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For anyone who's ever wondered, this is what it would look like if I were to get a job writing Hollywood love stories:
Oh, Facebook.
Speaking of love stories, I've got about 6,800 words done on my fic. Yeah, boyeeee. Two more sections to go (I think) and then I should be done. I know I keep saying that (heh), but this time I mean it.
Probably.
Damn't brain, stop thinking of words.
Either way, it's getting completed before Thursday, so help me God.
Changing subjects, I wanted to thank everyone for their input & comments lately. It's helpful. It's the right thing to go back to ignoring my mom's emails. I do wish I didn't still feel so nervous about her coming over though. Every time a car door closes outside, I tense up. Otherwise though, I feel fairly calm about how I'm handling my life right now. That's good at least.
Then again, who knows if that's 100% true. Ha. Maybe I'm not ~feeling my feelings~ and I'll find out I'm not really calm, and two days from now I'll burst open like a dam, all "I AM STRESSED!" We'll see. I'm not doing a perfect job keeping up with my resolutions, my place isn't eat-off-the-floors-clean, I still have my damn fake Christmas Tree up (hoardersapprenticeFAIL), bla bla bla, but HEY. I'm eating twice a day more often than not, and I'm *trying*. That has to count for something. I just want to find a middle ground between perfectionism & utterly giving up. I will keep acknowledging where I'm succeeding & where I'm falling short & adjust accordingly, working my way up towards my goals. Some take higher priority than others, like eating & job-searching for instance. If I haven't taken a walk yet, it's not the end of the world. I went out & did social things instead. THAT'S OKAY. It's all right to be spontaneous & flexible if it's for something positive, right?
In the meantime, I'll leave you all with three--count them THREE--Vids of the Day. Don't you feel lucky!
( Three songs to make your night better )
Oh, Facebook.
Speaking of love stories, I've got about 6,800 words done on my fic. Yeah, boyeeee. Two more sections to go (I think) and then I should be done. I know I keep saying that (heh), but this time I mean it.
Probably.
Damn't brain, stop thinking of words.
Either way, it's getting completed before Thursday, so help me God.
Changing subjects, I wanted to thank everyone for their input & comments lately. It's helpful. It's the right thing to go back to ignoring my mom's emails. I do wish I didn't still feel so nervous about her coming over though. Every time a car door closes outside, I tense up. Otherwise though, I feel fairly calm about how I'm handling my life right now. That's good at least.
Then again, who knows if that's 100% true. Ha. Maybe I'm not ~feeling my feelings~ and I'll find out I'm not really calm, and two days from now I'll burst open like a dam, all "I AM STRESSED!" We'll see. I'm not doing a perfect job keeping up with my resolutions, my place isn't eat-off-the-floors-clean, I still have my damn fake Christmas Tree up (hoardersapprenticeFAIL), bla bla bla, but HEY. I'm eating twice a day more often than not, and I'm *trying*. That has to count for something. I just want to find a middle ground between perfectionism & utterly giving up. I will keep acknowledging where I'm succeeding & where I'm falling short & adjust accordingly, working my way up towards my goals. Some take higher priority than others, like eating & job-searching for instance. If I haven't taken a walk yet, it's not the end of the world. I went out & did social things instead. THAT'S OKAY. It's all right to be spontaneous & flexible if it's for something positive, right?
In the meantime, I'll leave you all with three--count them THREE--Vids of the Day. Don't you feel lucky!
( Three songs to make your night better )
