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1. We'll just get it out of the way first: I didn't go to work yesterday. My stomach was hurting most of the night, along with that morning, and it was just too much for me. My cousin called me last night to check in, and I think he sounded disappointed in me when I told him. Maybe not though. It's hard to tell. It may have been him feeling bad for me/worrying. Who knows. He was like, "They can't fire you if it's for medical reasons." And I was like, "Oh, yes, they can." Wouldn't it be nice if they couldn't, though? He kept trying to tell me I should look into FMLA, even after I told him it was only for employees who'd worked a certain amount of hours already, like, "Well, at least look into it!" I didn't have the heart to be like, "No, dude. You're wrong. I'm right. I'm sorry." Sometimes people just want to feel like they're helping, I guess, even when they're totally not (especially guys, it seems). So I just told him I would. And obviously confirmed what I already knew once I did. So, yeah. It was nice that he called though.

I do feel a bit down about it (and worried. I hope I can just pick back up on unemployment easily. I think I can, but don't know for sure yet), but I'm also trying to be reasonable about it. As sumpta said, I only have one body, but there are lots of jobs. My health takes precedent. And as keenai said, I should stop thinking so much of what I *should* do, and do what I want to do (within reason, obvs. Heh), meaning if I'd rather be going to school full-time than working full-time, I should try to make that happen. Or at least work part-time if necessary, while attending classes. I don't know yet. But I do know I want to look into it. Finally. And it's not like getting sick repeatedly doesn't cause issues with classes/schoolwork, but it's just different. And at least then I'd feel like my efforts are going into something that has meaning. The lack of meaning in the work I've been doing over the last few years has honestly been getting to me a lot.

2. On a positive note, I finished another section of my fic & am up to 3,000+ words now. Slowest fic ever, I know. But it's coming together. I have no idea if others will like it, but again, who's always right? keenai, that's who. (Well, and Jasmine. They sort of go together. Heh. Twinsies!) And so I'm not doing it for others. I'm doing it for me. That being said, if others do like it, that'd be a bonus.

3. Question for y'all: when, if ever, will it stop being hot? Listen up, fall, you need to be here now, aiight? No, not later. Now. I'm tired of sweating.

4. I rewatched "Bowling For Columbine" last week & also checked off a couple new docs from the list: "The Kid Stays in the Picture" and "King of Kong." I got so into the second one, ha. I was like, "HE HAD BETTER WIN THE WORLD RECORD OR I WILL BE PISSED." It kind of cracked me up how extremely-obviously aspie so many of the gamers were, too. JUST SAYING. Not surprising. (Bear in mind my dad's nickname for me over the years was "The Video Game Queen." Sooo, yeah. 'Nuff said.)

As for "The Kid Stays in the Picture," that was actually really entertaining & interesting. Robert Evans is a great storyteller, and he's lived an amazing life. Watch it.

5. The Energizer Bunny of Picspams lives on. ( I have three new categories. )

6. Speaking of BSG, it does my heart proud to see all the ads on BBC America. Hopefully lots of new people are joining the fandom because of it.

7. How gay was Rizzoli & Isles this week? I swear, every episode, it just gets gayer. ( cut for spoilers )

8. I watched "Saved" on Logo the other night, and I could've sworn I'd seen it before. But that could've just been because there were so many clips of it floating around a few years back. It was good times though. I am FILLED with Christ's love!. Haha.

9. I feel like I should come up with more things to say, because I like doing listy posts of 3, 5, or 10, but whatever.

10. See, I can just make my Vid of the Day my 10th point. So smart.

This one's by sandhyni:

1. The Energizer Bunny of Picspams continues. We've got another brand new category AND an update to #46. ( clicky )

2. I checked another doc off the list this week: Roger & Me (link to watch on YouTube + the trailer). Michael Moore before he was Michael Moore, alll the way back in 1989. I really enjoyed it, especially the editing. The juxtaposition at the end between Roger Smith quoting Charles Dickens and the family in Flint being evicted on Christmas Eve? Genius.

3. I renewed my icon package/paid account a few days ago, & it actually gave me three additional icon spaces for free, which: yay. Hence the adorableness above. I love themmm.

4. Speaking of FNL, I checked out season 3 from the library last night & am already done with the first disc. I'll probably have more to say after I get a bit further in, but for now I'll just reiterate my undying love for Eric & Tami, Landry, Tyra, Matt (and his grandma!), and basically everyone. Though I still sometimes want to smack Lyla & Julie upside the head, but that's okay. Heh.

5. I've made it my mission to do all the laundry sitting on my bedroom floor by next Friday. If possible, I'd like to also go through my wardrobe for items to give/throw away, because seriously. My dresser is full of shit I haven't worn in years. It's ridiculous. Whether I'll actually be successful in this endeavor is another matter, but we'll see.

For my Vid of the Day (this time by narvinek), I have some amazeballs shiznit for y'all. This was recommended by Coda on facebook the other day, so I have her to thank for my not missing it. Definitely one of the best BSG vids I've seen. I seriously cannot stop watching it. THIS is the show I love. Right here. SO intense, so good.

I'm so excited. Not only does Southland finally, FINALLY return this week on TNT (alieahoihoiheaigh), but Parenthood does as well. Jump onboard, folks. You won't be sorry. (For realio--we're talkin' a mini Bones/Zack, here. I want to cuddle him forever & ever. Not to mention Lauren Graham. What more do you need? Aaaand if that doesn't work for you, Southland has Regina King. With a shotgun. Bam.)

P.S. for those who want to catch up? ON DEMAND. Check it.

It's also possible I may be giving The Closer a chance, simply because Mary McDonnell's character & Kyra clearly need to make sweet, sweet sapphic love down by the fire. Bow chica chica *oonst oonst*. . .

What?

In other news: I've been considering my next fanfic and it may or may not involve alcohol & a cracky costume party (take my idea & I'll pull a Stabby McKnifey on ya[/impotent & endearingly non-threatening affect]). We shall see. I was chatting all evening with keenai on New Years Eve, and told her I'd been planning for Brennan to dress up like either Margaret Mead or some tribal type and she was like "SNOOKIE!" and I died laughing. NO PROMISES though.

I'd also like to do something where she & Cam become besties. I have many ideas. Too many, frankly. CUT IT OUT, BRAIN.

I think I'm going to take a long jaunty woodland walk tomorrow so they can all simmer.

In other, other fannish news: remember the 51 Things Picspam I did last year, comparing what X-Files, Bones, Buffy, Angel, Dollhouse, & Battlestar Galactica all had in common? And how I kept adding to the tag as time went on? Right, well, ( time to add to it again )

While I'm jumping headfirst into my newfound River love too, I had to share a few more reasons for those of you who haven't watched Firefly yet to give it a chance. ( Summer Glau + space = win. Simple equation. )

In non-fannish news: My sister emailed me to say thank you for the gift I sent my nephew & niece, but managed to still be all mindfucky about it (not a surprise). Doesn't know why I deleted her off facebook. Really, Corinne? Really? After everything? After the tantrum, the abusive insults, the betrayal of trust? Ugh. And of course no mention of having the kids call me/etc, despite the fact that my gift invited them to contact me directly. Nope, of course it's about her wanting to talk to me & that's it, and how it's a "shame" I won't do that. Sorry, that's not happening right now. Go away. Talking to you equals a predictable cycle of drama & fuckery & I'm just so, so over it. Not to mention how over your games I am and how you keep your kids away from me when I don't let you have your way. Go screw yourself.

Ahhh, that felt good.

Needless to say, I didn't bother responding. I'm just in no mood to engage her right now. She needs to get a grip if she's going to ever re-enter my life. I thought when I began talking to her again in August that we could try having a relationship even though she was still wrapped up in my family's drama & hadn't gotten herself help, but it didn't work. I think it's kind of like when you're a recovering addict, they tell you to step away from friends who are still drinking/using/etc. I can't move on if I'm still constantly being pulled down by people who are drowning & have no intention of reaching for a lifevest, especially when they want to push me under as well. Which is exactly what my sister does, and then she blames me for caring afterward. It's just not okay.

I've just got to allow myself a clean break. Move on. And have faith that someday, one way or another, I will see my nephew & niece again. I don't know what will happen in the meantime, but I'm going to try--for once in my freaking life--not to overthink it. I need to focus on me. I NEED TO. I've got to take care of me, which I haven't been doing that great a job of for quite some time now. Whatever happens, I need to have faith Jayden will know I always loved him. That's what matters to me the most, honestly.

Wrapping this up, let's go with an Angel Vid of the Day (by iBadFred) to round out the "strangely literal & abrupt women" love affair above. This vid is like an HBIC wet dream of ass-kickin' goodness & is seriously making me question my own judgment as to why I don't own season 5 of this show on DVD yet. What the Hell, self.

So, I've got a few things I wanted to update about tonight. We'll just go through 'em one at a time:

1. I meant to post about this yesterday, but forgot because of my fail brain this week. Frak. Well, better late than never, right?



I hope you had a great one, sweetie! I'm assuming it was full of much Adama/Roslin & Mulder/Scully shipping. You are quickly turning into a mini-me (except probably taller). Ha. :-)

2. Speaking of BSG, I had the most ridic idea ever tonight and knew you guys would appreciate it. Try & tell me this wouldn't be hilariously brilliant: a BSG crack!vid set to the theme song of ~Gilligan's Island~. YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT. Three hour tour, bitches! *lulz forever* Please someone make this happen.

3. So I'm sure you all remember the giant picspam I did a while back for the 51 things BSG, XF, Buffy, Angel, Bones, & Dollhouse had in common, right? Well, I thought of another thing I can add to the list tonight. ( Here's number 52: I'm on a boat, bitch! )

4. How many of you guys are watching Amazing Race this season? I have a few words I'd like to share with the stupid bitchass homophobe Miss California if you all don't mind:

Dear "the Iraq & such as",

I know you don't understand why "those lesbians" are "so mean" to you, and make fun of you for your tiara. Here's the deal. Maybe, just maybe, it could be because of your ASSHOLE comments about same-sex marriage. JUST A THOUGHT. Kindly fuck off & die.

P.S. I laughed & laughed when you guys forgot your coconut & had to go back. Please keep making mistakes like that. IT GIVES ME SUCH JOY IN LIFE.

Love,
Rachael.

(also: GO COWBOYS!)

5. From what bsg_stardust told me, it looks like we're all set to go for the XF rewatch and should be starting it with the first two episodes ("Pilot" and "Deep Throat"<---*twelve-year-old snicker*) around the end of this week. Most likely I'll do a post to include a few of my thoughts as well as hers, and then you crazy lot can jump in and comment & we'll have us a gay ole time of XF shenanigans. From that point on we'll do our best to maintain a schedule of about 1 to 2 eps a week, but we'll have to play it by ear obviously based on our schedules. Get ready for super random flail, people, because I rewatched a few s1 episodes the other night in preparation (y'know, to get in the mood, heh), and had forgotten the type of shit that gets me goin' when it comes to XF. "Mulder's hands are so pretty!" "Lulz, early '90s ATMs, haha!" "WTF IS UP WITH THOSE TIGHTS, NOOOOO SCULLY." "Oh, Mulder, YOU JUST GOT SERVED BY THE MUTHAFUCKIN' EYEBROW, WHAT UP!" And so on. Hee. So uh yeah, just brace yourselves now.

6. Speaking of TV flail, I feel so bad that I never finished my Dollhouse or BSG season 4.5 recapping during the tv hiatus like I'd planned. In my defense though, my real life sort of blew up in my face as you guys know all too well, so I'm kind of just glad I managed to stay even remotely in one piece during all of it. Still, I definitely plan to get back to the BSG recapping eventually (that's a for sure thing), so I wanted to make that clear. I'm not sure if I will end up recapping the last few eps of Dollhouse though. That one we'll just have to see about. But if you guys care about me finishing up the Dollhouse stuff, let me know and I'll make sure I get back to it too. Otherwise I'll just put it on a "maybe" list & get to it if I feel like it & have time later on. Most likely the BSG recaps will just come periodically over the next few months, in between the XF rewatch posts & Bones posts and so on. And if no one cares that's cool too, hee. But I still care, so I'm going to get back to them regardless. I just felt like giving a status update about it because I'm nerdy like that. And for those who might care, trust that the next BSG recap will totes be picspammy because it'll be for "Blood on the Scales." Which is partly why I feel so guilty for having gone so long not getting to it. Because seriously, WTF has caused me to wait so long to picspam the fuckin' "I AM COMING FOR ALL OF YOU" scene?! WHO AM I?

7. Remember my recent money-savin' mojo? Happy to say it's still in effect. I got my imitrex refilled last night & managed to convince them to match Costco's price again, even though I found out they're only supposed to do that if the pharmacy is within 5 miles (which they're not). That saved me over $150. Yeah, baby! *high-fives universe*

8. Except the universe unfortunately gets followed up with a *bitchslap* after its high-five, because my sister and I haven't talked since Sunday, which is just pissing me the hell off. I TOLD HER months ago I didn't want to talk to her about her problems with him anymore, and she said she was okay with that. Why is she all of a sudden not accepting it now and making me the bad guy for it? This is really not something I need to be dealing with right now at all.

9. ( In other news, I did return to work on Monday and talked to my boss. )

10. ( Lastly, I thought I'd let you guys know how the Topamax is working so far. )

For my Vid of the Day today, I figured I'd run with the "I'm on a ship boat, bitch!" theme I set above and post this vid by alltimemcfly. *Oh Trekkies, ILU.* (P.S. For the record, this vid is also what made me think of the Gilligan's Island idea, hee. It came to mind for me when I was on the hunt to see if someone had done a BSG vid for T-Payne's "I'm on a Boat," which I'm shocked & appalled to find has not been made yet either. What the hell, yo!)