It's hard to keep up with time once it's on its way

[rachg82]

Do you guys ever get the feeling in life that you keep screwing things up, and you can't stop? I'm kind of feeling that way right now. I missed work again today, and would like to pretend like it's no big deal, but it is. My boss emailed me and said we'd have to meet when I come back tomorrow. I am. . not looking forward to it. I kind of want to go hide somewhere, honestly. I woke up late today, felt headachey and sick from my period, and just could *not* get myself to go in, especially since if I did it would've meant showing up late, which I HATE doing. I'm the kind of irrational person who would sometimes prefer not showing up at all, which I know makes absolutely no sense. If I haven't been late or missed work in a long time, I can handle it, but if I've already been late and/or missed recently AND I don't feel good, it makes it much harder for me. And now I seem to be in this cycle lately where I can't manage to go even a month without missing (and that's being generous) and I would not blame my boss even a little if he fired me. I mean, I'm a great employee when I'm there, which is why I've never been fired from a job in my 28 years of life, but this seems to be a pattern with me at every job I have, and I'm stuck in it again. If it's not the migraines, it's my stomach. And if it's not either of those, it's some random flu bug that I get from my coworkers or whatever. Plus obviously it doesn't help that I've had a ginormous amount of stress from my family lately. Which he knows about, but he doesn't know the details. And I'm worried that even if he has no plans to fire me, he'll want to talk about what's been going on with my family, and I really don't want to. It's just too much, and I'm afraid I'll tear up in front of him or something. I don't even want to talk about what I'm planning on doing about the migraines. I don't want to talk about any of it. I just want to bury my head in the sand and ignore the problems until they go away. Can I please just do that? No? Damn.

Okay, I'm done being emo now. Thanks for listening. (although I will just add that my head? Still hurting right now. And it's pissing me off. Ugh. All right, NOW I'm done whining. For real this time.)


Moving on, I wanted to get your guys' feedback on something. Since the Shipper Showdown was such a blast, I was thinking of planning another type of fandom-related event toward the end of the spring/beginning of summer for my flist, and I wanted to see if it's something you all would enjoy.

Here's the basic idea: You guys submit to me your favorite shows that you think other people should watch over the summer/tv hiatus. We then spend a day with people going buck-wild promoting their shows. Throughout the day, everyone uses a ticky-box poll to select whatever shows they've been convinced to try out because of all the insane fangirly fervor, and at the end of the day we take whatever top 3 shows get the most votes & announce them as the winners. I'm thinking we can call it the ~Fangirl Fest of Conversion~. Or the FFoC for short. Hee. I thought of it because one of the things I loved most about FMM wasn't simply the competing, but also the simple exchange of obsessions. I like sharing my tv-loves with others, and I'm pretty sure a good chunk of you do too (except you, jasminelily, hee. I know how you feel about people trying to convert you to new shows!). Plus my flist encompasses a pretty decent amount of different (and very dedicated) fandoms, and the idea of a free-for-all where everyone gets to celebrate those fandoms sounds like an unbelievable amount of fun. Especially since no one would be required to choose only one show to campaign for, and I imagine lots of new friendships would probably be made. So, what do you guys think? If we do it toward the end of the current tv season--so all you youngins are finished with your schoolwork and everyone has lots o' free time ahead to check out new shows--would you be interested?

Lastly, I got some pictures developed the other day and I thought I'd share them with you guys. There's a couple I took of the Epic Winter Storm we had a while back (read: the few surprise inches of snow we got that one day that caused all of Portland to FALL THE FUCK APART) as well as some of my nephew, niece, and sister (and one crappy one of me too, heh). Oh yeah, and I added captions to them because I'm addicted to doing that now. I have too much time on my hands. Heh.


























For our Vid of the Day, we're gonna steal from sumpta's awesome supply of recommendations from the Shipper Showdown again, because they are cracktasticly wonderful (and because I'm still riding high on the A/R love). This one is by culinarycricket & takes a lol-arious look at one of my favorite scenes from BSG. Enjoy the man!love swagger:

"TLC - What About Your Friends" (Watch on YouTube)

Comments

[keenai.livejournal.com]

I think that's a fantastic idea. Summer is for finding shows to watch. I mean, that is how I found Bones. And Fastlane.

Love the pics and the captions. Isabella, the picture hider. Also, Nai does the no smile thing now. So annoying. It's like they don't want to be cute anymore or something.

I hope the meeting with your boss is less scary than you think.

[sonneta.livejournal.com]

Fangirl Fest of Conversion = YES PLZ.

Awww, cutie Izzie & Jayden.

EEP, I hope your boss is kind.

[lytab5.livejournal.com]

Good luck for the talk with your boss tomorrow! Hope it won't have the worst outcome!

Also, your niece and nephew are really cute! :-)

And as for the "Fangirl Fest of Conversion"... I'm totally in. And hope I'll have enough time for it and to promote THE SHIT OUT OF my shows!
EPIC - I can see feel it.