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1. The use of this icon is mostly random (there's always a logic to everything I do, but explaining it can sometimes be like following Alice down the rabbit-hole), yet it is really, REALLY making me want to rewatch "Redux II." Oh, Moose & Squirrel. JUST LOOK AT YOU TWO.

2. I have new fwends (misspelled on purpose, mmkay). Welcome! Enjoy my crazy; there's plenty to go around. A quick look through my tags will show you that real fast. (Who else makes picspams like this and debates shipper pairings like this? I. . .have issues, haha.)

3. I was considering once again just going off the Topamax for my migraines because one of its side effects is suppressing the appetite--and hi, like I need the added assistance right now--but then I got a bunch of extra gnarly worse-than-usual/all-day migraines in response to lowering the dose and was like, "uhh, yeahhhhh. HOW ABOUT NOT." Now I'm adjusting to raising the dose back up all over again and keep typing the wrong words by mistake. WTF, brain. Just because you're taking anti-epilepsy medication despite not having epilepsy. Stop acting like that's ~weird~. Big baby.

4. I re-named my journal, just for those of you who haven't noticed yet. "We don't need no hateration in this dancery." Hee. I figured I quote it enough, what the Hell. Hearts forever to anyone who knows what song it's from.

5. huh920, you asked me to give you a reminder to talk to me about Bones in my next entry, so here you go, m'lady. (and ooooh, "m'lady." Don't you feel special?) LET'S GET CRACKA-LACKIN'. Or however that's spelled.<--*is simply a cracka' that's lackin'*

6. I didn't end up getting my BSG rewatch on this weekend (worked on my Bones fic instead), but this video is giving me an incredible craving for it now. I have too many shows in my life, seriously. But for real, THIS. This is why they won my Shipper Showdown, yo. "I like it so much I don't want it to be over. . ." Ahhh. Don't they know I can't take it when they bring up the books? (he carries her baaaaag, for the love of--THEY'RE SO SWEET. *passes out*)

7. It's been decided I should only leave the house when adorned (ooh la la, it's all the rage right now in Milan) by a padded sumo outfit, seeing as I almost got hit by a car again today. I say "again" because it's not exactly a rare occurrence in my life, you see. I'm a bit absent-minded professor-y & could probably benefit from a companion dog to be like, "WOOF, BITCH. STOP AT THE INTERSECTION. THAT THERE IS A SEMI TRUCK." This time my near-death experience involved a kind samaritan honking just in time for me to look up & see a car coming at me in the middle of the crosswalk. Good times. Except not really. It's a good thing random strangers apparently watch me as I walk, even though drivers who are about to plow into me can't manage it. As one friend on facebook observed, thank God I don't have a cellphone. Also? Thank God I don't drive.

P.S. We also decided (still on facebook, obv) that the sumo-suits should be passed around so that a YouTube flashmob can ensue. Y'know, as one does.

8. Re: my mood icon, my stomach hurts. I'm not a fan. The whole reason I was out almost getting killed was because I was attempting to buy myself lunch--THANKS A LOT, LIFE. For what it's worth though, I did accomplish my goal & eat it (right after I figuratively nearly "ate it." *rimshot* Get it? Ahaha. . .ha. Er). I even got a cookie. Whoo, doggie. The cookie might've been what backfired though, I'm not sure. I just know I've had acid reflux all night, so I ended up skipping dinner. All that & still one meal for the day. Oy. At least I tried though, right? I think taking more walks again (or going for longer walks when I get food/go shopping, either way) will help too as it will give the anxiety a chance to calm down if I get panicky. I'm beginning to treat the whole situation--going out, going shopping, eating, all of it--as exposures, because it helps to look at it methodically like that for me, and I know it's easier to make progress with longer-lasting exposures than it is quick & intense ones.

9. I'm supposed to see my counselor tomorrow (technically, I was supposed to last week, but cancelled), and I don't want to. I know I need to, but really? I just want to put my emotions into a little box & send them away somewhere. I want to wake up with everything brand new & shiny & not have to talk about how bad I've let everything get. I'm walking such a fine line right now between "Everything's fine! No, really! I'm gonna fix all of this-- don't worry about me" and "Everything is really, really not fine. I think I might need help, but I'm not gonna ask for it." I just don't know anymore. Like I was trying to say the other day, I just feel so tired & inept. All I can do is keep going, keep trying.

10. I've been going crrrrazy (facetiously so) for Talib Kweli, Hi-Tek, and Mos Def the last few days. Long, Hot Summer, In the Red, Let it Go (I love unapologetically non-romantic break-up songs like this, haha. Reminds me of I'm Leaving You Because I Don't Love You by Jens Lekman), Just Begun, and Umi Says have all been playing on a pretty much non-stop 24/7 loop. I've loved them for years, don't get me wrong, but nghhh, nothing like rediscovering that love & coming across new songs at the same time.

Which is why my Vid of the Day today will also come to you by Mos Def. This song & video is deeply moving to me (much like "Umi Says"), not just on a historical/civil rights level, but personally as well. "Don't give up; don't give in." 'Nuff said.

All right, my lovely flist, the Shipper Showdown is officially over and your votes have been counted. May I have a drumroll please?



A huge thank you to everyone who participated, whether it was just to vote (even those of you who voted for more than one pairing, thus totally making your votes moot. Ha) or leave a comment, and a GIANT shout-out to those of you who hung out all day campaigning and making this showdown a complete blast for me. Three of you in particular--sumpta, crystalcazzie, and softly_me--pwned the shit out of this thing by taking my request for spam to a WHOLE 'nother level. Haha. Seriously, you guys kick epic amounts of ass and are legit my homegirls now.

Also, just for the record, the following new developments have sprung from today's shippery shenanigans:

-I will be checking out Farscape in the near future (this is thanks to you, careyleah)

-I will also be checking out NCIS (crystalcazzie, that one's all you)

-It's possible I may have added Buffy/Xander to my list of never-ending ships for Buffy (damn yoooooou, softly_me! Like I needed another ship!)

-Adama & Roslin took over the throne of #1 ship for me about midway through the campaign, thanks to sumpta and her mighty arsenal of thread bombs, .gifs, vids, references to nekkid sexytimes, and cruelly adorable pics & quotes (she quoted him reading to her at me! How was I supposed to resist THAT?). I still maintain that Mulder & Scully are my favorite old-school ship, and will always be #1 in my heart in many ways, but she held me down until I cried uncle and admitted that Adama/Roslin are the most perfect ship in my eyes. Which they are. But I feel like I need to go hug my X-Files DVDs and apologize to them or something. Haha. I HAVE ISSUES. (but hey, at least I got in a good deal of campaigning for Moose & Squirrel before then! Which either makes me a bigger traitor, or less of a traitor. I'm not sure. Heh)

Anyway, that's about it for tonight, because I've seriously been at this computer almost non-stop since 8 o'clock this morning. Aside from doing some laundry & making dinner, I really haven't moved much. If my neck had a hand, it'd probably be flipping me the bird right about now. Just sayin'.

(oh, and speaking of my total lack of productiveness today. . .that goal for finishing the epic Roslin picspam I mentioned by Tuesday? Yeah, I doubt that's gonna happen. Heh. But for sure I imagine I can have it done sometime this week. I figure the week of the anniversary still counts, right?)

Finally, before I go I will leave you all with a two-for-one-special Vid of the Day to celebrate our fine winners. These (along with a few others you can bet your asses I'll be reccing in the near future) were both posted by Ms. Thang up there in her comments today, and are too good not to pass along.

Vid #1: This one's by gglagazelle (or claraon, depending on whether you go by the name in the vid or the youtube name), and is just about one of the cutest, crackiest things I've ever seen. It's also the reason why I haven't been able to get "Bare Necessities" out of my head all day. Thanks for that. (psst, treeofstars, I know you in particular will love this one).



Vid #2: This one is by pennyfeline and straight-up moved me to tears, no lie. Between the perfect song and the "I'm right here" from Roslin and the "I like it so much I don't want it to be over" quote from Adama at the end as they're walking off? GAH. I may tear up all over again, for real. So, yeah, it's a wonderful vid to end this day on, and I hope you all enjoy. :-)

All you BSG fangirls on my flist know the importance of today's date (*passes out tissues*). But before I get to that, I've got a few other quick random things I feel like saying first:

1. Today was such a gorgeous day outside. I took a couple nice walks and thoroughly enjoyed myself. 66 degrees with a light breeze, can't get mad at that.

2. I had to go shopping again last night because my work is having some convention thing I'm required to attend next week, and apparently I must wear khakis. Or some other kind of pants that aren't jeans but still look good with a polo Xerox shirt. So. . .khakis. Heh. Anyway, point is I went to the store and while I was there I also got myself a new shirt. And guess what? While I'm still a medium or large most places, in this one case I perfectly fit a small. And I know I've been talking about the weight thing a lot lately, which I'm sure is interesting only to me, but I'm sorry. I can't help it. When I put that shirt on and it fit, I wanted to go grab a loudspeaker and announce it to the whole store. Heh. This is pretty much what I looked like:



(see, hjddabong, I told you I was gonna swipe that .gif. Hee.)

3. I exposed my inner fangirl at work twice yesterday, because apparently I have no sense to be ashamed of what an utter, utter dork I am. First it was when my Work Mommy forwarded to the team an example of a print one of her customers sent her, which was advertising a concert by Philip Glass, and I was like, "hey, I know him! He composed for 'The Hours', AND one of his songs was used in Battlestar Galatica, a.k.a. THE BEST SHOW EVAH." And she was just like, ". . .'kay." Ha. Then one of my other coworkers and I were talking about the trivia thing she goes to once a week, and I mentioned that it's too bad they don't have trivia nights there for things I know a lot about, and was like "Cause if they had a history or geography night? Or, hey, a tv night? And were all 'what is Agent Scully's birthday'? I'd be like, BAM, all over that shit." And she was like, "Please tell me you didn't just say that." And I was like, "OH YES I DID." Haha. FEBRUARY 23RD, 1964, BITCHEEZZZZZ. REPRESENT.

4. I seem to be working some kind of crazy mojo lately, because I keep getting free stuff everywhere. First it was back on my birthday when that lady gave me my imitrex $90 off. Then there was that free cab ride the other day. Then there's the people at Taco Del Mar who randomly give me two punches on my punch card when they're not supposed to, or don't charge me if I get a cookie with my burrito. And on top of that, the last two times I've been to Subway? They haven't charged me for getting extra cheese, which happened most recently last night. And then today I went to pick up some pictures, and the lady had messed up & done doubles by mistake as well as lost the envelope my film came in (so she didn't know I'd requested a CD as well), and then I ended up not only getting the second set of pictures free but also the CD because I had to wait ten minutes for her to make it. And need I mention the previous two times I went there they forgot to include a CD then too, so I get it free those times also? Can I just say that I'm really hoping this streak doesn't end anytime soon? Free stuff = win, man.

5. Remember how I told you guys my sister's place is haunted like a mofo? Well, the saga continues. Today she called me all freaked out, saying last night she was sitting in the bathroom after everyone else went to sleep, when she heard someone loudly running down the hallway. She assumed it was my nephew, and even yelled for him to go back to bed & be quiet, but then she didn't hear anything in response so she opened the bathroom door and--surprise, surprise--no one was there. She went in her room to see if Jayden had gone in there (since he sometimes does), but it was just my brother in law, sound asleep. She then went in my nephew's room, and he was out cold as well. Because I'm the comforting sister that I am, here's what I had to say in response:

Me: Well, try not to be too afraid. They're just people. . .y'know, except they're dead.
Corinne: Great, excellent.
Me: Just, if the walls start bleeding? You might want to move.
Corinne: Yeah, I'm thinking that'd be a good idea.
Me: Or if the house is like, "GET OUT."[/Amityville Horror voice]
Corinne: *laughs* But seriously, it seems to be getting worse! Why?
Me: Maybe they're getting more comfortable with you. They got over their shyness.
Corinne: Yeah, we're bonding.
Me: Hey, you know what you could do? Just leave a plate of cookies out for them with a little note that says, "Hey, what up, ghosts. Help yourselves, let's be buddies. Please don't kill me."
Corinne: Thanks for the advice.
Me: No problem.

6. I really wish I knew how to make fanvids sometimes. But you need something on your computer that can play DVDs to do that, right? Le sigh. I was listening to Biggie last night and randomly was like, "omg, how great & cracky would a BSG vid to 'Notorious Thugs' be?" BECAUSE YOU KNOW IT WOULD BE. And now I need this in my life, like, yesterday. So if one of you vidders on my flist feels like taking that idea & running with it? Please feel free. I need some Notorious B.I.G. viper action, stat. (Plus, when they rap about smoking weed? HELLO, Roslin & Adama! Haha)

7. Last call for the Shipper Showdown tomorrow, y'all. I think it'll be a fairly small size group that participates, which is okay, but everyone's welcome to pop in if they have a few minutes free. Or just vote in the poll, either way. But I'm hoping for at least some fun trash-talking and shipper crazyness, so if you do have time to join in? Bring on your biggest capslock & craziest flail, because the more the merrier.

8. And finally, as I noted above, today is the one-year anniversary of a very important day in tv history:



*Sniff*. That picture still kills me. ( Cut for BSG spoilers up to the finale )

All right peoples, I figured it was about time I got this ball rollin'. I'm planning my Shipper Showdown for this weekend, and I need your feedback so we can add to the epicness.

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