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1. Guess who went to the beach today & had lots o' fun? That would be me. ( Let's talk about it and post pictures & what-not )

2. Changing topics, I'm feeling a little less mojo-y about my new fic, though I think it's mostly just me being picky & critical towards myself & unhappy about not having it done by tomorrow night. I know it makes NO rational difference, but I originally planned to have it done by then, and I definitely don't expect that to happen now, and it's bugging me. Plus I'm getting all overthinky about how it sounds so far, and whether it's okay to let my brain be experiment-y with style like it wants to & how far is too far and if I can successfully combine that with a story-story again like I seemed to last time, and bla bla bla SHUT UP, BRAIN.

Clearly, the issue at hand here is I am raining on my own parade & need to simma don nah. SO.

Dear self,

This fic will get done when it damn well gets done.

Write the thing how you want for frak's sake. Who cares if it sucks. GET A GRIP & HAVE FUN WITH THIS.

Love,
A bossier version of you.

3. I checked out The Gift of Fear from the library yesterday, which I believe had been recommended to me by dosidella a long time ago, and which again was recommended by sonneta just the other day. I still have other books I've actually bought over the last year without finishing (I go in waves with my reading), but I really would like to take a look at this one right now, so I moved it to the top of the priority list.

4. I never heard back from Aimee, but it's okay. At least I tried. Hopefully something will come of it eventually. In the meantime, I'll continue trying to push the momentum forward. Dani invited me to a record release party thingie the night of my birthday next week (I'll have to take a cab home, but I can splurge for a one-time thing like this, even FUNemployed & broke as I am), so at least I won't be sitting by myself, staring into the depths of 29, like "NOOOOOO, WHYYYY."

( cut for requisite birthday-inspired introspection, re: aging )

5. Did you guys know that Hulk Hogan is a rappin' fool? You do now.

(don't look at me for that one. I think you know who to blame)

For my Vid of the Day, I think it's time to get back to our BSG Appreciation Fest. Technically, this is the last of the group I came across, but I've enjoyed getting to focus on one show so heavily like this & may do "appreciation weeks" again from time to time. I reserve the right to do nothing but BSG vids all next week too, if I want. Ha. I probably won't though.

Anyway, today's vid (by rogerthealien359) is all about my good man Saul "It's in the frakkin' ship!" Tigh. And it's set to Johnny Cash. Reason enough for a thumbs up on both counts in my mind.

"Randomness with Rachael" (Watch on YouTube)

We are all buildings and people inside

So, I thought about something this morning. It's not just my birthday next week that's been a big deal as I try to shake off 2010 & start anew. It wasn't just Mom showing up. Or 12/31/10. It's also January 23rd, this Sunday. My stepdad's birthday. Every year: four days before mine. And almost a year since denial ceased being a possibility for me. You know paresthesia? When your hands start going all tingly & numb, and that's when you know you need to chill out, because your brain's freaking over something?

As keenai said in a recent entry of her own, feelings are stupid, but they must be dealt with. ( I've got to try to talk about this as much as I really, really don't want to (P.S. there'll be some bonus/unrelated shit about my self-esteem & issues as an lgbtq female in here, a.k.a. this is going to be--by necessity--long. My brain goes on random tangents, I know). )

For my Vid of the Day, I'd like to actually do something special. I have a handful of vids I'd like to share, each of which relate to my last few entries in some way. To spare my flist's servers, ( I'll put them behind a cut )