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I told you when I came I was a stranger
Dec. 14th, 2011 12:02 am
( Rizzoli & Isles ) I don't have much else to talk about today, so let's skip right to that meme now.
( The X-Files and Community )( Rizzoli & Isles ) I don't have much else to talk about today, so let's skip right to that meme now.
( The X-Files and Community )
Just for today
Nov. 24th, 2011 02:18 amThings that happened today:
1.( My sister and I spoke )
2. I spent four hours on a round-trip bus ride to nowhere, a.k.a. Hillsboro. A+, self, for catching the wrong bus AND failing to write down the actual ADDRESS or NAME of the place you were going.
Seriously, if I'd been on time, I would've just looked for a church near that cross-street & figured it out (it was an ACA meeting)--I had directions, just not the damned address/name of the building--but getting on the wrong bus in the first place put me back by like twenty minutes, and I am not at all familiar with that part of town or super comfortable with wandering through it in the dark, clueless. So by that point it was already a lost cause, and I was like, "Fuck it. Let's turn around." SO RIDICULOUS. Ugh.
I'm committed to making it to a Saturday meeting if possible, though (it'll take place downtown, where I'm used to going). I really want to make ACA a priority again, even if I can only swing one meeting a week or one every other week. Just as long as it's at least semi-frequent & consistent. My goal for the next meeting is to share at least once & to stop & say hello to people after, rather than just walking out immediately when it ends.
3. I got out of work at 1:30, but still got paid for the full eight hours (tomorrow & Friday won't be paid, but hey, small favors). Oh, and: my manager gave the okay for me to change my schedule on Thursdays to 7 am - 3:30 pm, allowing me to continue seeing my counselor on a weekly basis. He said it may have to change if it becomes an issue (i.e. an inconvenience to others), but I think it'll probably be fine. At least for now. BIG RELIEF. Like, I was just shy of a panic attack while waiting for his response.
4. This should be included in "things that happened yesterday", but hush: I made gluten-free, egg-free chocolate chip cookies. And my beater broke half-way through, so I had to mix it all by hand, which was a ~big production~, what with the pouting & wrist-flapping & soreness & all (in other words: first world problems). So good, though.
5. I got an early Xmas present from Jen, including season 2 of Community, season 6 of Bones, and a tiny stuffed Yoshi. YOSHI IS OBVIOUSLY THE MOST IMPORTANT PART. Hee. But seriously, yay-ness. I have the bestest best friend ever.
For my Vid of the Day, have some random outtakes:
1.
( My sister and I spoke )2. I spent four hours on a round-trip bus ride to nowhere, a.k.a. Hillsboro. A+, self, for catching the wrong bus AND failing to write down the actual ADDRESS or NAME of the place you were going.
Seriously, if I'd been on time, I would've just looked for a church near that cross-street & figured it out (it was an ACA meeting)--I had directions, just not the damned address/name of the building--but getting on the wrong bus in the first place put me back by like twenty minutes, and I am not at all familiar with that part of town or super comfortable with wandering through it in the dark, clueless. So by that point it was already a lost cause, and I was like, "Fuck it. Let's turn around." SO RIDICULOUS. Ugh.
I'm committed to making it to a Saturday meeting if possible, though (it'll take place downtown, where I'm used to going). I really want to make ACA a priority again, even if I can only swing one meeting a week or one every other week. Just as long as it's at least semi-frequent & consistent. My goal for the next meeting is to share at least once & to stop & say hello to people after, rather than just walking out immediately when it ends.
3. I got out of work at 1:30, but still got paid for the full eight hours (tomorrow & Friday won't be paid, but hey, small favors). Oh, and: my manager gave the okay for me to change my schedule on Thursdays to 7 am - 3:30 pm, allowing me to continue seeing my counselor on a weekly basis. He said it may have to change if it becomes an issue (i.e. an inconvenience to others), but I think it'll probably be fine. At least for now. BIG RELIEF. Like, I was just shy of a panic attack while waiting for his response.
4. This should be included in "things that happened yesterday", but hush: I made gluten-free, egg-free chocolate chip cookies. And my beater broke half-way through, so I had to mix it all by hand, which was a ~big production~, what with the pouting & wrist-flapping & soreness & all (in other words: first world problems). So good, though.
5. I got an early Xmas present from Jen, including season 2 of Community, season 6 of Bones, and a tiny stuffed Yoshi. YOSHI IS OBVIOUSLY THE MOST IMPORTANT PART. Hee. But seriously, yay-ness. I have the bestest best friend ever.
For my Vid of the Day, have some random outtakes:
Not cool, not cool, not cool
Sep. 23rd, 2011 12:42 amThis whole waking up with a killer migraine that lasts for hours deal? And having it happen multiple days in a row? Not a fan. Like, I'm just gonna go out on a limb & put that out there. Call me crazy. *rolls eyes* As if the normal daily headaches aren't enough of a pain already. LIFE. WHY.
Anyway. At least there's new TV:
-( Community )
-( Parks & Rec )
Aaand I think that's it for tonight. I don't have anything else super exciting to add. In honor of Community's return, though, here's a VotD by sisabet:
Anyway. At least there's new TV:
-
( Community )-
( Parks & Rec )Aaand I think that's it for tonight. I don't have anything else super exciting to add. In honor of Community's return, though, here's a VotD by sisabet:
1. Just made a rice protein smoothie with those blueberries I bought at the Farmers Market, plus added rasberries, bananas, honey, & a combo of rice & almond milk. It was pretty much the biggity biggity bomb. Just so y'all know.
2. It's about time for an icon meme, methinks. Taken from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
torigates:
( my answers )
3. Since tomorrow is Labor Day, I won't be working. As for today, I worked 6 am - 1 pm instead of the normal 6:35 am - 5:05 pm Sunday shift I would've had. It's amazing how short a seven-hour day feels when you're getting used to ten. Unfortunately, I won't get holiday pay since I don't qualify yet, but I'll be working a full day on Tuesday & a half-day on Wednesday to make up for it. I'll even get something like two hours of overtime pay, technically. I'll probably exhaust myself in the process, but whatevs. I really need money. Currently, I have something like thirty-odd dollars to last me the next two weeks. GOOD TIMES.
4. Speaking of work, behold my favorite customer quote of the day (re: the increasing absence of pay phones on the streets due to everyone getting cell phones): "I mean, where's Superman gonna change his clothes?"
Also, gotta love the 90 year old woman I helped get signed up today, who, when asked if she had an email address, was like, "What's that?" Cue me answering, "Email? You know, on the internet?" And her shouting (they always shout, haha), "Internet?! What?" And me again, like: "Um, internet…like on a computer?" And then her final response of, "OH, I DON'T HAVE ONE OF THOSE. I'M LUCKY IF I CAN FIGURE OUT MY TV, HONEY." Hee!
FYI: I heard yesterday that the oldest customer we have is 106. Apparently he's pretty with it, too. *106* (it bears repeating). I can't even. He would've been three when the Model T came out. And he has a cell phone before I do. Haha.
5. A lot of my flist has been doing this, most recentlykeenai, so I'll jump on the bandwagon. ( Here's my Fall/Winter TV Schedule )
That's all for tonight. For my Vid of the Day, let's celebrate the upcoming return of Community this month (not to mention season 2 coming out on DVD) with some awesome Abed quotes, edited together by tvgirl17:
ETA: I can't resist:
2. It's about time for an icon meme, methinks. Taken from
torigates:( my answers ) 3. Since tomorrow is Labor Day, I won't be working. As for today, I worked 6 am - 1 pm instead of the normal 6:35 am - 5:05 pm Sunday shift I would've had. It's amazing how short a seven-hour day feels when you're getting used to ten. Unfortunately, I won't get holiday pay since I don't qualify yet, but I'll be working a full day on Tuesday & a half-day on Wednesday to make up for it. I'll even get something like two hours of overtime pay, technically. I'll probably exhaust myself in the process, but whatevs. I really need money. Currently, I have something like thirty-odd dollars to last me the next two weeks. GOOD TIMES.
4. Speaking of work, behold my favorite customer quote of the day (re: the increasing absence of pay phones on the streets due to everyone getting cell phones): "I mean, where's Superman gonna change his clothes?"
Also, gotta love the 90 year old woman I helped get signed up today, who, when asked if she had an email address, was like, "What's that?" Cue me answering, "Email? You know, on the internet?" And her shouting (they always shout, haha), "Internet?! What?" And me again, like: "Um, internet…like on a computer?" And then her final response of, "OH, I DON'T HAVE ONE OF THOSE. I'M LUCKY IF I CAN FIGURE OUT MY TV, HONEY." Hee!
FYI: I heard yesterday that the oldest customer we have is 106. Apparently he's pretty with it, too. *106* (it bears repeating). I can't even. He would've been three when the Model T came out. And he has a cell phone before I do. Haha.
5. A lot of my flist has been doing this, most recently
keenai, so I'll jump on the bandwagon. ( Here's my Fall/Winter TV Schedule )That's all for tonight. For my Vid of the Day, let's celebrate the upcoming return of Community this month (not to mention season 2 coming out on DVD) with some awesome Abed quotes, edited together by tvgirl17:
ETA: I can't resist:
Do you live in the house or the garden?
Aug. 14th, 2011 01:46 amIt feels like I haven't done a normal entry in forever, but in reality it's only been since Tuesday. Still. Now I have a bunch of stuff piled up to talk about.
Cue randomness:
-Current is doing a three-part series titled "50 Documentaries To See Before You Die," and I've been enjoying it. I love documentaries, and while I've already seen quite a few on their list, there's some I've never even heard of. I think, if possible, I'd like to make it a goal to watch the rest on the list.
-On a similar note, I watched a couple docs on hulu.com today (Motherland and Children of god), which were both really moving, Motherland in particular. It's about a group of mothers who've lost a child (and one sister who lost a brother), none of whom know each other, making a trip to South Africa together to volunteer amongst those affected by AIDS, poverty, etc. They spend a lot of time with children--some whose parents have already died or are going to--and I spent a lot of time tearing up, ngl. This little girl started crying when one of the mothers pointed at a page of facial expressions & asked which one she felt like, and I was like, "OKAY. TISSUES. GONNA NEED 'EM." I just wanted to hug these kids so badly.
The second doc followed kids living & begging on the streets outside the crematorium in Kathmandu (Nepal). It's mainly centered around a 12 year old boy who plans to be dead by 13, his older brother who's not really around, his very young sister (whom he's basically raising), and his alcoholic/damn near useless mother. I thought it'd be a pretty unique story, because of the element of kids living outside (and relying on -- they eat & make money by scavenging food & coins left in the river for the dead) a crematorium, but between the kids rapping & the universal nature of addiction, it ended up being extremely relatable. I only wish I could find out how the kids were doing later & especially whether the 12 year old ended up all right. That's one of the best things about the series I mentioned above -- the host periodically does interviews with former doc subjects throughout the ep, updating you on where they are now, etc.
-So You Think You Can Dance had its finale this week. After much hand-wringing, I voted for Sasha, though I also think Melanie earned it.( More thoughts on the finale, this season overall, and a few leftover fave dances )
-My hayfever allergies have been CRAZY the last few days. I mean, miserable, utterly. So much so that I was like, "Whaaaat is going on? Did the pollen count just explode or something?" And to a degree, yes, it did; weather.com lists the weed pollen count in my zip code as high, which makes sense since it's late summer, and that's when ragweed does its thing. Then I thought about the chamomile supplement my doctor gave me, realized it's also from the ragweed family, and immediately became annoyed because HELLO, why would you give that to me when I'm allergic to it. Damn't. Like, I think I'm usually okay if I take a few sips of chamomile tea or whatever, but taking it in capsule form is something else entirely. ANNOYING.
-I didn't want to be one of Those People, gullibly following whatever they're told without second thought, so I've been trying to learn more about the test they did for my food sensitivities. Especially because the change is stressing me OUT, I'll admit.( cut for rambling )
-I cancelled my counseling appointment today, because I felt awful (physically); I straight-up could not stop sneezing/blowing my nose, and it would've been embarassing on the bus. I'm also feeling a little stressed about so much spending, between the $30 for the doctor's appointment & the $40 for the blender & changing my food budget etc, so that played a role too. My rent is going up next month, & I have a follow-up appt with that doctor, and yeah. I just don't want to blow my cash all at once, however good it might be to do. I'll feel less stressed about it if I wait a bit longer & stagger the spending out.
-Remember how I was supposed to get together with that friend a week ago? Yeah, apparently she forgot or IDEK (I'm talking after she forgot & said so, the second time. She was all, "How about next week?",then never got back to me). People are so flaky.
Anyway, I think that's more than enough for one entry. For my Vid of the Day, have some Jeff/Britta action by xbucketx.
Cue randomness:
-Current is doing a three-part series titled "50 Documentaries To See Before You Die," and I've been enjoying it. I love documentaries, and while I've already seen quite a few on their list, there's some I've never even heard of. I think, if possible, I'd like to make it a goal to watch the rest on the list.
-On a similar note, I watched a couple docs on hulu.com today (Motherland and Children of god), which were both really moving, Motherland in particular. It's about a group of mothers who've lost a child (and one sister who lost a brother), none of whom know each other, making a trip to South Africa together to volunteer amongst those affected by AIDS, poverty, etc. They spend a lot of time with children--some whose parents have already died or are going to--and I spent a lot of time tearing up, ngl. This little girl started crying when one of the mothers pointed at a page of facial expressions & asked which one she felt like, and I was like, "OKAY. TISSUES. GONNA NEED 'EM." I just wanted to hug these kids so badly.
The second doc followed kids living & begging on the streets outside the crematorium in Kathmandu (Nepal). It's mainly centered around a 12 year old boy who plans to be dead by 13, his older brother who's not really around, his very young sister (whom he's basically raising), and his alcoholic/damn near useless mother. I thought it'd be a pretty unique story, because of the element of kids living outside (and relying on -- they eat & make money by scavenging food & coins left in the river for the dead) a crematorium, but between the kids rapping & the universal nature of addiction, it ended up being extremely relatable. I only wish I could find out how the kids were doing later & especially whether the 12 year old ended up all right. That's one of the best things about the series I mentioned above -- the host periodically does interviews with former doc subjects throughout the ep, updating you on where they are now, etc.
-So You Think You Can Dance had its finale this week. After much hand-wringing, I voted for Sasha, though I also think Melanie earned it.
( More thoughts on the finale, this season overall, and a few leftover fave dances )-My hayfever allergies have been CRAZY the last few days. I mean, miserable, utterly. So much so that I was like, "Whaaaat is going on? Did the pollen count just explode or something?" And to a degree, yes, it did; weather.com lists the weed pollen count in my zip code as high, which makes sense since it's late summer, and that's when ragweed does its thing. Then I thought about the chamomile supplement my doctor gave me, realized it's also from the ragweed family, and immediately became annoyed because HELLO, why would you give that to me when I'm allergic to it. Damn't. Like, I think I'm usually okay if I take a few sips of chamomile tea or whatever, but taking it in capsule form is something else entirely. ANNOYING.
-I didn't want to be one of Those People, gullibly following whatever they're told without second thought, so I've been trying to learn more about the test they did for my food sensitivities. Especially because the change is stressing me OUT, I'll admit.
( cut for rambling ) -I cancelled my counseling appointment today, because I felt awful (physically); I straight-up could not stop sneezing/blowing my nose, and it would've been embarassing on the bus. I'm also feeling a little stressed about so much spending, between the $30 for the doctor's appointment & the $40 for the blender & changing my food budget etc, so that played a role too. My rent is going up next month, & I have a follow-up appt with that doctor, and yeah. I just don't want to blow my cash all at once, however good it might be to do. I'll feel less stressed about it if I wait a bit longer & stagger the spending out.
-Remember how I was supposed to get together with that friend a week ago? Yeah, apparently she forgot or IDEK (I'm talking after she forgot & said so, the second time. She was all, "How about next week?",then never got back to me). People are so flaky.
Anyway, I think that's more than enough for one entry. For my Vid of the Day, have some Jeff/Britta action by xbucketx.
I'm kind of exhausted right now, since I woke up from a migraine at like 3 am this morning (it's that time of the month. Cue: hellish pain) & never went back to sleep after, but I don't want to go to bed now & end up with a funky vampire schedule again. So, LJ updatin' it is. Don't be surprised if I'm less than articulate though.
Also, this is probably gonna be random. Fair warning.
-I did my first load of laundry today in I don't even know how long. I'm counting that as an accomplishment.
-This is random (I told you), but it amuses me so I'll share: yesterday, when the technician guy was here, I told him my TV had been on the fritz for a week, and he tried to banter with me, all, "You got grounded." I swear it took me at least a full 30 seconds to respond, because all I could see in my head was a fighter jet or rocket or some shit, literally grounded, and I was like, "WTF?" Haha. Then I got it, of course. But still. Nice combo there of obliviously dense skillz + too much BSG-watching + a childhood of pretty much never being truly "grounded" in that sense (there was one time when I was actually *told* I was, officially, but then I talked my way out of it within minutes, soooo, yeah).
-I wish the world would stop trying to talk to me about Kirstie Allie's weight. I DON'T EFFING CARE, OMG. SHUT UP.
-After procrastinating it forever, I finally went in for an eye exam this afternoon. My prescription had apparently changed by only about a quarter, but it was still enough for me to notice some eye strain (thus providing the motivation). Plus I'd been meaning to go in & update my old pair of prescription sunglasses for YEARS, so I figured it was worth going no matter what. Considering how pricey that stuff is though, and bearing in mind how slight the change in prescription was, I decided to just replace the sunglasses for now & get new lenses for my everyday glasses at a later date. The sunglasses will however have transition lenses, so I can wear them indoors if I want. My old pair of sunglasses were transitions as well, and I used to even wear them at work sometimes (fluorescent lighting = my arch nemesis, basically), but those ones were made back when transition lenses still retained a semi-colored tint even at their lightest, so I didn't use them all the time. From what I understand, these newer ones should be able to go from dark grey/black to completely clear. If so, I may make them my new everyday pair, though I haven't decided yet whether I like the style enough for that. But it'd be nice to have that option.
Either way, point being: SUNGLASSES. Ones I can wear without blurry-eyed squinting again! So much yay. Ooh, AND! Remember my free-stuff-gettin'-mojo? Still in effect. $100 coupon, babuh ba-by. And what.
On a crazy note, the same lady who helped me try out five kajillion different pairs of contacts three years ago was there today, and she remembered me by name. Was all, "Oh, hey, Rachael! How are you?" Meanwhile she wasn't the one working with me--she was helping someone else, i.e. not at the front desk--so it's not like she had my name in front of her when she spotted me. I was sort of blown away by that, honestly.
-I picked up my BSG rewatch again this morning, while I was all couch-bound & headthrobby. Made it through "No Exit" (ugh) & "Deadlock" (meh), then got rewarded with the lovely "Someone To Watch Over Me" (woo. I love that ep). I took notes & plan to write about my thoughts in greater depth later; for now I'm too sleepy to do it justice. I will at least share two quotes that particularly stood out to me this time though:
1. Kara (discussing one of the songs her father played): "There was this one, it made me happy and sad all at the same time."
Mystery!Piano Man: "The best ones do."
2. Mystery!Not!Kara's Dad!Piano Man (seriously, I don't even care what you say, RDM. In my mind? That is totes her dead dad): "Listen. It may feel like Hell, but sometimes lost is where you need to be. Just because you don't know your direction doesn't mean you don't have one."
I, just! BSG! What am I gonna do with you.
-I have some serious-toned stuff on my mind, but I'd rather get into it when I'm not so overtired. Just a heads-up though that a longer flocked entry may be coming soonish.
'Kay, I'll end this here. I'm gonna watch So You Think You Can Dance now & then go pass out in my bed like a boss.
For my Vid of the Day, allow me to deliver some Community-filled goodtimes, courtesy of TimanFanVids:
Also, this is probably gonna be random. Fair warning.
-I did my first load of laundry today in I don't even know how long. I'm counting that as an accomplishment.
-This is random (I told you), but it amuses me so I'll share: yesterday, when the technician guy was here, I told him my TV had been on the fritz for a week, and he tried to banter with me, all, "You got grounded." I swear it took me at least a full 30 seconds to respond, because all I could see in my head was a fighter jet or rocket or some shit, literally grounded, and I was like, "WTF?" Haha. Then I got it, of course. But still. Nice combo there of obliviously dense skillz + too much BSG-watching + a childhood of pretty much never being truly "grounded" in that sense (there was one time when I was actually *told* I was, officially, but then I talked my way out of it within minutes, soooo, yeah).
-I wish the world would stop trying to talk to me about Kirstie Allie's weight. I DON'T EFFING CARE, OMG. SHUT UP.
-After procrastinating it forever, I finally went in for an eye exam this afternoon. My prescription had apparently changed by only about a quarter, but it was still enough for me to notice some eye strain (thus providing the motivation). Plus I'd been meaning to go in & update my old pair of prescription sunglasses for YEARS, so I figured it was worth going no matter what. Considering how pricey that stuff is though, and bearing in mind how slight the change in prescription was, I decided to just replace the sunglasses for now & get new lenses for my everyday glasses at a later date. The sunglasses will however have transition lenses, so I can wear them indoors if I want. My old pair of sunglasses were transitions as well, and I used to even wear them at work sometimes (fluorescent lighting = my arch nemesis, basically), but those ones were made back when transition lenses still retained a semi-colored tint even at their lightest, so I didn't use them all the time. From what I understand, these newer ones should be able to go from dark grey/black to completely clear. If so, I may make them my new everyday pair, though I haven't decided yet whether I like the style enough for that. But it'd be nice to have that option.
Either way, point being: SUNGLASSES. Ones I can wear without blurry-eyed squinting again! So much yay. Ooh, AND! Remember my free-stuff-gettin'-mojo? Still in effect. $100 coupon, babuh ba-by. And what.
On a crazy note, the same lady who helped me try out five kajillion different pairs of contacts three years ago was there today, and she remembered me by name. Was all, "Oh, hey, Rachael! How are you?" Meanwhile she wasn't the one working with me--she was helping someone else, i.e. not at the front desk--so it's not like she had my name in front of her when she spotted me. I was sort of blown away by that, honestly.
-I picked up my BSG rewatch again this morning, while I was all couch-bound & headthrobby. Made it through "No Exit" (ugh) & "Deadlock" (meh), then got rewarded with the lovely "Someone To Watch Over Me" (woo. I love that ep). I took notes & plan to write about my thoughts in greater depth later; for now I'm too sleepy to do it justice. I will at least share two quotes that particularly stood out to me this time though:
1. Kara (discussing one of the songs her father played): "There was this one, it made me happy and sad all at the same time."
Mystery!Piano Man: "The best ones do."
2. Mystery!Not!Kara's Dad!Piano Man (seriously, I don't even care what you say, RDM. In my mind? That is totes her dead dad): "Listen. It may feel like Hell, but sometimes lost is where you need to be. Just because you don't know your direction doesn't mean you don't have one."
I, just! BSG! What am I gonna do with you.
-I have some serious-toned stuff on my mind, but I'd rather get into it when I'm not so overtired. Just a heads-up though that a longer flocked entry may be coming soonish.
'Kay, I'll end this here. I'm gonna watch So You Think You Can Dance now & then go pass out in my bed like a boss.
For my Vid of the Day, allow me to deliver some Community-filled goodtimes, courtesy of TimanFanVids:
The city sun sets over me
May. 15th, 2011 09:49 amIt's been a couple days since I updated, so I feel like I should, but I'm having one of those issues where I can't think of what to write & everything I CAN think of sounds boring. So I end up just sitting & staring at the computer screen all "BLAH" like a human question mark. "Entry! Why won't you write yourself? Be a team player!" I hate that.
Anyway, I'll just ramble for a minute & we can all pretend it's interesting.
-I had a really bad migraine the night before last, and as a result I've slept more than I've been awake the last two days. I still don't feel quite "over it" yet--my limbs feel heavy, my stomach is frakked, it's hard to read things, when I went to the store yesterday I had difficulty talking (words came out wrong/stilted), etc. Immediately afterward, I felt simultaneously exhausted & yet extremely relaxed/almost good (migraine euphoria, in other words), but then (and now) I just came back to feeling out of it & vaguely depressed yet not. I'm used to all of it, but it's strange, especially because I don't always experience the postdrome phase so severely. It really depends on how bad the migraine itself is, usually (in this case, it was pretty bad). It's good to know there's a reason for all of it though. I find it comforting when I can understand what's going on with my body. It's kind of interesting, almost. The brain is an odd thing.
-During the few hours I was awake yesterday, I watched a couple episodes of some ghost show on cable (I always end up watching the most random crap when sick, I swear). It was your usual fare of sillyness--every ghost in the world apparently wears white dresses circa the Victorian era--but I heard a quote from one of the women that I liked: "God's delay doesn't necessarily mean God's denial." She said her dead father appeared to her & said that, which--whatever, who knows--but I don't think it matters whether it's true or even whether you believe in God. It's still a nice concept.
-Speaking of things I've heard lately that I liked, here's a few more:
"You make your choices and you live with them, and in the end you are those choices."-BSG
"Sometimes we have to leave people behind so that we can go on--so that we can continue to fight."-BSG
"Success is not a goal. It's a byproduct."-Friday Night Lights
"A friend once said, and I found to be true, that everyday people--they lie to God too--so what makes you think that they won't lie to you?"-Lauryn Hill
The last one is a line from a song, and I've of course heard it before, but it had been a while. I've been talking withjasminelily about some of the things my mom said to me in those emails, and the likelihood that she was lying about what my nephew said, so that lyric resonated with me.
-Parks & Rec this week was freaking hilarious. "I'm gonna make out with him. On his face." HA. Also: everyone drunk. BEST EVER.
-Community doesn't know how to be anything but awesome, I don't think. ABED WAS HAN SOLO, Y'ALL. HE MADE OUT WITH ANNIE & THEN WAS JUST LIKE, "COOL", AND WALKED OFF. Hahaha.
-I continue to enjoy Friday Night Lights. If I had Netflix, I'd stream it from the beginning, but I prefer living in the 20th century so I don't. Okay, so that's a joke, but it's not far off from the truth. Heh. I do want to rent the first season though. I suspect I will over the summer. There's a few other shows I plan to check out, too, most likely. Probably Farscape, Castle, and maybe Dr. Who. Maybe. I've seen a couple episodes & really didn't get sucked in, but I know a lot of people who are into it, so I'm open.
-Lastly, I'm still slowly but surely working on my fic, though this one has been giving me a hard time. I talked about it withkeenai the other day though, ( which I'll include here, 'cause that's how I roll )
For my Vid of the Day, I'm gonna get my convert-powerz on. It's come to my attention that some of you are still not watching Community. This simply won't do. Hence, I shall provide clips to help make it right. You're welcome.
Anyway, I'll just ramble for a minute & we can all pretend it's interesting.
-I had a really bad migraine the night before last, and as a result I've slept more than I've been awake the last two days. I still don't feel quite "over it" yet--my limbs feel heavy, my stomach is frakked, it's hard to read things, when I went to the store yesterday I had difficulty talking (words came out wrong/stilted), etc. Immediately afterward, I felt simultaneously exhausted & yet extremely relaxed/almost good (migraine euphoria, in other words), but then (and now) I just came back to feeling out of it & vaguely depressed yet not. I'm used to all of it, but it's strange, especially because I don't always experience the postdrome phase so severely. It really depends on how bad the migraine itself is, usually (in this case, it was pretty bad). It's good to know there's a reason for all of it though. I find it comforting when I can understand what's going on with my body. It's kind of interesting, almost. The brain is an odd thing.
-During the few hours I was awake yesterday, I watched a couple episodes of some ghost show on cable (I always end up watching the most random crap when sick, I swear). It was your usual fare of sillyness--every ghost in the world apparently wears white dresses circa the Victorian era--but I heard a quote from one of the women that I liked: "God's delay doesn't necessarily mean God's denial." She said her dead father appeared to her & said that, which--whatever, who knows--but I don't think it matters whether it's true or even whether you believe in God. It's still a nice concept.
-Speaking of things I've heard lately that I liked, here's a few more:
"You make your choices and you live with them, and in the end you are those choices."-BSG
"Sometimes we have to leave people behind so that we can go on--so that we can continue to fight."-BSG
"Success is not a goal. It's a byproduct."-Friday Night Lights
"A friend once said, and I found to be true, that everyday people--they lie to God too--so what makes you think that they won't lie to you?"-Lauryn Hill
The last one is a line from a song, and I've of course heard it before, but it had been a while. I've been talking with
jasminelily about some of the things my mom said to me in those emails, and the likelihood that she was lying about what my nephew said, so that lyric resonated with me.-Parks & Rec this week was freaking hilarious. "I'm gonna make out with him. On his face." HA. Also: everyone drunk. BEST EVER.
-Community doesn't know how to be anything but awesome, I don't think. ABED WAS HAN SOLO, Y'ALL. HE MADE OUT WITH ANNIE & THEN WAS JUST LIKE, "COOL", AND WALKED OFF. Hahaha.
-I continue to enjoy Friday Night Lights. If I had Netflix, I'd stream it from the beginning, but I prefer living in the 20th century so I don't. Okay, so that's a joke, but it's not far off from the truth. Heh. I do want to rent the first season though. I suspect I will over the summer. There's a few other shows I plan to check out, too, most likely. Probably Farscape, Castle, and maybe Dr. Who. Maybe. I've seen a couple episodes & really didn't get sucked in, but I know a lot of people who are into it, so I'm open.
-Lastly, I'm still slowly but surely working on my fic, though this one has been giving me a hard time. I talked about it with
keenai the other day though, ( which I'll include here, 'cause that's how I roll )For my Vid of the Day, I'm gonna get my convert-powerz on. It's come to my attention that some of you are still not watching Community. This simply won't do. Hence, I shall provide clips to help make it right. You're welcome.
1. More photo meme funtimes, ahoy! Here's torigates' request: "I'd like to see your kitchen and inside your fridge", and ( here's the oh-so-fascinating result )
2. My dreams continue to be wack-ass weird. I mean, on one hand I'm still getting the predictable family dreams, so that part's sort of status: normal, but on top of that they've just been so damned ODD lately. I found myself in some cheesy horror movie last night, and the baddie was a green-skinned (like the Wicked Witch) chick who would pop up out of nowhere and, like, stab you with her nails and shit if you didn't do whatever she wanted. Plus she had some magical power to make men obsessed with her. That by itself wouldn't be so weird (for a dream), but then guess how I convinced her to chill out & leave this one kid in my mom's family room alone? Why, I brought in Freddy Krueger of course. And she was all, "I'm not like that, am I?" And I was like, "Well, you're kind of a jerk. I mean, no offense." Hee hee. Then she felt all bad & let the kid go.[/clearly I'm a hero in my head]
Oh, and I totally hardcore made out with her afterward. HAHA. I think she had normal skin by then though.
What the fuuuuuck.
3. I've been working on my fic more, and I'm having a much easier time with it now. It's good to have something positive to focus on.
4. You know how you have to choose a mood for each entry? I keep running into the issue lately where I don't know what mood I am. There's honestly so many different things I feel about various parts of my life right now, and sometimes it leaves me feeling sort of…~nothing~ all over. Like, a big question mark. I just don't know. I do know I feel a bit lost regarding what to hope for & do with everything right now. There's still a lot of hopelessness & disillusionment in me, which I just sort of try to ignore. There's pain & anxiety over family stuff. There's a sense of failure, and the rut I feel stuck in when it comes to jobs & schooling & RL friendships & weight loss & self-improvement and…yeah, pretty much everything. But there's also, hey, at least my living room & kitchen are clean. Like, that's good. And fic writing also makes me feel good when it's going well, and I have a new candle lit in here that smells nice, and the weather's finally becoming spring-like, so those things are all positive. I've gained weight, which bothers me enormously, but I'm still rational enough to know five pounds is not the end of the damned world, and it could quickly be lost by walking. I don't know, whatever. Some of you know my depression has been pretty stealthy lately, getting much worse at nighttime/when I'm not distracted, but I'm still here, aren't I? And I'm trying to figure out how to find a balance between cheering myself up & not pushing problematic feelings down so that they'll just inevitably come rushing up later, like, "Surprise! Thought we were gone? THINK AGAIN. NOW WE'RE EVEN WORSE." You know? Oy, stupid FEELINGS.
Okay, ramble over. I will add though that I would really like to try & go to an ACA meeting this weekend. I'd also like to take a walk in Forest Park. I don't know if I'll follow through though (largely because my new jeans still aren't hemmed, and my other stuff is crappy looking. It's hard enough getting myself to walk anywhere nearby right now, let alone go downtown where people look nicer. Common sense would tell me "just go freaking get your jeans hemmed then! And do some laundry, stupid!" but it's like RIDIC levels of hard when you're depressed to get off your ass & do anything physical, especially for me if it involves possibly seeing other people). So, I won't say I'm doing it for sure, but I'm at least thinking about it. If I can just get myself to bring those jeans to the cleaners, that'll probably make other things easier & provide more motivation.[/ramble over for real this time. Don't mind me as Iwrite think outloud about stuff no one else in their right mind probably cares about.]
5. My DVR failed to record Parks & Rec + Community AGAIN this week. WTF, mate? I changed the settings though to allow for reruns as well now; maybe it was marking new eps as repeats & then ignoring them or something. *shakes fist*
( It did however record Bones, thankfully. )
For my Vid of the Day, here's a fun Community tribute that I found today by bopradar. Makes me want to go rewatch all of season 1 all over again.
torigates' request: "I'd like to see your kitchen and inside your fridge", and ( here's the oh-so-fascinating result )2. My dreams continue to be wack-ass weird. I mean, on one hand I'm still getting the predictable family dreams, so that part's sort of status: normal, but on top of that they've just been so damned ODD lately. I found myself in some cheesy horror movie last night, and the baddie was a green-skinned (like the Wicked Witch) chick who would pop up out of nowhere and, like, stab you with her nails and shit if you didn't do whatever she wanted. Plus she had some magical power to make men obsessed with her. That by itself wouldn't be so weird (for a dream), but then guess how I convinced her to chill out & leave this one kid in my mom's family room alone? Why, I brought in Freddy Krueger of course. And she was all, "I'm not like that, am I?" And I was like, "Well, you're kind of a jerk. I mean, no offense." Hee hee. Then she felt all bad & let the kid go.[/clearly I'm a hero in my head]
Oh, and I totally hardcore made out with her afterward. HAHA. I think she had normal skin by then though.
What the fuuuuuck.
3. I've been working on my fic more, and I'm having a much easier time with it now. It's good to have something positive to focus on.
4. You know how you have to choose a mood for each entry? I keep running into the issue lately where I don't know what mood I am. There's honestly so many different things I feel about various parts of my life right now, and sometimes it leaves me feeling sort of…~nothing~ all over. Like, a big question mark. I just don't know. I do know I feel a bit lost regarding what to hope for & do with everything right now. There's still a lot of hopelessness & disillusionment in me, which I just sort of try to ignore. There's pain & anxiety over family stuff. There's a sense of failure, and the rut I feel stuck in when it comes to jobs & schooling & RL friendships & weight loss & self-improvement and…yeah, pretty much everything. But there's also, hey, at least my living room & kitchen are clean. Like, that's good. And fic writing also makes me feel good when it's going well, and I have a new candle lit in here that smells nice, and the weather's finally becoming spring-like, so those things are all positive. I've gained weight, which bothers me enormously, but I'm still rational enough to know five pounds is not the end of the damned world, and it could quickly be lost by walking. I don't know, whatever. Some of you know my depression has been pretty stealthy lately, getting much worse at nighttime/when I'm not distracted, but I'm still here, aren't I? And I'm trying to figure out how to find a balance between cheering myself up & not pushing problematic feelings down so that they'll just inevitably come rushing up later, like, "Surprise! Thought we were gone? THINK AGAIN. NOW WE'RE EVEN WORSE." You know? Oy, stupid FEELINGS.
Okay, ramble over. I will add though that I would really like to try & go to an ACA meeting this weekend. I'd also like to take a walk in Forest Park. I don't know if I'll follow through though (largely because my new jeans still aren't hemmed, and my other stuff is crappy looking. It's hard enough getting myself to walk anywhere nearby right now, let alone go downtown where people look nicer. Common sense would tell me "just go freaking get your jeans hemmed then! And do some laundry, stupid!" but it's like RIDIC levels of hard when you're depressed to get off your ass & do anything physical, especially for me if it involves possibly seeing other people). So, I won't say I'm doing it for sure, but I'm at least thinking about it. If I can just get myself to bring those jeans to the cleaners, that'll probably make other things easier & provide more motivation.[/ramble over for real this time. Don't mind me as I
5. My DVR failed to record Parks & Rec + Community AGAIN this week. WTF, mate? I changed the settings though to allow for reruns as well now; maybe it was marking new eps as repeats & then ignoring them or something. *shakes fist*
( It did however record Bones, thankfully. )For my Vid of the Day, here's a fun Community tribute that I found today by bopradar. Makes me want to go rewatch all of season 1 all over again.
You're like a unicorn
Apr. 17th, 2011 06:51 pmI'm bored, headachey, and trying to put off doing my taxes (I know, I know. I HAVE TO DO THEM. It'll take like not even an hour--it's not like I have any dependents or anything. I'll get to it later tonight); ergo, how about a meme?
I swiped this one fromicedteainthebag, and it's muy fun:
Songs In My Pants
1. Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
2. List the first fifteen songs that come up and add "in my pants" to the end.
3. Bold the ones that actually made you LOL.
Here's what I got:
1. Everyone's a Little Bit Racist in My Pants
2. Us in My Pants
3. Mr. Brightside in My Pants
4. Heartbeats in My Pants (I don't know why that made me laugh, hee)
5. Hop a Plane in My Pants
6. Here I Come in My Pants (best ever or BEST EVER?)
7. Like a Star in My Pants
8. Nobody Knows Me At All in My Pants (this is kind of my theme song, aw)
9. Soil, Soil in My Pants (um, ew)
10. A Boy Named Sue in My Pants
11. Feeling Good in My Pants
12. Last Goodbye in My Pants (how sad! Ha)
13. No Letting Go in My Pants
14. Rehab (Glee Cast Version) in My Pants (I'm picturing a tiny cast of Glee, singing, in my pants. Lord help me. That is disturbing.)
15. Cathedrals in My Pants.
To add to the fun, let's make this a soundtrack, eh? This will be good for those who might not know all the songs above, plus it gives me an excuse to post a couple fanvids.
( Soundtrack en mis pantalones )
For my Vid of the Day (the above vids don't count--I say so), here's a tribute montage to Shirley by VeritasProductions:
I swiped this one from
icedteainthebag, and it's muy fun:Songs In My Pants
1. Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
2. List the first fifteen songs that come up and add "in my pants" to the end.
3. Bold the ones that actually made you LOL.
Here's what I got:
1. Everyone's a Little Bit Racist in My Pants
2. Us in My Pants
3. Mr. Brightside in My Pants
4. Heartbeats in My Pants (I don't know why that made me laugh, hee)
5. Hop a Plane in My Pants
6. Here I Come in My Pants (best ever or BEST EVER?)
7. Like a Star in My Pants
8. Nobody Knows Me At All in My Pants (this is kind of my theme song, aw)
9. Soil, Soil in My Pants (um, ew)
10. A Boy Named Sue in My Pants
11. Feeling Good in My Pants
12. Last Goodbye in My Pants (how sad! Ha)
13. No Letting Go in My Pants
14. Rehab (Glee Cast Version) in My Pants (I'm picturing a tiny cast of Glee, singing, in my pants. Lord help me. That is disturbing.)
15. Cathedrals in My Pants.
To add to the fun, let's make this a soundtrack, eh? This will be good for those who might not know all the songs above, plus it gives me an excuse to post a couple fanvids.
( Soundtrack en mis pantalones )For my Vid of the Day (the above vids don't count--I say so), here's a tribute montage to Shirley by VeritasProductions:
I've already polished off the first two discs of season 1. Considering I slept 14 hours last night, & all of my TV watching was done before going to bed? That says a lot. It has been such a pleasure catching up on all the episodes I missed last year. THIS SHOW IS SO GOOD, Y'ALL. Seriously, I'm not exaggerating at all here. It makes me crack up so hard that I have to wipe actual tears from my eyes, & I frequently have to press rewind because I was laughing too loud to hear the next thing they said. It's just hysterical and so, so clever. Especially if you enjoy the use of meta, pop cultural references, & smart, quirky humor like I do.
Also:( cut for flailing )
Moving on, I thought I'd share some pics with you guys. I noticed another flistmate post stuff from her scrapbook, and it made me remember the one I created as a teenager. It includes some of my happiest memories, and it's kind of a time capsule unto itself. Those of you who've known me since the meta boards (i.e. since this journal first started in '02) will remember some of these pics, since I posted them on the old yahoo meta photo album, but for the rest of you these will be mostly new.
Also, consider this a reminder,huh920, that I'm still stalking you. Heh. I want everyone to post pics, damn't.
( Scrapbook pics: Let's party like it's 1999 )
Before I go, I also came across a poemdosidella wrote & sent to me for my 21st birthday (a.k.a. in 2003), which was with my scrapbook but not pasted into it yet. For the sake of posterity, I thought I'd include it here as well. Best BFF ever, yo. ( excuse me while I get verklempt )
For my Vid of the Day, let's show some love to Troy. This one's by shoopdancer2504.
Also:
( cut for flailing )Moving on, I thought I'd share some pics with you guys. I noticed another flistmate post stuff from her scrapbook, and it made me remember the one I created as a teenager. It includes some of my happiest memories, and it's kind of a time capsule unto itself. Those of you who've known me since the meta boards (i.e. since this journal first started in '02) will remember some of these pics, since I posted them on the old yahoo meta photo album, but for the rest of you these will be mostly new.
Also, consider this a reminder,
huh920, that I'm still stalking you. Heh. I want everyone to post pics, damn't. ( Scrapbook pics: Let's party like it's 1999 )Before I go, I also came across a poem
dosidella wrote & sent to me for my 21st birthday (a.k.a. in 2003), which was with my scrapbook but not pasted into it yet. For the sake of posterity, I thought I'd include it here as well. Best BFF ever, yo. ( excuse me while I get verklempt )For my Vid of the Day, let's show some love to Troy. This one's by shoopdancer2504.
Win here, win there, win win everywhere
Mar. 19th, 2011 10:50 pmApparently everyone else on the interwebz is out painting the town red or somethin', because LJ is empty like a Sunnydale library tonight. I, however, am an extremely boring person; ergo, my Saturday evening funtimez include watching random vids on YouTube. (Anya clips + Abed clips + Firefly clips + Bones clips + Auto Tune the News = yayyyy)
Jealous?
Don't worry, I'm nice like that, so I'll share a few that are worth your while. (Hey, if I'm gonna be sitting around, I might as well spam you all, right?)
1. Dramatic Brennan. OMG, so ridic. Hahaha. I've watched it at least a handful of times already, & it still gets me.
2. I'm on a drug…called Charlie Sheen. The one on the left--HEE. "Wi-i-i-inning!"[/head shake]
My mom is lucky this song didn't exist back when we still spoke. I would've made it my retort whenever she morphed into Batshit McBitchfaceyson--a.k.a. every other minute.
3. And most of all:
ABED, ILU. Like, you see this place in my heart? YOU HAVE A PERMANENT HOME THERE. Seriously, *why* did I not get more into this show sooner? WHY? It had better freaking get renewed for another season or I will airlock the universe.
…go ahead & try to understand that one. Sit with it for a minute, I dare you. ("But in order to airlock the universe, something would have to be *outside* the universe for it to be released into, but that would by definition be nothing, and what would nothing's form even be? Unless the universe really does just keep expanding infinitely, but for the purposes of this hypothetical metaphor, it *couldn't*, and--y'know what? Forget it.")
Anyway. I'm tempted to spam you all with further clips, but I won't. I'm off to either rewatch Bones & take notes for my review or start up my BSG marathon again. Not sure which yet.
Jealous?
Don't worry, I'm nice like that, so I'll share a few that are worth your while. (Hey, if I'm gonna be sitting around, I might as well spam you all, right?)
1. Dramatic Brennan. OMG, so ridic. Hahaha. I've watched it at least a handful of times already, & it still gets me.
2. I'm on a drug…called Charlie Sheen. The one on the left--HEE. "Wi-i-i-inning!"[/head shake]
My mom is lucky this song didn't exist back when we still spoke. I would've made it my retort whenever she morphed into Batshit McBitchfaceyson--a.k.a. every other minute.
3. And most of all:
ABED, ILU. Like, you see this place in my heart? YOU HAVE A PERMANENT HOME THERE. Seriously, *why* did I not get more into this show sooner? WHY? It had better freaking get renewed for another season or I will airlock the universe.
…go ahead & try to understand that one. Sit with it for a minute, I dare you. ("But in order to airlock the universe, something would have to be *outside* the universe for it to be released into, but that would by definition be nothing, and what would nothing's form even be? Unless the universe really does just keep expanding infinitely, but for the purposes of this hypothetical metaphor, it *couldn't*, and--y'know what? Forget it.")
Anyway. I'm tempted to spam you all with further clips, but I won't. I'm off to either rewatch Bones & take notes for my review or start up my BSG marathon again. Not sure which yet.
Did you hear? All dogs are blue now
Mar. 12th, 2011 02:24 amCONGRATS, TROY. YOU DID ME PROUD.
Now that FMM is over, and the votes are in, let's take a moment to honor the champ. If anyone had to beat my homie Abed, I'm very okay with it being Troy. Loves me some Troy, man. They're basically like two halves of a whole, anyway. Frakking MFEO BFFs fo' liiiife, yo.[/acronym overkill]
In celebration, do yourselves a favor & watch this vid. It'll instantly improve the quality of your life:
Now that FMM is over, and the votes are in, let's take a moment to honor the champ. If anyone had to beat my homie Abed, I'm very okay with it being Troy. Loves me some Troy, man. They're basically like two halves of a whole, anyway. Frakking MFEO BFFs fo' liiiife, yo.[/acronym overkill]
In celebration, do yourselves a favor & watch this vid. It'll instantly improve the quality of your life:
