I'll be someone who won't be forgotten
Jun. 24th, 2011 01:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rachg82-So, guess what I did? Took a nap on Tuesday & slept through my doctor's appointment, that's what. Go, team! I need to stop doing that. Last night I managed to actually sleep at a semi-normal time (well, 6:30 am to 11:30 am. Better than noon to night!), but then I took a nap around four something & didn't wake back up until close to midnight.
-Before my nap, I spent the afternoon with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
crabbytreehouse. I'd been craving breakfast food hardcore lately (thanks a lot, Food Network), so we walked to Shari's & grabbed something to eat, then came back to my apartment & chatted for a while. I had orange juice, which is a no-no per my acid reflux, but God, whatever--sometimes I just want some juice, stomach! Deal with it!
-Bones isn't having its Fall premiere until Nov. 3rd, y'all. I'm having X-Files flashbacks. Hopefully this means we'll get a Christmas baby, though.
-I'm having one of those times when I don't know what I'm feeling -- like when you go to pick a "mood" for your lj entry & just sit there at a loss, like, "What IS my mood?" I think there's some sadness in there, but I don't know why. I'm not sure if it's my uncle's death, the email my sister sent, being reminded of my friends from last year while talking to Deiva today, or what. There's some aimless nervousness in there too, which might be over worrying about getting a job I won't hate, or even simply from my GAD & influenced by nothing-type shit like "Oh, I still need to do laundry. And I'd better call my aunt again, since I said I would in my message. And I need to finish my fic, already. And my trash is full. And and and…"--you get the idea. Sigh, whatever. I'm just gonna try to let it be. Parts of me DON'T feel sad & nervous, but I guess that's okay? Moods can be complicated? And I don't need to "figure out" & "fix" the parts that are feeling bad, because sometimes it's OKAY to feel bad when there are reasons? IDEK.
-Still rewatching Arrested Development on Hulu. I kinda wish I had a cornballer.
-Okay, I just figured out, yes, I am feeling sad. I mean, not overwhelmingly so, but it's there. I think, y'know, it's not even just about my uncle being gone--although it IS about that too--but it's also about the issue of loss. There was already so much of it last year, as well as the beginning of this year, and losing yet another person now is kind of touching on that for me. I also think having something to be sad over right now is somewhat stress-inducing, because I just honestly don't want to be sad about anything anymore. I'm tired of it. But I know this is just one of those things you have to allow for.
-I feel like I might have more to say, but I don't know what. I'm gonna try to work on my fic now, hopefully make a bit more progress, assuming my funky mood doesn't serve as a writer's blocky douchewaffle. We'll see.
For my VotD, here's a music vid from one of my Hot 26 chickadees:
-Before my nap, I spent the afternoon with
crabbytreehouse. I'd been craving breakfast food hardcore lately (thanks a lot, Food Network), so we walked to Shari's & grabbed something to eat, then came back to my apartment & chatted for a while. I had orange juice, which is a no-no per my acid reflux, but God, whatever--sometimes I just want some juice, stomach! Deal with it!-Bones isn't having its Fall premiere until Nov. 3rd, y'all. I'm having X-Files flashbacks. Hopefully this means we'll get a Christmas baby, though.
-I'm having one of those times when I don't know what I'm feeling -- like when you go to pick a "mood" for your lj entry & just sit there at a loss, like, "What IS my mood?" I think there's some sadness in there, but I don't know why. I'm not sure if it's my uncle's death, the email my sister sent, being reminded of my friends from last year while talking to Deiva today, or what. There's some aimless nervousness in there too, which might be over worrying about getting a job I won't hate, or even simply from my GAD & influenced by nothing-type shit like "Oh, I still need to do laundry. And I'd better call my aunt again, since I said I would in my message. And I need to finish my fic, already. And my trash is full. And and and…"--you get the idea. Sigh, whatever. I'm just gonna try to let it be. Parts of me DON'T feel sad & nervous, but I guess that's okay? Moods can be complicated? And I don't need to "figure out" & "fix" the parts that are feeling bad, because sometimes it's OKAY to feel bad when there are reasons? IDEK.
-Still rewatching Arrested Development on Hulu. I kinda wish I had a cornballer.
-Okay, I just figured out, yes, I am feeling sad. I mean, not overwhelmingly so, but it's there. I think, y'know, it's not even just about my uncle being gone--although it IS about that too--but it's also about the issue of loss. There was already so much of it last year, as well as the beginning of this year, and losing yet another person now is kind of touching on that for me. I also think having something to be sad over right now is somewhat stress-inducing, because I just honestly don't want to be sad about anything anymore. I'm tired of it. But I know this is just one of those things you have to allow for.
-I feel like I might have more to say, but I don't know what. I'm gonna try to work on my fic now, hopefully make a bit more progress, assuming my funky mood doesn't serve as a writer's blocky douchewaffle. We'll see.
For my VotD, here's a music vid from one of my Hot 26 chickadees:
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Date: 2011-06-25 04:35 pm (UTC)Thanks. :)
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Date: 2011-06-25 04:50 pm (UTC)Yeah, I'm going to bawl for her too! (Because I have decided it's definitely happening ;)
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Date: 2011-06-25 04:58 pm (UTC)Ew, God, no! Haha. Fathers are not meant to see their daughters' cha chas (*unless they're changing their diaper, hee)
I'm relieved they're consciously taking a different approach to BB's pregnancy/labor though. Hodgela's was a bit too sugary sweet. I may want a happyhappyjoyjoy Christmas ep, but no "your whole life vibrating with me" stuff. Heh.
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Date: 2011-06-25 04:59 pm (UTC)I may want a happyhappyjoyjoy Christmas ep, but no "your whole life vibrating with me" stuff. Heh.
YES. I too left that scene with an urgent need to find my toothbrush so ITA. Something more befitting of BB - as long as they both look a little weepy-eyed I'll be happy ;)