The war in your head that I did not understand

Before I start this entry I just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone for being so supportive after my last post. It really means a lot to me. I'm just gonna leave this one public though, because after I give an update on how I'm doing, I'm going to do some memes to distract myself. I need some semblance of normalcy and there's nothing more "normal" for me than rambling about television. So.

( Real Life update & thoughts on what I can take from all this )

( A couple TV memes to take my mind off things (involves fangirling for X-Files, Bones, & BSG) )

I get by with a little help from my friends

At the encouragement of bsg_stardust, I thought I'd go back & talk about the few things that got put aside because of all the drama the other day:

-Re: my nephew & niece, I babysat them on Wednesday night (before everything went kablooey), and had a lovely time. Isabella is getting old enough now where I can play with both her & Jayden at the same time, which is great. Jayden had a "tent" in his room (and by "tent" I mean a blanket hanging over the side of his bunk-bed, heh), so we all went inside it with a flashlight & turned the lights off so we could do shadow animals. Izzie loved it, and I got all sentimental because I used to do the same thing with Jayden when he was a toddler. Then we played with the house I got her and with Jayden's old blocks for a while (turns out that building a tower & then knocking it over yelling "timber!" is just as big a hit with her as it was with Jay. Heh. Also, fyi, there aren't many things cuter than an eighteen-month-old giggling & trying to yell "timber"). And after that I helped Jayden with his homework, which was a trip because now he's all this Big Kid Who Has Homework and I still kinda can't get over that. It's like, "weren't you just a baby? WTF."

Also, for the record: When you play music in the car with Isabella, she sits in the back & bobs her head in the funniest way you can imagine. She'll even say something to get your attention, just so you can turn around & see her. She's very proud of her head-bobbing, music-lovin' skillz. Especially when Bob Marley or Sublime is playing.

-Re: the olympics, I really enjoyed the men's figure skating this year. Even though Plushenko is a big Whiny McWhinerson. (Dude, seriously, I love you, but let it go. The quad isn't everything) Takahashi & Lysacek were both outstanding (despite his unfortunate mistakes, I thought Takahashi was particularly gorgeous to watch. He has a wonderful flow & grace about him), and I only wish Weir could've gotten some kind of medal for that corset alone. Love that kid, man.

As for how I'm doing right now: I'm still fighting waves of sadness & anger, but I'm getting by. I haven't heard back from my mom yet, but that's probably because she's just too busy going to all those NA meetings, right?[/sarcasm] Whatever. And in regards to the Motherfucker Formerly Known As My Stepdad, I'm trying not to think about him too much. I know I need to deal with it, but I can only bear thinking about it for so long before it becomes overwhelming to me. I still have until March 9th before my appointment with the counselor, and until then I have to do my best to keep my head above water & continue living life.

I had a really nice day today though, for what it's worth. I took the bus to downtown Portland and met up with 5brokenfingers--whom I hadn't seen since sophomore year of high school--& we grabbed some food & ate & talked at the waterfront. I caught the most fantastic view of both Mount Hood & Mount St. Helens on my way there, and with the Fake!Spring we've been experiencing the weather was great. Little on the breezy side, but considering it's February I'm not gonna complain about that too much since I didn't even need my jacket a good portion of the time. It was just nice to get some fresh air and spend some time with a friend to clear my head & feel like a normal person again. Especially since I don't get to do things with friends nearly enough. It also gave me a chance to drop into Powell's (which--for those of you who've never been to Portland--is basically the best book store ever) and pick up a couple books, both of which I'm excited to read: Lit by Mary Karr (whose previous two memoirs I already read years ago), and Enemies of the People: My Family's Journey To America by Kati Marton, which I've wanted to read since I saw her interviewed on The Colbert Report a few weeks back.

That's it for tonight though as I need to get to bed. For my Vid of the Day, I'm gonna steal longlivelaura's rec because this vid is just too damn good not to pass around. It's by sczep84 (who makes some of the best vids out there, trufax) and gives yet another perfect glimpse into what makes Roslin such a special character for me. (disclaimer for those in Daybreak Denial: it does contain finale clips, so get those denials ready. Hee)

"Nick Cave The Mercy Seat (the best version i've ever heard!)" (Watch on YouTube)