And when you wake up, ready to say, I think I'll make a snappy new day

*nods at subject heading and current music* I totally have Mr. Rogers looping in my head right now. I don't feel like having a very snappy new day though. Heh. I feel like tearing my ears out. Stop hurting, youse! And then I'm left deaf, all "that'll learn 'em." Stupid ears. And stupid sinuses too. And stupid voice, because it's all raspy and going out on me, and the phone keeps ringing, and I'm like "stop calling, people, I can't even talk! Ugh!"

So, yes, I'm sick again. Yes, AGAIN. I feel like I've been constantly battling colds and these same infections for months now. Like, the infections have never totally gone away, and yet they'll ease up a little in between the colds, so I'll still not feel great, but I don't even get the chance to see if I could get better because I keep catching viruses which just flare up the infections more again. Over and over. This has got to be the third major bout I've had with the whole thing in the last two months. ANNOYING. Not only do I need more antibiotics, and better ones, and then need to stay on them longer than the ten days I took Corinne's for last time, but I also need to see a dentist. Because I think part of this overall deathpain in my face is coming from my teeth. Like, my sinuses hurt, and my ears hurt, but I'm not sure how much of the ear pain is just from the ears (like maybe an infection there, at least mildly), or the sinuses, or actually the teeth. Because it hurts down into my teeth and jaw, where the wisdom teeth should be. And like it hurts bad there in between the jaw/teeth and ears, but it hasn't been the same every day, and it seems like it gets worse with the colds/infections. So then I think of how my sister and Dad were told that since huge sinus cavities seem to run in the family that pain and congestion up there can press on nerves below and cause teeth pain. My sister kept having really bad tooth aches and then discovered it wasn't even the teeth causing it, but her sinuses. So then I just don't even know. But I haven't had my teeth checked in YEARS, so I should find a way to see someone anyway. I just don't have a clue how much it would cost out of pocket, and I'm scared I'll need work done in some way, and won't be able to afford it. Ugh. Or even what if I go and spend money and they tell me my teeth are fine and the pain really is my sinuses. Then I have to spend even more money, going to a normal doctor! But I guess at least then I'd know. Plus, I need to see a real doctor again anyway, because regardless of the ears and teeth, I have green crap coming out of my nose, and it hurts again below my eyes and over my cheeks, and between my eyes and over my eyes. And please, someone just kill me. Over the counter stuff is just not cutting it here. I need some heroin.

( I don't have long to write here this morning, but I feel like updating a little )