Jigga WHA?

[rachg82]

Sooooo, apparently I have a job. Not only that, but it pretty much fell in my lap. No interview even needed. I KNOW. WTF.


Here's how it went down:

Dude from temp agency (same guy that got me my job at Wells Fargo last October): Hey, 'sup? Still need a job?
Me: Uh, yeah?
Dude: Cool, here you go. Starts April 11th.
Me: ...
Dude: Want it?
Me: *beat* Um. Okay? I mean, yes. Yes.
Dude: Great. I'll send you the info.

AND THAT WAS IT. Seriously. I don't know how these things happen to me.

Bad news is: it's $10/hr. At Xerox I made $13. Even the Wells Fargo job brought in $12. I haven't made $10/hr or less in years. I know I can live off it, but it sucks.

Also: There's backup receptionist work involved. Most likely only during lunch hours & such, but UGH. Hate that kind of thing. Haaaaaate. Face to face interactions & people potentially watching me type/do things/etc--it's like a recipe for social anxiety probs. Especially right now as I've been feeling super keyed up & on edge since going off the Topamax. Twitchy & shakey & heart-racey & BLAH. I'm sure it's anxiety--for one, the medication's job was to "quiet down" certain nerve cells in the brain, so it makes sense that adjusting to stopping it would cause weirdness; two, I'm suddenly more affected by hunger, and that's throwing me for a huge loop; and three, I'm worried my headaches will get worse again & that I made the wrong decision. Put that all together, and yeah. Anxiety. But starting a job ALSO makes me anxious, so it's a cause for concern. I don't want to get there & panic.

Oh, and? There's a half mile walk from the bus stop to the place. That's not a big deal, except it's business casual. I'd have to figure out a type of shoe that would be comfortable for walking + look appropriate with slacks (and I have to shop for these things--shoes, slacks, blouses--and get the pants hemmed, all of it, in the next week). Things like this stress me out.

On the other hand, the good news is: it's a job. It feels better to earn your money than be simply given it by unemployment. I'll have a purpose every day + a reason to hate Mondays again. It's also NOT a call center.

It's only April through August though, at least as a (supposed) guarantee. It's possibly a temp-to-hire position (where he said I'd more likely make something like $12/hr), but who knows. That's what they always say, & it's definitely not always true.

But WHATEVER. I'm overthinking things. As usual. Point is it's a freakin' J.O.B. And it appeared out of nowhere--with zero effort. So, I'm just gonna go with it. I'll do one of my old anxiety worksheets ahead of time, if needed, and cross my fingers that I do well. Whether I continue looking for something else right away, or give myself time--whatever--all of that can wait to be obsessed over until later. One thing at a time.

For now, I just wanted to drop in & let everyone know. Today's apparently the day for "WAIT, WHAT?"-type news. (Which, btw, for those who haven't heard yet? GUESS WHO'S PREGGERS? Ahhh! I feel like I need to flail my hands around spazzily & run into things.)

Lastly, y'all knew I'd have to include my official Life Transition Anthem here, right?

Comments

[jasminelily.livejournal.com]

Yay! Also, I know your short girl issues well -- I tend to wear skirts almost always because a) pants fit me weirdly, b) I don't have to worry about the hemming, because I always (like you) have to get pants hemmed, and c) no worries about changing shoes and having the hem problem! So if you're not opposed to skirts, you could try that (I've gotten some business casual skirts that I wear all the time to work at Target for not expensive at all, fyi). Also, get some good safety pins, and just pin up the pants when you're wearing comfy shoes so they don't drag.

But I do recommend the changing shoes thing, because it will make your good shoes last longer AND will make you more comfy during the day at work.

Yayyyyy for you and the job! Congrats, and I know you'll be great.

[rachg82.livejournal.com]

I've never worn skirts to work, but I wouldn't be opposed to it. I'm not sure if I'd want to do that every day, but it is a good idea. Same goes for the safety pins. Thanks, hon'!

[jasminelily.livejournal.com]

Dresses/skirts make my life SO much easier. No stress about alterations (I mean, I sometimes get them altered to either raise the hem a little or fix the shoulders, but I don't HAVE to), no stress about shoes for the hem, so much more comfortable, don't have to worry about too low/too high rise, etc.

[rachg82.livejournal.com]

Well, at least I'll be starting there during the spring. If it were winter, I wouldn't want to wear skirts in the morning (walking/taking the bus). This will be a good time of year for that sort of thing.

[keenai.livejournal.com]

I love dresses/skirts in the spring and summer UNLESS the building I work in is cold. Then they suck. But I am always cold, so.

In the winter, you can always wear thick, cute tights with your skirts/dresses OR wear pants under them to work and then take them off. Let me tell you a little about the life of a commuter, ha. Can you tell I have done it before?