of haven't done yet. *hides*)

Before I jump into the TV-Ramblin' though, I also had some real-life stuff to cover too:

( Apparently a memo went out to my family members to try to contact me this week. )

Anyway though, enough real-life blathering. Onto the stuff that really matters: television!

( XF Rewatch flaily flail: Deep Throat )

All right, y'all, there goes another one! Next up: "Squeeze." Oh hells muthafuckin' yes. WHAT UP, TOOMS. WITH YOUR FREAKY ASS. GO AHEAD & TRY TO COME EAT THIS LIVER. I WISH YOU WOULD.

For our Vid of the Day today, I feel like goin' with a random one I came across tonight. This one takes one of my favorite songs from one of my favorite musicals, edits it to the characters from Sesame Street (which makes sense considering the musical the song is from is Avenue Q), and the result is awesome awesomeness. My favorite lyrics, in case you're curious?

"Why are you all so happy?"
"'Cause our lives suck!"

and

"You win!"
"I feel better now!"
"It sucks to be yooooooou!"

Hahaha. (((Avenue Q)))

So, I've got a few things I wanted to update about tonight. We'll just go through 'em one at a time:

1. I meant to post about this yesterday, but forgot because of my fail brain this week. Frak. Well, better late than never, right?



I hope you had a great one, sweetie! I'm assuming it was full of much Adama/Roslin & Mulder/Scully shipping. You are quickly turning into a mini-me (except probably taller). Ha. :-)

2. Speaking of BSG, I had the most ridic idea ever tonight and knew you guys would appreciate it. Try & tell me this wouldn't be hilariously brilliant: a BSG crack!vid set to the theme song of ~Gilligan's Island~. YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT. Three hour tour, bitches! *lulz forever* Please someone make this happen.

3. So I'm sure you all remember the giant picspam I did a while back for the 51 things BSG, XF, Buffy, Angel, Bones, & Dollhouse had in common, right? Well, I thought of another thing I can add to the list tonight. ( Here's number 52: I'm on a boat, bitch! )

4. How many of you guys are watching Amazing Race this season? I have a few words I'd like to share with the stupid bitchass homophobe Miss California if you all don't mind:

Dear "the Iraq & such as",

I know you don't understand why "those lesbians" are "so mean" to you, and make fun of you for your tiara. Here's the deal. Maybe, just maybe, it could be because of your ASSHOLE comments about same-sex marriage. JUST A THOUGHT. Kindly fuck off & die.

P.S. I laughed & laughed when you guys forgot your coconut & had to go back. Please keep making mistakes like that. IT GIVES ME SUCH JOY IN LIFE.

Love,
Rachael.

(also: GO COWBOYS!)

5. From what bsg_stardust told me, it looks like we're all set to go for the XF rewatch and should be starting it with the first two episodes ("Pilot" and "Deep Throat"<---*twelve-year-old snicker*) around the end of this week. Most likely I'll do a post to include a few of my thoughts as well as hers, and then you crazy lot can jump in and comment & we'll have us a gay ole time of XF shenanigans. From that point on we'll do our best to maintain a schedule of about 1 to 2 eps a week, but we'll have to play it by ear obviously based on our schedules. Get ready for super random flail, people, because I rewatched a few s1 episodes the other night in preparation (y'know, to get in the mood, heh), and had forgotten the type of shit that gets me goin' when it comes to XF. "Mulder's hands are so pretty!" "Lulz, early '90s ATMs, haha!" "WTF IS UP WITH THOSE TIGHTS, NOOOOO SCULLY." "Oh, Mulder, YOU JUST GOT SERVED BY THE MUTHAFUCKIN' EYEBROW, WHAT UP!" And so on. Hee. So uh yeah, just brace yourselves now.

6. Speaking of TV flail, I feel so bad that I never finished my Dollhouse or BSG season 4.5 recapping during the tv hiatus like I'd planned. In my defense though, my real life sort of blew up in my face as you guys know all too well, so I'm kind of just glad I managed to stay even remotely in one piece during all of it. Still, I definitely plan to get back to the BSG recapping eventually (that's a for sure thing), so I wanted to make that clear. I'm not sure if I will end up recapping the last few eps of Dollhouse though. That one we'll just have to see about. But if you guys care about me finishing up the Dollhouse stuff, let me know and I'll make sure I get back to it too. Otherwise I'll just put it on a "maybe" list & get to it if I feel like it & have time later on. Most likely the BSG recaps will just come periodically over the next few months, in between the XF rewatch posts & Bones posts and so on. And if no one cares that's cool too, hee. But I still care, so I'm going to get back to them regardless. I just felt like giving a status update about it because I'm nerdy like that. And for those who might care, trust that the next BSG recap will totes be picspammy because it'll be for "Blood on the Scales." Which is partly why I feel so guilty for having gone so long not getting to it. Because seriously, WTF has caused me to wait so long to picspam the fuckin' "I AM COMING FOR ALL OF YOU" scene?! WHO AM I?

7. Remember my recent money-savin' mojo? Happy to say it's still in effect. I got my imitrex refilled last night & managed to convince them to match Costco's price again, even though I found out they're only supposed to do that if the pharmacy is within 5 miles (which they're not). That saved me over $150. Yeah, baby! *high-fives universe*

8. Except the universe unfortunately gets followed up with a *bitchslap* after its high-five, because my sister and I haven't talked since Sunday, which is just pissing me the hell off. I TOLD HER months ago I didn't want to talk to her about her problems with him anymore, and she said she was okay with that. Why is she all of a sudden not accepting it now and making me the bad guy for it? This is really not something I need to be dealing with right now at all.

9. ( In other news, I did return to work on Monday and talked to my boss. )

10. ( Lastly, I thought I'd let you guys know how the Topamax is working so far. )

For my Vid of the Day today, I figured I'd run with the "I'm on a ship boat, bitch!" theme I set above and post this vid by alltimemcfly. *Oh Trekkies, ILU.* (P.S. For the record, this vid is also what made me think of the Gilligan's Island idea, hee. It came to mind for me when I was on the hunt to see if someone had done a BSG vid for T-Payne's "I'm on a Boat," which I'm shocked & appalled to find has not been made yet either. What the hell, yo!)