All right, Dosidella, you win!
Sep. 12th, 2002 12:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rachg82Hmm, so, I've never done this whole LJ thing before, but Dosidella signed me up for it tonight, so that I'd be able to read other people's journals, and respond to them. I'm not sure if I'll end up writing in it very frequently, but eh, who knows. My long-windedness knows no bounds! I could always use more places to ramble. Heh, watch as this becomes some massive novel.
Since Dosi is the one who set this account up for me, don't be surprised if she takes over my LJ some day. She did today, after all. I opened up my account, to find a lovely story about dog fucking. Thanks, dosi! Heh. I threatened to kill her, so she took it off.
So, the last few days have been a bit crummy. Got banned at TWoP (not for actually doing anything at their boards mind you, or even planning on doing anything there, yeah long story), which really sucked. On a positive note though, lots of people have been really supportive and kind to me since yesterday (when it happenned). Emailing and IM'ing me, just to see how I'm doing. I really appreciate it.
Moving on to more important matters though (in the sense of being greater than myself), today (well, technically "today" is over now, but still) was September 11th. Very strange. I mean, I can't believe an entire year has passed. That's just totally crazy. God. And, dude, what a year. Or, for that matter, what a couple of years. Sometimes, it seems like forever since I graduated High School. Other days, it seems like it was yesterday. But, anyway. I watched the TV coverage off and on throughout the day, even though I knew it would make me sad. I guess I just feel like I owe that to the people who have lost loved ones. I want to show my respects, and not forget. Not just for the mourners who are left behind, but for those who lost their lives. I don't know them, but I mourn for them. And it's not that I've forgotten otherwise, not for one second, but on the anniversary, you remember just a little bit more, y'know?
I can't even imagine what those people must feel like. After a year, I still can't wrap my brain around how they must've felt, knowing that someone they loved, was possibly, if not for sure, dead. Not to mention what the people must've felt like, sitting on that plane, as it flew toward the twin towers. I mean, can you imagine? Sitting there, seeing the city buildings, knowing you are probably about to die. It's impossible. You can't. And the people, who were so desperate, that they actually jumped out of windows. I still can't get that image out of my mind. What thoughts must've been going through their mind. Thinking of their loved ones, of missed opportunities, of what was about to come. "Tragic" really isn't even a sad and horrible enough word for it. All I can do, is pray for peace for those people, and for the people who they have left behind. It may seem cliche, but I wish it for them so much. Tonight, I saw them showing some of the wreckage from the remains of the WTC, and in them there were things like shoe soles, and messenger bikes from the street. Those people got up that morning, like I did today, and then bam! Gone in an instant.
I don't know, I guess I'm rambling, but once I start thinking about these things, I imagine myself in their shoes. Being trapped in the building, thinking you will be rescued, just to have the floors above you, collapse. God. And the fact that so many of them left children and families behind. It's just so horrible.
Well, so much for the short entry, huh? Heh, the only thing that's "short" about me, is my height. Okay, I'd like to say "next entry will be more cheerful!", but with me, you never know. So I'm not making any promises!
Since Dosi is the one who set this account up for me, don't be surprised if she takes over my LJ some day. She did today, after all. I opened up my account, to find a lovely story about dog fucking. Thanks, dosi! Heh. I threatened to kill her, so she took it off.
So, the last few days have been a bit crummy. Got banned at TWoP (not for actually doing anything at their boards mind you, or even planning on doing anything there, yeah long story), which really sucked. On a positive note though, lots of people have been really supportive and kind to me since yesterday (when it happenned). Emailing and IM'ing me, just to see how I'm doing. I really appreciate it.
Moving on to more important matters though (in the sense of being greater than myself), today (well, technically "today" is over now, but still) was September 11th. Very strange. I mean, I can't believe an entire year has passed. That's just totally crazy. God. And, dude, what a year. Or, for that matter, what a couple of years. Sometimes, it seems like forever since I graduated High School. Other days, it seems like it was yesterday. But, anyway. I watched the TV coverage off and on throughout the day, even though I knew it would make me sad. I guess I just feel like I owe that to the people who have lost loved ones. I want to show my respects, and not forget. Not just for the mourners who are left behind, but for those who lost their lives. I don't know them, but I mourn for them. And it's not that I've forgotten otherwise, not for one second, but on the anniversary, you remember just a little bit more, y'know?
I can't even imagine what those people must feel like. After a year, I still can't wrap my brain around how they must've felt, knowing that someone they loved, was possibly, if not for sure, dead. Not to mention what the people must've felt like, sitting on that plane, as it flew toward the twin towers. I mean, can you imagine? Sitting there, seeing the city buildings, knowing you are probably about to die. It's impossible. You can't. And the people, who were so desperate, that they actually jumped out of windows. I still can't get that image out of my mind. What thoughts must've been going through their mind. Thinking of their loved ones, of missed opportunities, of what was about to come. "Tragic" really isn't even a sad and horrible enough word for it. All I can do, is pray for peace for those people, and for the people who they have left behind. It may seem cliche, but I wish it for them so much. Tonight, I saw them showing some of the wreckage from the remains of the WTC, and in them there were things like shoe soles, and messenger bikes from the street. Those people got up that morning, like I did today, and then bam! Gone in an instant.
I don't know, I guess I'm rambling, but once I start thinking about these things, I imagine myself in their shoes. Being trapped in the building, thinking you will be rescued, just to have the floors above you, collapse. God. And the fact that so many of them left children and families behind. It's just so horrible.
Well, so much for the short entry, huh? Heh, the only thing that's "short" about me, is my height. Okay, I'd like to say "next entry will be more cheerful!", but with me, you never know. So I'm not making any promises!
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Date: 2002-09-11 11:59 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2002-09-12 01:18 am (UTC)Remind me to thank Methos for spreading the use of the word "spazz" around the 'net, by the way. Oh, except not. Heh.
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Date: 2002-09-12 02:56 am (UTC)I'm sorry life has been rough for you. It's really unfair that they banned you from TWoP. You've still got us meta people right behind you 100%.
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Date: 2002-09-15 02:56 pm (UTC)Anyway, no real point here, just some condolences for the ban.
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