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rachg82Sorry to slack on my XF rewatch duties, guys, but the post for "Deep Throat" is gonna have to wait another day or two (in my defense, I think the length of my post for the pilot more than makes up for any delay on the second post, y/y?). For tonight, I have some real-life stuff I felt like talking about instead:
1. I need your guys' help on something. I need to start forcing myself to bed at a more decent hour on worknights (i.e. Sunday - Thursday). Preferably before midnight. So if you notice me posting an entry or leaving you a comment at, say, 12:30? Write me back and tell me to get my bitch-ass into bed, okay? You'll be doing me a solid. 'Preciate cha.
2. It's a good thing my colleagues are so entertaining, because work the last few days has been so effing boring with all our customers out on holiday. Here was my favorite conversation from today, just because it cracked me up:
Coworker 1: 'Bout to call another fabulous customer!
Coworker 2: You are no longer allowed to use the word "fabulous" today. You've already used it too much.
Coworker 1: What else can I say then?
Me: How about stupendous?
Coworker 2: That's a good one. But I'm going with ~sensational.~
Me: Ooh, yes.
Coworker 1: Okay, I'll use that instead.
Coworker 2: And every time you say "fabulous" you have to put a penny in a jar.
Me: And just think, it's the perfect word for you! Wanna know why?
Coworker 1: Why?
Me: You'd better prepare yourself for this one: BECAUSE YOU'RE AN ~ASIAN SENSATION.~
Everyone: *laughing*
Me: *does rimshot*
Coworker 2: DUDE, YES. AWESOME. PRINT IT & HANG IT ALL OVER YOUR CUBICLE RIGHT NOW.
Just another typical day at the office, folks. Haha. I don't know how I get any work done, seriously.
3. I voluntarily ate a veggie burger today for the first time in my life. I kept seeing people order them at the cafeteria at my work forever and finally decided to give one a try. It actually wasn't bad. Then for dinner I grabbed some teriyaki chicken, which--as per usual--came with rice & veggies. Which I actually ate. Yesterday I had lean cuisines for lunch & dinner. It's like I'm trying to be a healthy person or something. WTF.
On a related note, my weight tonight? 146. Back in November? 168. Yeah, boyeeeeeee.
P.S. I have the feeling though that on this medication I'm gonna have to force myself to not go too far with the gung-ho-ness on losing weight, especially considering my appetite had already been a little wonky before this, because now? It's straight-up barely existent. I forgot--fucking FORGOT--to eat dinner the other night. I used to make fun of people who said they could forget to eat. I thought it was a joke. Apparently not. I didn't realize I'd forgotten until the next morning when I woke up all lightheaded (but still without a rumbly stomach), going "What's wrong with me? Oh yeah!" Dude. So yeah, keeping a close eye on it, because I have to make sure I, y'know, EAT. It's kinda important. But at least when I am eating, it's getting healthier! For the most part anyway. That's a good thing. (don't worry though, I'm not becoming some annoying health nut. I still need my burritos with extra sour cream & cheese, thank you very much. I ain't giving those up until you pry them from my cold, dead hands.)
4. Three more days until Bones' 100th episode. Holy shit I'm nervous & excited. Just a reminder though, please, PLEASE, do not spoil me if you know what's going down.
5. I'm still working on that Roslin picspam, but it's probably gonna be a while before it's finished now. WTF was I thinking piling on all this fannish shit at the same time? Did I forget that I never half-ass anything?
6. I still need to do my taxes. Motherfrakker. WHY MUST I PROCRASTINATE EVERYTHING.
7. (the last couple times got cancelled due to migraines. Stupid fail cranium). I actually had a migraine by the time I left work today too (it's finally mostly gone now), but I was not about to miss a third appointment in a row & dragged myself there anyway. I'm glad I did, because I needed it. It was funny because about five minutes in (after talking basically non-stop at her from the moment I sat down) I was like, "I hope you don't mind me just rapid-fire venting at you," and she was like, "No, please, get it out! You need to!" Ha. I was just like, *WHOOSH*.
She had more things to say this time, which I liked, and had some good advice about my sister & dad, which I appreciated. I did start crying at one point, when I started talking about my nephew, because I get really upset when I think about him growing up in a violent/chaotic household like I had to, and I feel sad that I missed dyeing easter eggs with him this year because my sister and I haven't been talking (he and I have a tradition of doing that together, same with carving pumpkins at halloween), but it felt good to get it out, and she backed me up that I was doing the right thing not only for me, but for her as well. There may have been a foofy metaphor in there about an Emperor Moth coming out of its cocoon, but I won't subject you to that one, because it's a bit much. Heh. But she also had some good advice about how to be firm about my boundaries without feeling angry at her, which I had wanted help with, so that was nice. And we talked about me working on being less harsh on myself, and giving myself credit for everything I'm doing right now, which I also needed after feeling so shitty about missing work, etc. And she called me "amazing", which, y'know, made my head all big. Ha. But seriously, I left feeling more centered & sure of myself, and I know I still have things to work on, but I'm really glad I'm doing this again because I think it's important to moving forward with my life.
Also, I have to say it was such a trip because last time I saw her was at her downtown office, and this time I saw her at her Beaverton office, which is where I used to see her husband (who btw called randomly while I was there, and I was all, "tell him I said hi!" Ha. I kind of wanted to be like, "thanks for pretty much saving my life, dude!"). I hadn't been there in seven years, yo. Talk about a trip down memory lane. It was really kind of, well, I don't want to say powerful because that'd just be cheesy, but it was. I get really down on myself sometimes for how much I feel like I haven't done in my life, but going back there? Just reminds me I'm lucky to even be here. I came really close to not being here. I really doubted some days that I'd make it this far to begin with, let alone make it as far as I have emotionally. I should be damn proud of myself. And while I'm being all maudlin, I feel I have to add that a lot of that is due to some of you. It's no coincidence to me that I made it through the shitfest years of 2002-2004 in one piece and that I'm holding myself together again so well now either. LJ has been such an important source of strength & happiness for me over the years, I can't even say. And I don't mean to get all "GROUP HUG, YOU GUYS!" here, but it's true.
And that's enough rambling for today I think, because I need to follow through on my "get your bitch-ass to bed before midnight" resolution.
For my Vid of the Day, I'm feelin' the "My So-Called Life" love today. Okay, so I'm always feeling the love for that show, and will never stop, but today I feel like posting a vid for it. Let's revisit the wisdom of Angela Chase, y'all:
1. I need your guys' help on something. I need to start forcing myself to bed at a more decent hour on worknights (i.e. Sunday - Thursday). Preferably before midnight. So if you notice me posting an entry or leaving you a comment at, say, 12:30? Write me back and tell me to get my bitch-ass into bed, okay? You'll be doing me a solid. 'Preciate cha.
2. It's a good thing my colleagues are so entertaining, because work the last few days has been so effing boring with all our customers out on holiday. Here was my favorite conversation from today, just because it cracked me up:
Coworker 1: 'Bout to call another fabulous customer!
Coworker 2: You are no longer allowed to use the word "fabulous" today. You've already used it too much.
Coworker 1: What else can I say then?
Me: How about stupendous?
Coworker 2: That's a good one. But I'm going with ~sensational.~
Me: Ooh, yes.
Coworker 1: Okay, I'll use that instead.
Coworker 2: And every time you say "fabulous" you have to put a penny in a jar.
Me: And just think, it's the perfect word for you! Wanna know why?
Coworker 1: Why?
Me: You'd better prepare yourself for this one: BECAUSE YOU'RE AN ~ASIAN SENSATION.~
Everyone: *laughing*
Me: *does rimshot*
Coworker 2: DUDE, YES. AWESOME. PRINT IT & HANG IT ALL OVER YOUR CUBICLE RIGHT NOW.
Just another typical day at the office, folks. Haha. I don't know how I get any work done, seriously.
3. I voluntarily ate a veggie burger today for the first time in my life. I kept seeing people order them at the cafeteria at my work forever and finally decided to give one a try. It actually wasn't bad. Then for dinner I grabbed some teriyaki chicken, which--as per usual--came with rice & veggies. Which I actually ate. Yesterday I had lean cuisines for lunch & dinner. It's like I'm trying to be a healthy person or something. WTF.
On a related note, my weight tonight? 146. Back in November? 168. Yeah, boyeeeeeee.
P.S. I have the feeling though that on this medication I'm gonna have to force myself to not go too far with the gung-ho-ness on losing weight, especially considering my appetite had already been a little wonky before this, because now? It's straight-up barely existent. I forgot--fucking FORGOT--to eat dinner the other night. I used to make fun of people who said they could forget to eat. I thought it was a joke. Apparently not. I didn't realize I'd forgotten until the next morning when I woke up all lightheaded (but still without a rumbly stomach), going "What's wrong with me? Oh yeah!" Dude. So yeah, keeping a close eye on it, because I have to make sure I, y'know, EAT. It's kinda important. But at least when I am eating, it's getting healthier! For the most part anyway. That's a good thing. (don't worry though, I'm not becoming some annoying health nut. I still need my burritos with extra sour cream & cheese, thank you very much. I ain't giving those up until you pry them from my cold, dead hands.)
4. Three more days until Bones' 100th episode. Holy shit I'm nervous & excited. Just a reminder though, please, PLEASE, do not spoil me if you know what's going down.
5. I'm still working on that Roslin picspam, but it's probably gonna be a while before it's finished now. WTF was I thinking piling on all this fannish shit at the same time? Did I forget that I never half-ass anything?
6. I still need to do my taxes. Motherfrakker. WHY MUST I PROCRASTINATE EVERYTHING.
7. (the last couple times got cancelled due to migraines. Stupid fail cranium). I actually had a migraine by the time I left work today too (it's finally mostly gone now), but I was not about to miss a third appointment in a row & dragged myself there anyway. I'm glad I did, because I needed it. It was funny because about five minutes in (after talking basically non-stop at her from the moment I sat down) I was like, "I hope you don't mind me just rapid-fire venting at you," and she was like, "No, please, get it out! You need to!" Ha. I was just like, *WHOOSH*.
She had more things to say this time, which I liked, and had some good advice about my sister & dad, which I appreciated. I did start crying at one point, when I started talking about my nephew, because I get really upset when I think about him growing up in a violent/chaotic household like I had to, and I feel sad that I missed dyeing easter eggs with him this year because my sister and I haven't been talking (he and I have a tradition of doing that together, same with carving pumpkins at halloween), but it felt good to get it out, and she backed me up that I was doing the right thing not only for me, but for her as well. There may have been a foofy metaphor in there about an Emperor Moth coming out of its cocoon, but I won't subject you to that one, because it's a bit much. Heh. But she also had some good advice about how to be firm about my boundaries without feeling angry at her, which I had wanted help with, so that was nice. And we talked about me working on being less harsh on myself, and giving myself credit for everything I'm doing right now, which I also needed after feeling so shitty about missing work, etc. And she called me "amazing", which, y'know, made my head all big. Ha. But seriously, I left feeling more centered & sure of myself, and I know I still have things to work on, but I'm really glad I'm doing this again because I think it's important to moving forward with my life.
Also, I have to say it was such a trip because last time I saw her was at her downtown office, and this time I saw her at her Beaverton office, which is where I used to see her husband (who btw called randomly while I was there, and I was all, "tell him I said hi!" Ha. I kind of wanted to be like, "thanks for pretty much saving my life, dude!"). I hadn't been there in seven years, yo. Talk about a trip down memory lane. It was really kind of, well, I don't want to say powerful because that'd just be cheesy, but it was. I get really down on myself sometimes for how much I feel like I haven't done in my life, but going back there? Just reminds me I'm lucky to even be here. I came really close to not being here. I really doubted some days that I'd make it this far to begin with, let alone make it as far as I have emotionally. I should be damn proud of myself. And while I'm being all maudlin, I feel I have to add that a lot of that is due to some of you. It's no coincidence to me that I made it through the shitfest years of 2002-2004 in one piece and that I'm holding myself together again so well now either. LJ has been such an important source of strength & happiness for me over the years, I can't even say. And I don't mean to get all "GROUP HUG, YOU GUYS!" here, but it's true.
And that's enough rambling for today I think, because I need to follow through on my "get your bitch-ass to bed before midnight" resolution.
For my Vid of the Day, I'm feelin' the "My So-Called Life" love today. Okay, so I'm always feeling the love for that show, and will never stop, but today I feel like posting a vid for it. Let's revisit the wisdom of Angela Chase, y'all:
